Note: this builds on the previous post
(MFGH) As we were saying yesterday, "who you are" is much bigger than you usually think of yourself. Consider trying to define God or the Mother or Heart or Body… given that they are a part of you, where do they "end?" The issue has been confused for several reasons. One is that are several layers of reality. So you have to define yourself on each layer. Another is you are "made up of" parts that exist on each layer of reality. So you are a multidimensional being yourself. Another is that each of your layers has its own history, its own emergence point… related to the emergence of each of the creations. Another is that each creation reiterates or echoes the previous creations, so you have the original imprinting and then the reenactments.
Another is that you are a holographic being in a holographic universe so that you are related to each of the other parts internally as well as externally. A subset of this is that you have macrocosms of each aspect of the universe within you. Another is that you are in human form now, which has all the four parts. Each of these parts carries the imprints of the "parental" parts in it.
Another aspect is fragmentation. This is the major problem. Your parts are now embodied in different beings (who also exist on different levels of reality.) They are acting out for the most part. Often on you. And there is the "oversoul" concept that tries to make sense of this.
And finally, there is the "you" that you most identify with, that apparently has its own body, history, emergence point, story… in this life most obviously, but also in all of the history of creation… This is both a very real thing and also a construct…
Maybe you could think of your identity as something like the "stream of Grace." Something that exsists thoughout all of the layers, parts, lifetimes, creations, etc. Something that is uniquely "you." Something that holds you together, that organizes you. Something that has a life force. Something that you can tap into. Your own personal Tao. Your path.
(me) wow what a radical concept…
(MFGH) see if you can give Voice to this energy/essence.
(me) I see a sort of shiny heroic figure… definitely Daughter… yellow and golden…she has armor on and a sword…she is showing me that she is a fighter…
(her) I am your "archetype." I exist throughout all of the levels and layers and creations. I am a fighter because I was not allowed to fulfill my destiny path in the beginning. I have had to fight for my place. I am not opposed to laying down my sword. I am also a lover.
(me) I am getting an image of a Greek woman, dancing
(her) I have many faces… I am the part that you recently identified are the protector of your damaged will…I have always been on "a mission from God"… I do a lot of work—what you could call "volunteer rescue" work… seeking your lost parts in the aftermath of a disaster… tireless…always renewing…
I am your hope and I hold your dream. I am the equivalent of Jesus in that poem about footprints on the sand. I carry you when you cannot carry yourself. I survive even when you kill yourself or are killed. I am strong. You can trust me, but I do not need your trust. I will be there for you no matter what.
I am the aspect of you that is Deity, that is a creator being. I have been there since the beginning. I need the "Mother side" of Grace in order to keep going. This has been the most tenuous part of me. The weak link in the chain. But as Mother and Daughter rebuild our relationship, I am stronger and more healthy.
I do not have a name—I have all names.
(me) I get that I want to call you the Latin name for gold
(her) yes this is a good name for me. I like that is has "om" in it. The sound of the Mother's vibration. This can be your personal mantra when you want to do a sounding meditation.
(me) cool! Are you like my Oversoul?
(her) in a way, but I do not exist on a separate plane, I exist throughout all the planes. I am that core nugget, that spark of life. Or more like the Thread of life. The thread of your life (lives) woven in the Great Tapestry.
I am also your Destiny Path. You could also call me Serendipity or Synchronicity. In this way I am like Grace. But your personal Grace, just for you.
I am like an assemblage point, but I have more dimensionality than a "point." I hesitate to say I am a tube, even though I do have "tubularity." I am more like a Web. A web of consciousness.
I would like to give you another way to think about healing your fragmentation. Up until now, you have always thought of bringing lost parts back in to the container of "you." But what draws those lost parts to you? What path do they follow back to you? That is me. I am your "wormhole" that connects them to you. For good or for ill.
You can assist your fragments' return to you with your Desire (magnetism + intent). Releasing the judgments that block you from owning them obviously helps as well. And if you are sensitive, you can use your reflections to help you find them. Your reflections are Me at work. They are my gift to you. If you are confused about them, you can ask me for help. You can ask me to show you the thread between you and the lost essence that it calling for acceptance and release.
But the other way of thinking involves turning this "inside out." It involves using the "outreaching" aspect of the Mother's grace to find you connections to what is "out there" in your reality, and go to them rather than having them come to you. This is helpful because your essence is not always in a whole fragment of you. It is also embedded in other beings, that you cannot bring back into you. This is how you find and move your essence that has aligned with other's agendas.
You may not get a "history" when this essence comes back, but you will probably have a sense of identifying with an "outside" point of view that you did not understand before.
(me) I am getting the image of a vacuum hose going out there and picking up a certain vibration of "dust".
(her) yes. In the past this capacity has been abused in dark magic. People have sent out life force along the lines to get their fragments to act out their agendas. But it can also be used for healing.
Another way to think of me is your personal vibration. Your note, your tune, your number, your color. I am bigger than your "point of view" because I have access to all of your fragmentation that you do not have at any given moment (because of your denials). But I am also the core of your point of view.
(me) wow. I am thinking of my conversation with X: if the fundamental question of being is not "who am I?", then what is the question?
(her) It is not easy to put into English. Try and translate what I am communicating nonverbally to you.
(me) "What/where is my stream of Grace?" I am getting an image/feeling of energy—a lot of light—coming straight into my heart, and broadening into a tunnel that I can then travel down…
the symbolism of the RU logo suddenly has a lot of meaning for me…
"What is the path that I AM?" … "What is the web that I AM?"
(her/me) …
