Heart--The Master Assemblage Point

What follows is a compilation of four sessions. I have done light editing, but there may be some disconnections between sessions.


2007-01-30

Note: I asked about future events.

(MFGH) You can access this information yourself by treating your will as your own personal oracle. You also have the option of accessing information like this through any location on your Heart Channel. [This is an energy channel between Indigo, Green and Orange, often connected in meditating by running energy in a figure eight, or around two touching spheres.]

Each position will give you a slightly different perspective. The Indigo doorway will give you visions and understandings about the shape of the energies involved. The Heart doorway will give you information about the connections between the parts and the balance between them. The Hara doorway will give you direct information about the nature of the energies and entities involved. And of course you can ask us.

But it will empower you, especially in your role of Indigo Seer, to learn how to "use" your own instrument and trust your ability to do so. Yes, you have a sound instrument. It has its own shape, tone, and resonance in Our eyes, and this is not wrong. We can get from you what we can't get from anyone else. This is why everyone is a precious and necessary part of creation. Even the fragments are necessary. They hold the vibration that was not wanted in the original parent part. We would not want this vibration to go away! Creation would have long been dead if this was the case.

(me) thank you. That is really cool about the three doorways.

(MFGH) this is part of our lesson about "mind". Imagine you capacity to interact when you are able to see the energy flow, the connections and balances, and know about the essence involved all in one apprehension. In fact we would like you to practice t his. We would like you to put a sections on your website of assignments or exercises for people to do.

(me) cool!

(MFGH) but that is for the future. For now, let us look together at your questions through each of the doorways. Which question do you want to focus on?


2007-02-01

(me) Okay here is a topic: the Second Attention. [See Castaneda]

(God) this is a big topic. And it is related to Indigo. There is an assemblage point in what is called the "third eye." By assemblage point I mean a place where you can access or perceive different layers of reality. But it is more than that, because perception is an activity. It is not just a passive receiving of something "out there." It is creating a relationship between yourself and out there. It is a particular kind of manifestation. It is "assembling" data and making meaning out of it.

In some layers of reality, you can manipulate what it out there more easily. Lucid dreaming is the most common experience of this. So is learning to quiet the mind, lower the blood pressure, increase energy flow, etc. Meditation can strengthen one's power to affect reality, at least at the level of one's own body-being. Practicing an art or craft is also very good for this.

We are always connected to the Second Attention, its just that we are not usually conscious of what is happening there, let alone conscious of our impact on it and how we are creating our reality in the First Attention through it. We—including you, including humanity—are incredibly creative beings. For a long time I (God) did not understand how I was creating the reflections I was seeing. The role of denial was unseen.

However there were parts of Creation that did understand some of the ways that I was creating reality, in that they were witness to my shadow and knew it was a part of me. This was fragmented knowledge, and in many cases what was witnessed was denied again, because it seemed pointless or even dangerous to bring this lost knowledge forward.

So the whole creative function of the Creations was "broken." We lost the Original Vision (the blueprint and dream) that motivated us in Original Heart. We thought we would create something beautiful and loving. But we even forgot about that, for the most part. It seemed "real" to us that we were victims of our own Creation.

Essentially we all became disconnected assemblage points. We each had our own point of view, and we did not know how to connect them together for the purpose of manifesting our dreams. We were like an orchestra, out of tune, each musician having a different piece of music, sitting wherever, and no conductor.

So now we are trying to figure out:
• what is my instrument? (what is my personal and transpersonal identity?)
• where is my section? (what is my right place?)
• how does my piece of music fit in to the whole symphony? (what is my contribution?)
• how can I tune my instrument to match everyone else? (what is the balance point?)
• who or what is keeping the tempo? (what is Grace?)

This does not even address the problems of damaged instruments with missing pieces, or whole sections of the orchestra being gone, let alone the state of the musician's themselves.

Without the contributions of the whole orchestra, it is not possible to build an overview, and without an overview, it is a lot harder to coordinate the whole. This is why it is so important that everyone in Creation develop a relationship with Me, as "overview" is my thang.

I am speaking on the Macro level, of course, but I would also like to speak about the Micro level.

Each of you have multiple points of view within you, actually multiple assemblage points. And so you need to bring these in to harmony within, just as we need to bring their main Body of God counterparts into harmony without.

I recommend starting with your third eye (in indigo) and your hara (in orange). These can work together (mediated by heart in green) to give you a rich understanding of reality, and more.

The first step is to identify what these two assemblage points are already doing, automatically, without you having to do anything about it. This may begin as a conceptual process, but try to include the feeling aspect of it as well. Your goal is to shift from the "throught about" these naturally occurring processes to "being present with" them to "being them."

On a parallel track there are "feelings about" the processes that have to be worked through.

You can try the exercise on the GodChannel site. Some people find this helpful.

(me)

Okay thanks, lets continue this tomorrow.


2007-02-03

(MFGH) I would like to start with a model of perception that you [Sapphire] already know. I am talking about perception in our ordinary (First Attention) reality. This model breaks down the steps that happen in perception into discreet parts. Remember that this is constantly happening, so as you process each moment's input, you are also finishing up the process from the previous moment and anticipating the next moment. This leaves a seamless sense of reality unfolding over time.

In order for you to experience this for yourself, you need to pay close attention to what is happening moment-to-moment. There are various ways to do this, but the goal is to get "here," "now." If you think about it, that is where and when this process of perception is happening, so this is the only way to get present with it: to be where and when it is. Here. Now.

Sapphire, please give the "perception lecture."

(me) okay, here goes:

First let me say that this is about perception on the mental level. There are emotional inputs and responses that can make a big difference to the "reality" that we perceive, but I am going to separate them out and just talk about what goes on in the mind.

First I will give you an overview of the process, then we will go into a bit of detail about each step. For this example, we will narrow it down to one sense: sight. Here is the process:

objects of perception--> selection (what gets our attention)--> interpretation (meaning) --> categorization --> value judgement --> "reality" manifests

objects of perception
this is what is "out there." In our example, let us say that it we are in a dining room. There is a window with window coverings, a painting, a chandelier, a table and chairs, furniture with dishes, etc in it, and a bowl of fruit on the table.

selection
out of the field of light, shadow, form and color that is the raw data of light bouncing off of the objects and into our eye, certain things catch our attention. The first thing to consider is that we can only see a certain spectrum of light-energy.

The next question is what causes some things to catch our attention? To understand this fully, we need to understand what is going on for the person at the moment of perception.

There are certain conditions that "prime" us to notice certain things:
• salient data (if we are hungry, we are going to notice the apple in the fruit bowl)
• expected data (if we are visiting a home of a new friend that has a good fashion sense, we might expect that it would be tastefully decorated, so we would notice whether our expectations were met or not)
• relevant data (things are relevant to us depending on what we already know, so if we knew something about art, we would notice the painting.)

There are also things about the environment itself that attract attention:
• changing data (if the room was still and a mouse suddenly scurried across the floor, the movement itself would draw our attention)
• repetitive data (if there were repeated design elements in the room, like colors or shapes, we would notice that)
• unique data (if the bowl was unusual in some way, it would stand out)

interpretation
here is where we identify what the objects are. The raw data resolves into table, chairs, windows, fruit, etc. We do this by comparing what we are looking at with what we already know. So our entire history has bearing on what we see.

A classic story of the importance of having seen similar things previously comes out of anthropology. Some folks who lived in the rain forest for their whole lives saw a meadow for the first time. They had never seen open space before. On the meadow were livestock grazing. As they had never looked over a distance before, they had no concept of perspective, that things farther away were smaller. They thought that the livestock were insects against a field of green.

categorization
in this instance we identify where the objects of perception fit into our scheme of things. We put them into our "cognitive structures" or "schema." There are many types of cognitive structures that we compare the objects in:
• prototype (when I mentioned an apple, did you think of a red, green, or yellow one? Did it have a stem? A leaf? Whatever you thought of was your "prototypical" apple. When I have asked my students what color their apples were, they were surprisingly distributed across the color categories.)
• stereotype (does the room match your stereotypical expectations of the kind of dining room that your kind of friend has? does it match the expectations that you have considering his or her gender, orientation, ethnicity, class, age, etc?)
• implicit personality theories (does your friend have an introverted or extroverted personality? Do the colors in the room match your expectations based on her personality type?)
• attribution theories (this is about whether we attribute the cause of something to the person--things in their control--or their circumstances—things outside of their control. Say the room was messy. Would you think that she was a messy person, or would you think that unexpected things going on in her life precluded her form tidying up?)
• scripts (these are expectations about how things should unfold. Did your friend make the "requisite" statement apologizing about the state of the room? Or do you know her to be the kind of person who wouldn't follow those kinds of rules?)

Remember that all of this is happening in a moment! And continuously.

Finally, we have

value judgment
Once we have located the object in a category, the value that we place on that category determines the value of the object. The basic distinctions are whether something is good or bad, whether we like or dislike it, etc. But in reality there are gray areas.

For example, we could recognize that the painting is "good" by how it compares to the standards of the class of painting that it is; a "good" landscape. But maybe we don't like landscapes, so that while we could say that the painting is "objectively" good, we still are put off by it.

Or another example, say the painting is a good one, and we like it, but it does not "go with" the style of the rest of the room.

And then on top of these judgments are the ones about whether the room is "nice" or not, or if we have more developed categories (cognitive schema) in the realm of interior design, whether it is "successful" or not, and then how this reflects on the character of your friend. Is design a criteria for your evaluation of her? Or could you care less?

Again, this all happens in a flash. To give you an example from my own life:

I was driving my car down a street in a town that used to be ranchland, and still had ranches at the edge of it. I glanced at two people walking on the sidewalk. The shorter one had a white beard. I noticed this because it was a bit unusual. I interpreted this person as an older man. I categorized him as a rancher, and assumed that his companion was his son. I got a warm feeling about the father and son strolling down the street. I approved of them.

An instant later I looked back at them and discovered that the father and son were actually a man and a woman. The woman had been putting on a white visor, and at the moment I had glanced at her, it was under her chin. Now it was on her head. I was astonished at how much I made up about these people in such a short time.

This brings us to the question of the accuracy of our perceptions—which I define as "functional representations of reality." There are several things that determine this:
• the complexity of our cognitive categories.
• flexibility of our categories
• strength of our assumptions about the cause of behavior
• fundamental attribution error
• "mindfulness"

There is more, but I will stop now.


2007-02-05

[MFGH suggested that I do some meditation.]

Wow—I got a lot of info from each of my chakras… and I got a sense of Heart being the Master Assemblage Point…especially for my connection with my fragments and with other people… where the "web" hooks in to me… I got that it was at a point slightly towards my physical heart, left of my heart chakra, and slightly above my heart chakra.

The connecting cord was shaped more like a funnel than a line, but had a main direction… I wonder what the main direction is all about?

(MFGH) the main direction, or connection, is your relationship to the Main Web—which is a roughly spherical network that surrounds the Earth, about a meter from the surface. The Oceans and Mountains change the configuration and add their own energies to it, but that is for another time.

Each person has a main "orientation" to this layer of manifestation. Imagine that everyone is an egg-shaped being… and the eggs are floating in the “sea” that is the Web… some tilted forwards, back, or to the side… some sitting higher, some lower… because each person is hooked in at their own master assemblage point, which determines their “angle.”

And as you got in your meditation, this connection with "all your relations," as the Lakota say, is focused on in so many teachings because it has the most "leverage" in terms of influencing and being influenced by the Web. Many teachers want you to heal the planet with love, or to send out light through your heart chakra, or to accept Jesus into your heart, or to only have loving thoughts and feelings, etc. They are asking you to move energy through your Master Assemblage Point to heal the planet.

And this is not wrong, this is Heart's right place in fact, but as you well know, the imprints and fragmentation in heart and in all of the chakras has prevented this from happening in a way that includes the Will and does not increase denial.

The good news is now that you know that, you can begin to use your assemblage points and your heart connections in a healing way. And the process of trying to do this will no doubt bring up your issues in relation to Heart. And this is a good thing, especially if you have intent to release your judgments and receive and express your feelings. In fact if you are having a reaction to this idea, then you have your doorway into what needs to be moved so that the Web can be reclaimed by Loving Light and We can assist in the planetary healing.

(me) wow, thank you. This explains a lot.

(God) Pay attention to the push/pull in and through your heart in connection with the outside world. Know that you do have a degree of choice in what you let out and let in. It mostly has to do with intent. Your light-being knows what it has to do in order to open, close, shield you, etc. once it starts becoming more "fluid" as you move and release judgments.

We have been talking about energy moving on a horizontal plane. To add the vertical “tubular” reality to all of this, notice that you can discern how open a person is to Loving Light (above them) and the Mother (below them) by feeling the quality and quantity of what is coming through your heart connection. This is in part why you feel drawn to some people and repelled by others.

Your heart connection is also where you can find agreements about giving and getting light from each other.

(me) what about your Decree that we can't get light from each other, we have to get it from you directly?

(God) This is true. And it is also true that each of you has a role to play in the Great Circulation. But you all have a connection with me, and although this relationship is evolving, I am still the Source of Light. I want everyone to work through their issues with me. I want to heal my relationships with everyone and everything. If you choose not to, then you must move back. I need my space just as much as anyone does.

But any part of you that wants to receive me will be allowed to stay. And I am not saying that it is wrong for you to have the thoughts and feelings of wanting to reject me. I want to hear this, and I want to know why. I want to receive your expression of the pain of our separation.

(me) thank you. but it’s difficult to trust sometimes. It’s difficult to trust you, and to trust that I am receiving you.

(God) yes, and with good reason. So we have to rebuild trust, moment by moment, step by step. We have to release what has held in response to the places we have betrayed each other. I want you to know that I will be there with you.

Origins of Unloving Light

2007-01-08

Note: this is a continuation of the previous channeling post.

(MFGH) Let's do some more work on the role of Indigo in mind, etc.

(me) okay.

(MFGH) do you have any questions?

(me) I guess I want to know more about the Second Creation and if there is an Indigo Woman and my role there.

(MFGH) One thing I have alluded to is Lucifer's participation in the Second Creation. Again, it is important to sort out the original Second Creation from the later reenactments. To set the scene: We have had our first taste of Manifestation. We have had our first experience of Other—Other as adversary. We have had our first experience of Forgetting, and our first experience with the Void. From one perspective, we were still One, exploring all of the corners and edges of the Universe, but from our experience of it, we had lost that consciousness, we had lost our connections with each other, we were experiencing Loss for the first time. And this tremendous grief did not even have a name. It did not remember what it was missing. And the Mother carried this grief in her essence.

The part of Heart that was still with her—most of Heart, actually—had the impulse for connections, for reaching across the void, for traveling forth. I am speaking of the Yang polarization of her heart right now. There was also the Yin aspect of it, which wanted to receive the Light, which was doing its best to draw it to her.

We have spoken of the guilt that the Yang part had, for reaching so far out that it split off from the rest of her, but we have not spoken of the guilt that the Yin part had for "drawing the smack" as it interpreted events. This part has been confused because it feels it is more than just the victim here, it feels that it was the reason that the smack came. It has identified with the Mother and the Mother's position, but it has felt uneasy about this because it has also identified with the Daughter-as-perpetrator role.

It has felt as if the Mother had a big target painted on her that said "hit me," and it has felt like the center of that bull's eye.

There is guilt in both Mother and Daughter for wanting penetration, for wanting the Light to reach down all the way into the core and beyond. If we add some dimensionality to this image, imagine that the target it painted on the surface, with Yellow at the top and Orange and Red deeper in. Yellow pointed the way to Red, or rather, was the Doorway to Red. It drew the light and opened to the light, but then there was unloving light to contend with, and by the time that this moved towards the Will, Yellow did not know to close.

Orange and Red had not fully opened yet, and this was in part why they got blasted away by the unloving light. It did not have any where to go when it was not received, and so pushed on the essence instead.

So what does all of this have to do with the Second Creation?

Indigo foresaw this on some level. Indigo knew that there was Light essence that wanted unlimited speed and did not "care" how it felt to receive this light. In fact this essence did not really understand that the other end of its polarity, the Will, was what opened space for the Light to speed into. Because it was on the leading edge of Creation, it did not perceive anything "out in front" of it opening space. At this very edge was pleasure, was the Joy and Ecstasy of Virgin Penetration, and it never wanted it to stop.

This essence, this momentum, was unleashed in the Original Explosion that sundered Original Heart into the "pieces" of Deity. It was what was needed to push on the Will's squeeze. This was the first "permission" to rev up as fast as it could go. For this essence, the explosion was Orgasmic. It has sought to recreate this experience from an imprint level. It imprinted that it's orgasm was what "killed" the Will, and to kill the will was Orgasmic.

So while what gave it its orgasm was the resistance that the Will provided, it imprinted that any resistance must be broken through. It "loves" to find any places of closing down and saying no that the Will has because it receives pleasure to push through this resistance. Thus rape, torture, violating boundaries, and everything that is the opposite of Love was born.

And it is very important to understand that this isn't a "discreet essence" that only a part of the light had. ALL of light imprinted at the moment of the original explosion. All of light is connected to this end of its continuum. And therefore, all of light has had to deal with its guilt about being aroused by the Will's suffering.

Parts of the Will imprinted that orgasm = death (and therefore death = orgasm) as well. Especially the part that was at the interface of the separation of Light and Will, i.e. Heart.

And this essence has had guilt as well, guilt that it is aroused by its own sacrifice.

(me) wow…

(MFGH) So now let us talk about what happened to this "unloving" light after the original explosion, and how different segments of it came back towards the Central Universe and interacted with the other Parts in the progression of the creations.

You may have seen diagrams of the reflection of light by a mirror.

(me) [I searched and found this image]

(MFGH) and concave reflection

(me) [and this one]

(MFGH) When the light reached the "edge of the Universe" (when it exceeded the speed at which the Will could open space) it "bounced back" towards the Central Universe.

And as I mentioned before, when it did this, it had (re) imprinted from its encounter with absolute limitation, with what is essentially absolute sexual frustration. Except now that it had a "direction" for its rage, and that was towards what set the limits, the Will. So when it bounced back, it had a new intent—to find the source of this boundary, and break the boundary (which amounted to killing the Will.)

Now we will complicate this with three variables: One is that the light is expanding in all directions (not just one single ray); Two is that the edge of the Universe is Concave (as the Origin was one point, and all points on the edge are expanding at the same speed, which generates a sphere); and Three is that the edge of the Universe is moving outward.

With the first and second complications, the consequence is that unloving light is virtually everywhere.

(me) [this image shows the patterns of reflection in a coffee cup]

(MFGH) With the third complication, the consequence is that unloving light is reflecting back to us virtually at all times.

Our solution to this is a bit complicated, but it involves allowing the light that desires to go faster than the Will wants to, to do just that, by penetrating this boundary of space and becoming lost light, with no will presence, but then to prevent it from "bouncing back" at the Central Universe with the positioning of "guilt" as the boundary around the edge of the Universe which the light will not be able to penetrate. In occult modeling, this is the "Ring-Pass-Not" in its right place. Also note that there will be no space for the light to expand into here.

So we have a model of the conflict between light that wants unlimited speed and the speed that the Will can open space for light, and I am hoping that you can see that this is a dynamic process, as the rate of expansion for both the light and the Will are in a constant acceleration. There is always light that is frustrated, no matter how fast the Will expands, and it is always being turned back at the edge of the Universe towards the center, no matter which Creation we are talking about.

I am making this sound like it is a constant, smooth dynamic, but in fact, it was not, as there were build ups of the light before the release of the orgasm in each successive Creation.

So now we are in a place where we can talk about the orgasm the "birthed" the Second Creation, and the role of the unloving light in this.

the brain, the mind, the chakras, and Indigo

2007-01-07

Note: This is the end of a conversation. I was asking about bi-polar. GABA is a neurotransmitter involved in the symptoms of mania and depression. In simplistic terms, it is what "speeds things up" and "slows things down."

I have felt like I have been in a long, long argument about whether "denial" or "the brain" is causal to my bipolar. I have felt that the brain is causal, with an acknowledgement that there was something causal to the brain problems. I have felt that the explanation that "my bipolar is manifest because I have denied my will" is too simplistic. Since receiving this channeling, I have started reading Ceanne's new book, Feelings Matter. It has been so helpful to me in understanding the relationship of the history of the Creations to the manifestation of Brain. It has filled in the missing link for me.

I offer this channeling as a stepping stone in my progression of understanding. I have a bigger "context" now, but I think this is worth sharing.

(me) ...explain to me about GABA. What is the OC of it? What does it have to do with denial spirits, Lucifer, etc.

(MFGH) GABA isn't "causal," but it is closer to the cause. It is a primary symptom that has many consequences. It is also the "means" to the symptoms. In other words, if you look at it inside out—if you say: "what would need to go wrong in order to get these experiences [depression and mania] to happen in some one's life?" the answer would be GABA and the other neurotransmitters. It is kind of like the argument over whether the Sun or the Earth is causal in the radiation that causes problems on the Earth. You could look at it from both sides, and create strong arguments for both sides, but it doesn't mean that you have to pick one or the other. Each sees the "truth" from its point of view. And each side doesn't appreciate having its point of view denied by the other.

It might be helpful to understand Body's role in manifesting the Truth about the relationship of Spirit to Will, as well as the History of Experience that the particular essence is holding. You have to trace it back to its evolutionary OC.

We are not done with the story. We need to set certain fundamental building blocks into place. There is much more that needs to be explained about the relationship of consciousness and brain and mind and emotions. There is more that needs to be understood about Indigo's role in this. Why did the brain locate itself in the heart of the upper chakras? Why not a brain located in the hips, like a dinosaur?

And also, what about the emerging understanding of the body-brain, of the role of vibration at the cellular level, at the neuroreceptors throughout the body? What about crossing the blood-brain barrier?

There is a lot of lower-chakra blaming rage at the brain. There is a backlash that says that "brain is not causal!" Just like you have rage that says the "brain is causal!"

All of this has to be untangled in order to get at the "truth" of causality. The charges have to be gotten through. And this does not mean that the charges are wrong, it is just that until they have their say, their release, they cannot enlarge their understanding.

A more subtle level of the above charges are the question of perpetration. From the lower chakra perspectives, anything upper is causal in terms of perpetration. But they do not want to say that life comes from the brain. They feel that to do this is to deny their role in creation. They do not want to say that the manifested form of the problem is causal; that Body is causal. This gets Spirit off the hook. They are sick and tired of the answers to life's questions coming from the Spirit/Mind perspective. They are sick of Spirit/Mind telling them that they are causal to their own problems.

Each upper chakra has its own relationship to Brain and Spirit and Mind. And remember, we are speaking in generalities to lay out the territory, not defining the truth of any one experience.

Purple that aligned with Spirit feels frustrated when the Brain won't receive its input (inspiration). But it has had a huge impact on the judgments held in Mind for many people, depending on their polarizations.

Blue wants to control the Brain, and has many Mind control techniques to offer to gain and maintain power, especially over the lower chakra's input. Inspiration is okay, as long as it furthers the Blue agenda.

Indigo… well this is more tricky to explain…

Let us start with the role of the eyes and ears in the brain and mind.

The eyes are the sensory organ of the brain (along with the pituitary gland) and they transmit Light into electro-chemical impulses. The ears do the same with Vibration (along with the skull).

As you know, perception is a multi-step process of making meaning out of these impulses. Your mind is like the projector that is necessary to make a can of film come to life. The film (recorded experience) does not change, it does not appear or disappear, but it has no relevance, no contribution until it is fed through the mind. The mind is necessary for the film to come to life.

The other elements that are necessary are 1) time/process (moving the film through the projector one frame at a time), 2) light to illuminate the film, and 3) the screen to reflect the light back to the viewer.

The sound track has a parallel set of necessities for it to be heard—time/process, the amplifier, the speaker, the air that it vibrates, and the ear drum which receives the vibration.

The mind is all of these processes in total, while the brain is the mechanical parts of it within the body. The mind "makes sense" of what happens in the mechanical processes, and includes the "reality screen" which is "perceived" by the brain.

The paradox for Indigo, is that the mind, the whole process of perception and meaning-making is greater than Indigo, but also resides within it.

This is in part because of the history of Creation. If Purple and Blue hadn't gapped, the Mind would be more integrated into the whole upper chakra spectrum (not to mention the lower chakra spectrum). But as it happened, the Place that would hold and receive Mind, the "neutral territory" was Indigo.

If the connections between the other Chakras and Indigo was stronger, Mind would be a much broader experience. Indigo's true gifts would be realized, and it would also be able to incorporate the gifts from the lower chakras much more easily.

We talked recently of the Indigo-Green-Orange Heart-channel. If this had been allowed to develop, the experience of Mind would be completely different. Essentially, Mind would not be located in the upper chakras. It would be an integrative function of all of the chakras.

Body and Mind would not be the dichotomy that they are today. Mind would be much more identified with Heart, with Balance and with Integration.

So part of the Lower Chakra objections about the primacy of mind is an objection to the primacy of the upper-chakra orientation of mind.

In men, the split between their "upper head" and their "lower head" is often made fun of, but this is pointing to a real split, and a real condition that needs healing. In women, the split is between women who allow their "lower head (brain)" to even manifest and those that do not. The Virgin-Whore split. There is no conceptualization that those that do allow for the lower brain could integrate it with their upper brains.

And the ones that do allow their lower brain to have some presence are to be controlled by the males. Females allowing their lower brain to make decisions for the species are very threatening to the males.

They are threatening to the other females as well. For those that do have lower brain presence, there is competition, and for those that do not, there is condemnation.

A big part of the problem in integrating the upper and lower brains, is the loss of the Central Heart.

Here we have collapsed the distinctions of "mind" and "brain" and "head" because of the common vernacular, but we think you get the idea.

When Indigo manifest in the Second Creation, there was no understanding or reality that the Fourth Creation, Green, or the Sixth Creation, Orange, would not manifest in full ("correctly," or "per plan"). Well this is not exactly true, but the point is, there was no accommodation made that the future Creations would not go according to Plan, or that the Plan might need to be changed. So Indigo manifested Mind as best it could, with the expectation that this was just the first "third" of the equation, without any idea that this would end up being the essence that would have to hold the entire function of Mind--because Green and Orange would turn out to be damaged by the Smack.

This ended up being a pretty heavy burden for Indigo. It was required to do much more than it's original form could handle. It did not have the input or support from the rest of the Heart Channel.

And this is also why Indigo could be so unbalanced. Essentially it "forgot" that it was not meant to be the Mind/Brain center in isolation. Parts of it were happy to have this role as it gave it power in relationship to the rest of the chakras. Parts of it felt very victimized, but didn't really understand why. Parts of it held a lot of resentment at having to carry the load for the whole Body. Parts of it ended up being "overresponsible" for the situation. Parts of it thought that it must have done something wrong to end up in this predicament. And parts of it broke down under the stress of the situation.

Indigo has a long history of feeling like it's contribution could help, if only others would receive it, but also an unwillingness to share its contribution, because others didn't receive it. To the outsiders, Indigo is a very frustrating presence—they feel its judgments that things are not unfolding correctly, but without any helpful feedback or constructive criticism. This only contributes to their inability to receive Indigo, because they have backed up rage that Indigo needs to receive but hasn't.

All sides can help if they move their feelings privately, but ultimately, there needs to be an expression of their points of view to each other. Once Indigo accepts and processes its own victimization, it can receive the feelings from those that it impacted—how it's actions ended up impacting creation.

Indigo has confusion about power—it seems to have a lot of power on the one hand, but also very little power on the other. The situation is very unbalanced. It seems to "prey" on those that admit their need for Indigo's input—psychics that milk hundreds of dollars from their dependent and even addicted clients—to compensate for the loss of status that it has in the mainstream.

Indigo has been very afraid of its power—in part because of the questions of the role of envisioning in manifesting the future—but it has also felt hugely denied in that it's input has been either diminished or "interpreted" to forward the agenda of the interpreter.

Take the "Revelations" in the Bible for example… They are ostensibly an output by the Indigo Chakra. However the other chakras have analyzed and interpreted it, and used it as evidence for their points of view. The Bible does not contain the Indigo "perspective".

On the one hand, Indigo is happy that it has at least some influence on current events--at least the Revelations is included in the Bible. It has some acknowledgement that it has a right place. But on the other hand, it hasn't been able to present it's understanding on the message, because the ones that actually have the power want the message to work in their favor, and do not want Indigo to rock the boat.

And Heaven Forbid that everyone activate their Own Indigo! That would blow the power-mongers out of the water. So Revelations is giving its place in the Church Teachings, but the power to receive revelations is relegated to the influence of Lucifer. If you are "psychic," you are under the influence of the Devil.

And only the Church that can interpret the Indigo Revelations. Only the Church can declare any particular Revelation as "sanctioned" and "safe" to listen to.

There is a lot of cynicism in Indigo. This has to be broken down into its constituent parts of rage, frustration, resentment, fear, despair, and grief. Cynicism is an orientation that feels less threatening than actually experiencing the other feelings, but it is not a loving experience for the one that feels it or the ones that receive it. It is a stuck place, and will not take you to where you want to go.

(me) wow, thank you. I hope I can integrate this into my own process.

(MFGH) we have not doubt that you will. Just move in response.

Second Creation issues; the OC of unloving light

[Note: I haven't been able to post for a month, but I wanted to highlight that this channeling actually came the day after the previous post.]

(MFGH) Let's do some more work on the role of Indigo in mind, etc.

(me) okay.

(MFGH) do you have any questions?

(me) I guess I want to know more about the Second Creation and if there is an Indigo Woman and my role there.

(MFGH) One thing I have alluded to is Lucifer's participation in the Second Creation. Again, it is important to sort out the original Second Creation from the later reenactments. To set the scene: We have had our first taste of Manifestation. We have had our first experience of Other—Other as adversary. We have had our first experience of Forgetting, and our first experience with the Void. From one perspective, we were still One, exploring all of the corners and edges of the Universe, but from our experience of it, we had lost that consciousness, we had lost our connections with each other, we were experiencing Loss for the first time. And this tremendous grief did not even have a name. It did not remember what it was missing. And the Mother carried this grief in her essence.

The part of Heart that was still with her—most of Heart, actually—had the impulse for connections, for reaching across the void, for traveling forth. I am speaking of the Yang polarization of her heart right now. There was also the Yin aspect of it, which wanted to receive the Light, which was doing its best to draw it to her.

We have spoken of the guilt that the Yang part had, for reaching so far out that it split off from the rest of her, but we have not spoken of the guilt that the Yin part had for "drawing the smack" as it interpreted events. This part has been confused because it feels it is more than just the victim here, it feels that it was the reason that the smack came. It has identified with the Mother and the Mother's position, but it has felt uneasy about this because it has also identified with the Daughter-as-perpetrator role.

It has felt as if the Mother had a big target painted on her that said "hit me," and it has felt like the center of that bull's eye.

There is guilt in both Mother and Daughter for wanting penetration, for wanting the Light to reach down all the way into the core and beyond. If we add some dimensionality to this image, imagine that the target is painted on the surface of the Will, with Yellow just under the surface and Orange and Red deeper in. Yellow pointed the way to Red, or rather, was the Doorway to Red. It drew the light and opened to the light, but then there was unloving light to contend with, and by the time that this moved towards the Will, Yellow did not know to close.

Orange and Red had not fully opened yet, and this was in part why they got blasted away by the unloving light. It did not have any where to go when it was not received, and so pushed on the essence instead.

So what does all of this have to do with the Second Creation?

Indigo foresaw this on some level. Indigo knew that there was Light essence that wanted unlimited speed and did not "care" how it felt to receive this light. In fact this essence did not really understand that the other end of its polarity, the Will, was what opened space for the Light to speed into. Because it was on the leading edge of Creation, it did not perceive anything "out in front" of it opening space. At this very edge was pleasure, was the Joy and Ecstasy of Virgin Penetration, and it never wanted it to stop.

This essence, this momentum, was unleashed in the Original Explosion that sundered Original Heart into the "pieces" of Deity. It was what was needed to push on the Will's squeeze. This was the first "permission" to rev up as fast as it could go. For this essence, the explosion was Orgasmic. It has sought to recreate this experience from an imprint level. It imprinted that it's orgasm was what "killed" the Will, and to kill the will was Orgasmic.

So while what gave it its orgasm was the resistance that the Will provided, it imprinted that any resistance must be broken through. It "loves" to find any places of closing down and saying no that the Will has, because it receives pleasure to push through this resistance. Thus rape, torture, violating boundaries, and everything that is the opposite of Love was born.

And it is very important to understand that this isn't a "discreet imprint" that only a part of the light had. ALL of light imprinted at the moment of the original explosion. All of light is connected to this end of its continuum. And therefore, all of light has had to deal with its guilt about being aroused by the Will's suffering.

Parts of the Will imprinted that orgasm = death (and therefore death = orgasm) as well. Especially the part that was at the interface of the separation of Light and Will, i.e. Heart.

And this essence has had guilt as well, guilt that it is aroused by its own sacrifice.

(me) wow…

(MFGH) So now let us shift gears and talk about what happened to this "unloving" light after the original explosion, and how different segments of it came back towards the Central Universe and interacted with the other Parts in the progression of the creations.

You may have seen diagrams of the reflection of light by a mirror.

(me) specular reflection and concave mirror reflection>

(MFGH) When the light reached the "edge of the Universe" (when it exceeded the speed at which the Will could open space) it "bounced back" towards the Central Universe.

And as I mentioned before, when it did this, it had (re) imprinted from its encounter with absolute limitation, with what is essentially absolute sexual frustration. Except now that it had a "direction" for its rage, and that was towards what set the limits, the Will. So when it bounced back, it had a new intent—to find the source of this boundary, and break the boundary (which amounted to killing the Will.)

Now we will complicate this with three variables: One is that the light is expanding in all directions (not just one single ray); two is that the edge of the Universe is Concave (as the Origin was one point, and all points on the edge are expanding at the same speed, which generates a sphere); and three is that the edge of the Universe is moving outward.

With the first and second complications, the consequence is that unloving light is virtually everywhere.

(me) <reflections of light rays bouncing back from the edges of a coffee cup>

(MFGH) With the third complication, the consequence is that unloving light is reflecting back to us virtually at all times.

(Note: Our solution to this is a bit complicated, but it involves allowing the light that desires to go faster than the Will wants to, to do just that, by penetrating this boundary of space and becoming lost light, with no will presence, but then to prevent it from "bouncing back" at the Central Universe by positioning a layer of "guilt" as the boundary around the edge of the Universe which the light will not be able to penetrate. In occult modeling, this is the "Ring-Pass-Not" in its right place. Also note that there will be no space for the lost light to expand into here.)

So we have a model of the conflict between light that wants unlimited speed and the speed that the Will can open space for light, and I am hoping that you can see that this is a dynamic process, as the rate of expansion for both the light and the Will are in a constant acceleration. There is always light that is frustrated, no matter how fast the Will expands, and it is always being turned back at the edge of the Universe towards the center, no matter which Creation we are talking about.

I am making this sound like it is a constant, smooth dynamic, but in fact, it was not, as there were build ups of the light before the release of the orgasm in each successive Creation.

the Mind, Indigo, Heart and the Chakras

2007-01-07

[note: I had a business proposal to write, and I was up against a deadline.]

…So I am mostly feeling heaviness and fear/dread/guilt. I hate deadlines. I wish I had the chair but I don't even feel like I would have time to go move on it. I barely feel like I have time to channel. I don't even have time to formulate a question.

I feel that I am "bad" in relationship to the deadline. I guess I feel that I should have finished the proposal already, even though I knew that that would not be possible. I also feel "bad" in that I should have already done my research on pricing, etc. I should have been more serious about my professional development. I should already have training under my belt, and belong to associations, etc.

Its like a confrontation with the denial that I have been in. Kind of a "what was I thinking?" And also, "why didn't I give myself permission to pursue this stuff, [training, joining associations, etc.] when I knew it was a good thing?" Something about not feeling like I could justify it? To DD (Dear Dad), to DH (Dear Husband)?

I have not been in control of my career. I have been reactive, and also in fantasy… wanting an idealized version and not confronting the survival terror of supporting myself.

I guess I am starting to feel some of that terror… and also terror of my own inadequacies, of making a mistake, etc. Of fucking up big time. I wish I could get my own version of malpractice insurance. I wish my clients would take responsibility for themselves so I wouldn't have to be the fall guy if something goes wrong.

I need to go back on the chair about this.

And what about the chair???

What about doing sessions with other people???

MFGH can you help me receive and move and heal my terror?

(MFGH) yes, of course. Remember, whether this terror is triggered in you or not, it is still in existence. it is still suffering. So every time that you feel it, you are healing it. You are doing a good thing.

(me) I don't know if I believe that. Its confusing to me, especially with the anxiety part of the bipolar. I don't feel that denied will is causal. I don't feel that being terrified does anything to heal it. I don't know how to move a panic attack.

I am angry about the whole thing.

(MFGH) well we haven't gone into the causes of bipolar yet.

(me) well I don't think that you know, or that I am really channeling you, or could trust what you say… I feel like I can't bridge the two paradigms of causality.

I certainly don't think that it can be healed… when I look at how outsiders view it. I'm having a lot of doubts right now.

(MFGH) well consider your history, your position, just in this life. Consider the world views you have been indoctrinated in, and have tried to bridge and incorporate. It’s a big task, and you don't have anybody to turn to who has done this before. There are no answers out there for you. You have to discover this, construct this for yourself. You have to have an answer that really satisfies you, that satisfies everything.

And that is not wrong. It is not wrong to want a satisfactory answer about the chair, either. It is not wrong to want to understand, to understand all the way down through the cellular to the atomic level. It is not wrong to want to understand how the knowledge to use it was generated. It is not wrong that you don't want to deny one paradigm in favor of another one, but to see the truth in both of them.

It is important that you distinguish the reasons why the paradigms clash when they do. When is it because of a gap in the ability of the paradigm to consider something, and when is it because the knowledge is just not reached yet?

You are in a unique position, and you have a unique role in manifesting or bringing forth understanding.

(me) but don't you already have this understanding? Aren't you God? Can't you just give it to me? Why are you buttering me up?

(MFGH) yes, we do have the understanding, and yes, we can give it to you, and we will. You are the fulfillment of our understanding, don't you see that? We cannot manifest our understanding virtually. We have to have a (human) receptacle, a human co-creator, a human intelligence. The understanding does not exist "out there in the ethers" waiting for us to give it to you. It is unpacked, given life, given form, in your experience.

You are like our committed listener on the topic, or maybe a therapist. You help us bring it from latency to completion.

(me) mumble mumble grr grr

(MFGH) this is why it is important for you to talk to others who are in your position. And to stay with the folks at The Icarus Project. You are building knowledge, yes indeed-y, you are breaking new ground.

(me) well this is in part why I get so irritated with other people who are telling me the truth about things, especially bipolar, who have no experience with it. Or who deny the understandings of Western Science.

(MFGH) the point we are trying to make is that you are not wrong, in fact, your skepticism about non-Wstern medicine and insistence that it has something to offer is in fact valuable to us, as well as to creation. It may be a long time before this has wider impact, but as long as it helps you, then we are making progress.

(me) okay then explain to me about GABA [a neurotransmitter that is related to manifesting the symptoms of bipolar]. What is the OC of it? What does it have to do with denial spirits, Lucifer, etc.?

(MFGH) GABA isn't "causal," but it is closer to the cause. It is a primary symptom of its OC that has many consequences. The normal paradigm is to say that GABA levels cause bipolar, therefore this is how to solve the problem But GABA is also the "means" to the symptoms you experience as bipolar. In other words, if you look at it from another paradigm that says emotions are causal (to put it simply) you get a different question. That might be "what would need to go wrong in order to get these experiences ("symptoms") to happen in someone's life?" the answer would be to change the levels of GABA and the other neurotransmitters.

It is kind of like the argument over whether the Sun or the Earth is causal in the radiation that causes problems on the Earth. You could look at it from both sides, (i.e. it comes from the Sun vs. the Earth magnetizes it) and create strong arguments for both sides, but it doesn't mean that you have to pick one or the other. Each sees the "truth" from its point of view. And each side doesn't appreciate having its point of view denied by the other.

It might be helpful to understand Body's role in manifesting the Truth about the relationship of Spirit to Will, as well as the History of Experience that the particular essence is holding. You have to trace it back to its evolutionary OC.

We are not done with the story. We need to set certain fundamental building blocks into place. There is much more that needs to be explained about the relationship of consciousness and brain and mind and emotions. There is more that needs to be understood about Indigo's role in this. Why did the brain locate itself in the heart of the upper chakras? Why not a brain located in the hips, like a dinosaur?

There is a lot of lower-chakra blaming rage at the brain. There is a backlash that says that the brain is not causal to our experience! Just like you have rage that says the brain is causal!

All of this has to be untangled in order to get at the "truth" of causality. The charges have to be gotten through. And this does not mean that the charges are wrong, it is just that until the various points of view have their say, their release, they cannot enlarge their understanding.

A more subtle level of the above charges are the question of perpetration. From the lower chakra perspectives, anything upper is causal in terms of perpetration. But they do not want to say that life comes from the brain, because to them, this feels like a denial of their role in creation. They do not want to say that the manifested form of the problem is causal, that Body is causal. This gets Spirit off the hook. They are sick and tired of the answers to life's questions coming from the Spirit/Mind perspective. They are sick of Spirit/Mind telling them that they are causal to their own problems.

Each upper chakra has its own relationship to Brain and Spirit and Mind. And remember, we are speaking in generalities to lay out the territory, not defining the truth of any one experience.

Purple that aligned with Spirit feels frustrated when the Brain won't receive its input (inspiration). But Purple has had a huge impact on the judgments held in Mind for many people, depending on their polarizations. That is often how Purple is received.

Blue wants to control the Brain, and has many Mind control techniques to offer to gain and maintain power, especially over the lower chakra's input. Inspiration is okay, as long as it furthers the Blue agenda.

Indigo… well this is more tricky to explain…

Let us start with the role of the eyes and ears in the brain and mind.

The eyes are the sensory organ of the brain (along with the pituitary gland) and they transmit Light into electro-chemical impulses. The ears do the same with Vibration (along with the skull).
As you know, perception is a multi-step process of making meaning out of these impulses. Your mind is like the projector that is necessary to make a can of film come to life. The film (recorded experience) does not change, it does not appear or disappear, but it has no relevance, no contribution until it is fed through the mind. The mind is necessary for the film to come to life.

The other elements that are necessary are time/process (moving the film through the projector one frame at a time), light to illuminate the film, and the screen to reflect the light back to the viewer.

The sound track has a parallel set of necessities for it to be heard—time/process, the amplifier, the speaker, the air that it vibrates, and the ear drum which receives the vibration.

The mind is all of these processes in total, while the brain is the mechanical parts of it within the body. The mind "makes sense" of what happens in the mechanical processes, and includes the "reality screen" which is "perceived" by the brain.

The paradox for Indigo, is that the mind, the whole process of perception and meaning-making is greater than Indigo, but also resides within it.

This is in part because of the history of Creation. If Purple and Blue hadn't gapped, the Mind would be more integrated into the whole upper chakra spectrum (not to mention the lower chakra spectrum). But as it happened, the Place that would hold and receive Mind, the "neutral territory" was Indigo.

If the connections between the other Chakras and Indigo was stronger, Mind would be a much broader experience. Indigo's true gifts would be realized, and it would also be able to incorporate the gifts from the lower chakras much more easily.

We talked recently of the Indigo-Green-Orange Heart-channel. If this had been allowed to develop, the experience of Mind would be completely different. Essentially, Mind would not be located in the upper chakras. It would be an integrative function of all of the chakras.

Body and Mind would not be the dichotomy that they are today. Mind would be much more identified with Heart, with Balance and with Integration.

So part of the Lower Chakra objections about the primacy of mind is an objection to the primacy of the upper-chakra orientation of mind.

In men, the split between their "upper head" and their "lower head" is often made fun of, but this is pointing to a real split, and a real condition that needs healing. In women, the split is between women who allow their "lower head (brain)" to even manifest and those that do not. The Virgin-Whore split. There is no conceptualization that those that do allow for the lower brain could integrate it with their upper brains.

And the ones that do allow their lower brain to have some presence are to be controlled by the males. Females allowing their lower brain to make decisions for the species are very threatening to the males.

They are threatening to the other females as well. For those that do have lower brain presence, there is competition, and for those that do not, there is condemnation.

A big part of the problem in integrating the upper and lower brains, is the loss of the Central Heart.

Here we have collapsed the distinctions of "mind" and "brain" and "head" because of the common vernacular, but we think you get the idea.

When Indigo manifest in the Second Creation, there was no understanding or reality that the Fourth Creation, Green, or the Sixth Creation, Orange, would not manifest in full ("correctly" or per plan). Well this is not exactly true, but the point is, there was no accommodation made that the future Creations would not go according to Plan, or that the Plan might need to be changed. So Indigo manifested Mind as best it could, with the expectation that this was just the first "third" of the equation, without any idea that this would end up being the essence that would have to hold the entire function of Mind.

This ended up being a pretty heavy burden for Indigo. It was required to do much more than it's original form could handle. It did not have the input or support from the rest of the Heart Channel.

And this is also why Indigo could be so unbalanced. Essentially it "forgot" that it was not meant to be the Mind/Brain center in isolation. Parts of it were happy to have this role as it gave it power in relationship to the rest of the chakras. Parts of it felt very victimized, but didn't really understand why. Parts of it held a lot of resentment at having to carry the load for the whole Body. Parts of it ended up being "overresponsible" for the situation. Parts of it thought that it must have done something wrong to end up in this predicament. And parts of it broke down under the stress of the situation.

Indigo has a long history of feeling like it's contribution could help, if only others would receive it, but also an unwillingness to share its contribution, because others didn't receive it. To the outsiders, Indigo is a very frustrating presence—they feel its judgments that things are not unfolding correctly, but without any helpful feedback or constructive criticism. This only contributes to their inability to receive Indigo, because they have backed up rage that Indigo needs to receive but hasn't.

All sides can help if they move their feelings privately, but ultimately, there needs to be an expression of their points of view to each other. Once Indigo accepts and processes its own victimization, it can receive the feelings from those that it impacted—how it's actions ended up impacting creation.

Indigo has confusion about power—it seems to have a lot of power on the one hand, but also very little power on the other. The situation is very unbalanced. It seems to "prey" on those that admit their need for Indigo's input—psychics that milk hundreds of dollars from their dependent and even addicted clients—to compensate for the loss of status that it has in the mainstream.

Indigo has been very afraid of its power—in part because of the questions of the role of envisioning in manifesting the future—but it has also felt hugely denied in that it's input has been either diminished or "interpreted" to forward the agenda of the interpreter.

Take the "Revelations" in the Bible for example… These have been reified, and then analyzed and interpreted and used as evidence for various other points of view. You very rarely have an Indigo analysis of the words.

On the one hand, Indigo is happy that it has at least some influence on current events… it has some acknowledgement that it has a right place… but it hasn't been able to present it's critique on the message because the ones that actually have the power and want the message to work in their favor do not want Indigo to rock the boat.

And Heaven Forbid that everyone activate their Own Indigo! That would blow the power-mongers out of the water. So Revelations is giving its place in the Church Teachings, but the power to receive revelations (i.e. channeling) is called the work of the Devil. It is only the Church that can interpret what is received, it is only the Church that can declare any particular Revelation as "sanctioned" and "safe" to listen to.

There is a lot of cynicism in Indigo. This has to be broken down into its constituent parts of rage, frustration, resentment, fear, despair, and grief. Cynicism is an orientation that feels less threatening than actually experiencing the other feelings, but it is not a loving experience for the one that feels it or the ones that receive it. It is a stuck place, and will not take you to where you want to go.

(me) wow, thank you. I hope I can integrate this into my own process.

(MFGH) we have not doubt that you will. Just move in response.