2007-01-07
Note: This is the end of a conversation. I was asking about bi-polar. GABA is a neurotransmitter involved in the symptoms of mania and depression. In simplistic terms, it is what "speeds things up" and "slows things down."
I have felt like I have been in a long, long argument about whether "denial" or "the brain" is causal to my bipolar. I have felt that the brain is causal, with an acknowledgement that there was something causal to the brain problems. I have felt that the explanation that "my bipolar is manifest because I have denied my will" is too simplistic. Since receiving this channeling, I have started reading Ceanne's new book, Feelings Matter. It has been so helpful to me in understanding the relationship of the history of the Creations to the manifestation of Brain. It has filled in the missing link for me.
I offer this channeling as a stepping stone in my progression of understanding. I have a bigger "context" now, but I think this is worth sharing.
(me) ...explain to me about GABA. What is the OC of it? What does it have to do with denial spirits, Lucifer, etc.
(MFGH) GABA isn't "causal," but it is closer to the cause. It is a primary symptom that has many consequences. It is also the "means" to the symptoms. In other words, if you look at it inside out—if you say: "what would need to go wrong in order to get these experiences [depression and mania] to happen in some one's life?" the answer would be GABA and the other neurotransmitters. It is kind of like the argument over whether the Sun or the Earth is causal in the radiation that causes problems on the Earth. You could look at it from both sides, and create strong arguments for both sides, but it doesn't mean that you have to pick one or the other. Each sees the "truth" from its point of view. And each side doesn't appreciate having its point of view denied by the other.
It might be helpful to understand Body's role in manifesting the Truth about the relationship of Spirit to Will, as well as the History of Experience that the particular essence is holding. You have to trace it back to its evolutionary OC.
We are not done with the story. We need to set certain fundamental building blocks into place. There is much more that needs to be explained about the relationship of consciousness and brain and mind and emotions. There is more that needs to be understood about Indigo's role in this. Why did the brain locate itself in the heart of the upper chakras? Why not a brain located in the hips, like a dinosaur?
And also, what about the emerging understanding of the body-brain, of the role of vibration at the cellular level, at the neuroreceptors throughout the body? What about crossing the blood-brain barrier?
There is a lot of lower-chakra blaming rage at the brain. There is a backlash that says that "brain is not causal!" Just like you have rage that says the "brain is causal!"
All of this has to be untangled in order to get at the "truth" of causality. The charges have to be gotten through. And this does not mean that the charges are wrong, it is just that until they have their say, their release, they cannot enlarge their understanding.
A more subtle level of the above charges are the question of perpetration. From the lower chakra perspectives, anything upper is causal in terms of perpetration. But they do not want to say that life comes from the brain. They feel that to do this is to deny their role in creation. They do not want to say that the manifested form of the problem is causal; that Body is causal. This gets Spirit off the hook. They are sick and tired of the answers to life's questions coming from the Spirit/Mind perspective. They are sick of Spirit/Mind telling them that they are causal to their own problems.
Each upper chakra has its own relationship to Brain and Spirit and Mind. And remember, we are speaking in generalities to lay out the territory, not defining the truth of any one experience.
Purple that aligned with Spirit feels frustrated when the Brain won't receive its input (inspiration). But it has had a huge impact on the judgments held in Mind for many people, depending on their polarizations.
Blue wants to control the Brain, and has many Mind control techniques to offer to gain and maintain power, especially over the lower chakra's input. Inspiration is okay, as long as it furthers the Blue agenda.
Indigo… well this is more tricky to explain…
Let us start with the role of the eyes and ears in the brain and mind.
The eyes are the sensory organ of the brain (along with the pituitary gland) and they transmit Light into electro-chemical impulses. The ears do the same with Vibration (along with the skull).
As you know, perception is a multi-step process of making meaning out of these impulses. Your mind is like the projector that is necessary to make a can of film come to life. The film (recorded experience) does not change, it does not appear or disappear, but it has no relevance, no contribution until it is fed through the mind. The mind is necessary for the film to come to life.
The other elements that are necessary are 1) time/process (moving the film through the projector one frame at a time), 2) light to illuminate the film, and 3) the screen to reflect the light back to the viewer.
The sound track has a parallel set of necessities for it to be heard—time/process, the amplifier, the speaker, the air that it vibrates, and the ear drum which receives the vibration.
The mind is all of these processes in total, while the brain is the mechanical parts of it within the body. The mind "makes sense" of what happens in the mechanical processes, and includes the "reality screen" which is "perceived" by the brain.
The paradox for Indigo, is that the mind, the whole process of perception and meaning-making is greater than Indigo, but also resides within it.
This is in part because of the history of Creation. If Purple and Blue hadn't gapped, the Mind would be more integrated into the whole upper chakra spectrum (not to mention the lower chakra spectrum). But as it happened, the Place that would hold and receive Mind, the "neutral territory" was Indigo.
If the connections between the other Chakras and Indigo was stronger, Mind would be a much broader experience. Indigo's true gifts would be realized, and it would also be able to incorporate the gifts from the lower chakras much more easily.
We talked recently of the Indigo-Green-Orange Heart-channel. If this had been allowed to develop, the experience of Mind would be completely different. Essentially, Mind would not be located in the upper chakras. It would be an integrative function of all of the chakras.
Body and Mind would not be the dichotomy that they are today. Mind would be much more identified with Heart, with Balance and with Integration.
So part of the Lower Chakra objections about the primacy of mind is an objection to the primacy of the upper-chakra orientation of mind.
In men, the split between their "upper head" and their "lower head" is often made fun of, but this is pointing to a real split, and a real condition that needs healing. In women, the split is between women who allow their "lower head (brain)" to even manifest and those that do not. The Virgin-Whore split. There is no conceptualization that those that do allow for the lower brain could integrate it with their upper brains.
And the ones that do allow their lower brain to have some presence are to be controlled by the males. Females allowing their lower brain to make decisions for the species are very threatening to the males.
They are threatening to the other females as well. For those that do have lower brain presence, there is competition, and for those that do not, there is condemnation.
A big part of the problem in integrating the upper and lower brains, is the loss of the Central Heart.
Here we have collapsed the distinctions of "mind" and "brain" and "head" because of the common vernacular, but we think you get the idea.
When Indigo manifest in the Second Creation, there was no understanding or reality that the Fourth Creation, Green, or the Sixth Creation, Orange, would not manifest in full ("correctly," or "per plan"). Well this is not exactly true, but the point is, there was no accommodation made that the future Creations would not go according to Plan, or that the Plan might need to be changed. So Indigo manifested Mind as best it could, with the expectation that this was just the first "third" of the equation, without any idea that this would end up being the essence that would have to hold the entire function of Mind--because Green and Orange would turn out to be damaged by the Smack.
This ended up being a pretty heavy burden for Indigo. It was required to do much more than it's original form could handle. It did not have the input or support from the rest of the Heart Channel.
And this is also why Indigo could be so unbalanced. Essentially it "forgot" that it was not meant to be the Mind/Brain center in isolation. Parts of it were happy to have this role as it gave it power in relationship to the rest of the chakras. Parts of it felt very victimized, but didn't really understand why. Parts of it held a lot of resentment at having to carry the load for the whole Body. Parts of it ended up being "overresponsible" for the situation. Parts of it thought that it must have done something wrong to end up in this predicament. And parts of it broke down under the stress of the situation.
Indigo has a long history of feeling like it's contribution could help, if only others would receive it, but also an unwillingness to share its contribution, because others didn't receive it. To the outsiders, Indigo is a very frustrating presence—they feel its judgments that things are not unfolding correctly, but without any helpful feedback or constructive criticism. This only contributes to their inability to receive Indigo, because they have backed up rage that Indigo needs to receive but hasn't.
All sides can help if they move their feelings privately, but ultimately, there needs to be an expression of their points of view to each other. Once Indigo accepts and processes its own victimization, it can receive the feelings from those that it impacted—how it's actions ended up impacting creation.
Indigo has confusion about power—it seems to have a lot of power on the one hand, but also very little power on the other. The situation is very unbalanced. It seems to "prey" on those that admit their need for Indigo's input—psychics that milk hundreds of dollars from their dependent and even addicted clients—to compensate for the loss of status that it has in the mainstream.
Indigo has been very afraid of its power—in part because of the questions of the role of envisioning in manifesting the future—but it has also felt hugely denied in that it's input has been either diminished or "interpreted" to forward the agenda of the interpreter.
Take the "Revelations" in the Bible for example… They are ostensibly an output by the Indigo Chakra. However the other chakras have analyzed and interpreted it, and used it as evidence for their points of view. The Bible does not contain the Indigo "perspective".
On the one hand, Indigo is happy that it has at least some influence on current events--at least the Revelations is included in the Bible. It has some acknowledgement that it has a right place. But on the other hand, it hasn't been able to present it's understanding on the message, because the ones that actually have the power want the message to work in their favor, and do not want Indigo to rock the boat.
And Heaven Forbid that everyone activate their Own Indigo! That would blow the power-mongers out of the water. So Revelations is giving its place in the Church Teachings, but the power to receive revelations is relegated to the influence of Lucifer. If you are "psychic," you are under the influence of the Devil.
And only the Church that can interpret the Indigo Revelations. Only the Church can declare any particular Revelation as "sanctioned" and "safe" to listen to.
There is a lot of cynicism in Indigo. This has to be broken down into its constituent parts of rage, frustration, resentment, fear, despair, and grief. Cynicism is an orientation that feels less threatening than actually experiencing the other feelings, but it is not a loving experience for the one that feels it or the ones that receive it. It is a stuck place, and will not take you to where you want to go.
(me) wow, thank you. I hope I can integrate this into my own process.
(MFGH) we have not doubt that you will. Just move in response.
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Thursday, September 20, 2007
how Guilt impacts the Aura
2007-12-23
Note: this builds on the previous entry. I cut out the beginning of this channeling, as it was more personal advice. I was asking how to balance all of the things I want and need to do in my daily life.
(MFGH) ...Your will is really what can "feel" the stream of Grace. It is the "target" of the stream… what receives it's benefits. Grace is always offering that pathway to the will's highest interest; it is up to your spirit to pay attention, learn what following this is like, and align with that path in theory and practice.
Yes there will be bumps along the way… that is because your will needs its triggers to get to the held feelings.
And of course there are the collective bumps… everything from a 3.5 to a 9.0 on the Richter scale. And like earthquakes, the more frequent smaller ones can help relieve the pressure. But it may take the bigger ones to get at the depth needed.
From the "overview" perspective, it is not wrong if you find yourself at the epicenter of a big bump [e.g. the manifestation of an Earth Change]. That is an indication that that is what you needed. But of course in the actual experience of it, it can feel very wrong indeed.
The question is what control do you have over this. The more you move, the more you listen to your will, the more you accept the held feelings in the Survival chakra, the less traumatic your healing process will be.
You are wondering "what happened to you" last night… well some of your essence returned, as you intended in your ritual. When previously lost essence comes in, it does not have the "benefits" of being medicated. It is "crabby"!
Some of this essence came in from your Mom. She is holding some of your lost rage, that you judged as unloving. And it was unloving, in the sense that it held lost light.
The question of how rage aligns with lost light is important to understand. Yes is can be as blatant as Lucifer coming to it and promising power if you let him in… but it can also be a lot more subtle. And it can also be a result of a smack… the smack itself splits the rage out violently, as the energy of the smack needs to have somewhere to "go." The unloving light that is received goes to the essence that has an affinity to it—either self-hate (usually terror polar), which thinks it has to receive it (and deserves to be punished) or other-hate (usually rage polar) that wants to give it right back to the sender (revenge). I am simplifying things here to give you a mental diagram of what can happen.
In the self-hate scenario, the smack bounces back and forth between the will essence and the presence of guilt and continues to reinforce the smack and reimprint its message. This, of course, is very painful to the will.
So it is important that will that is self-hating to know that it needs to release the unloving light back out that is trapped in there with it under guilt. The trick is to get the impetus from "underneath" both the guilt, the light, and the imprints, to get all the way down to the base line of the will there, and vibrate out from there, releasing the imprints, releasing the light, and making a "doorway" for them to leave you by pushing the guilt out of your aura which is holding everything in.
Guilt is essentially a boundary, a "no man's zone," where light and vibration do no pass through. It is what is supposed to be between creation and the void. It gets entangled in the magnetic essence and keeps what is under it from getting the light.
The magnetic essence shrinks back from it, and slows down its vibration. This only opens space for more guilt to be present.
You can have guilt at any level of your aura. So it can be present in any layer of the "onion" that is you, and keep the flow of energy from coming in or out "horizontally" (actually spherically). Another way to put it, is that it warps your energy field, and therefore, your ability to project the reality that you want or receive what you need in order to manifest it.
Homeopathy and Chinese Medicine understand this model, and they try to deal with things on the surface level before they work their way "in." They also try to heal things one layer at a time, from the outside in.
This matches our model, in that if you have a shell or partial of guilt blocking you, you need to "crack it" in order for the unloving light that you are holding to get out, and the loving light you need to get in.
But you also have an "innermost in" connection to the Mother that can help you work from the inside out. In fact it will empower her if you draw on this with the intent that she help you release the unloving light. As this happens, she will be able to open space and draw the loving light instead.
Each person has a different degree of guilt "shielding" at each of the layers of the aura. These of course correspond to the imprints in each chakra that shape the projection of each layer of the aura out from the chakra. So one way to get in touch with that status of your own aura is to feel into/look into each chakra and then follow the energy from that chakra outward.
Your recent breakthrough with your posture was parallel to a "cracking" of the energy body guilt-shields and allowing that part of the chakra column to project outwards again. As you know it has involved a lot of rearrangement of the habit patterns of how you hold your body. Your physical body is the center or innermost layer of your aura, so when you get things moving here, this is a good sign.
So in the same way that you can start with your inner connection to the Mother, you can also start with your body to do release. Release is a physical process. It can clear stuff out if you are allowing the will to express through your body. Body work can trigger this release, but if it (unloving light or denial or imprint or judgment) doesn't work its way all the way out through the layers of your aura, the change does not stick because you will still be holding it at some level.
This is why you have that tendency of thinking you have learned a lesson, but having a trigger come around again. You have moved the problem out to some degree, but have not moved it all the way out.
If you have these guilt-shields, you can end up feeling very "pushed around", because other people's energy has something to push against. This is not exactly what happens, but it is a pretty close analogy. If you are not letting your true response through you, to keep yourself "flushed out," other people's energy can get lodged in your aura and especially between layers of the guild-shield. They of course have a least a worm-hole connection to it, if not an actually intention-cord, and so can "move you around" with this.
It is good to visualize the release of such things, but it is really the vibration that actually does the work of moving them out. The visualization is more like setting the intention. It does not have the "inside out" information about the energy constellation that feeling it from the inside has. Allowing the will's process to just flow is the "safest" way to work with this. It is the same as following Grace.
(me) Wow, thank you. I am just starting to be able to distinguish some of the details of my chakras and set their openness/closedness so I will start trying to feel the layers of my aura.
(MFGH) you can use you inner eye to look as well. This is valid information, but it has less dimensionality than using your "inner hand" in conjunction with it.
Note: this builds on the previous entry. I cut out the beginning of this channeling, as it was more personal advice. I was asking how to balance all of the things I want and need to do in my daily life.
(MFGH) ...Your will is really what can "feel" the stream of Grace. It is the "target" of the stream… what receives it's benefits. Grace is always offering that pathway to the will's highest interest; it is up to your spirit to pay attention, learn what following this is like, and align with that path in theory and practice.
Yes there will be bumps along the way… that is because your will needs its triggers to get to the held feelings.
And of course there are the collective bumps… everything from a 3.5 to a 9.0 on the Richter scale. And like earthquakes, the more frequent smaller ones can help relieve the pressure. But it may take the bigger ones to get at the depth needed.
From the "overview" perspective, it is not wrong if you find yourself at the epicenter of a big bump [e.g. the manifestation of an Earth Change]. That is an indication that that is what you needed. But of course in the actual experience of it, it can feel very wrong indeed.
The question is what control do you have over this. The more you move, the more you listen to your will, the more you accept the held feelings in the Survival chakra, the less traumatic your healing process will be.
You are wondering "what happened to you" last night… well some of your essence returned, as you intended in your ritual. When previously lost essence comes in, it does not have the "benefits" of being medicated. It is "crabby"!
Some of this essence came in from your Mom. She is holding some of your lost rage, that you judged as unloving. And it was unloving, in the sense that it held lost light.
The question of how rage aligns with lost light is important to understand. Yes is can be as blatant as Lucifer coming to it and promising power if you let him in… but it can also be a lot more subtle. And it can also be a result of a smack… the smack itself splits the rage out violently, as the energy of the smack needs to have somewhere to "go." The unloving light that is received goes to the essence that has an affinity to it—either self-hate (usually terror polar), which thinks it has to receive it (and deserves to be punished) or other-hate (usually rage polar) that wants to give it right back to the sender (revenge). I am simplifying things here to give you a mental diagram of what can happen.
In the self-hate scenario, the smack bounces back and forth between the will essence and the presence of guilt and continues to reinforce the smack and reimprint its message. This, of course, is very painful to the will.
So it is important that will that is self-hating to know that it needs to release the unloving light back out that is trapped in there with it under guilt. The trick is to get the impetus from "underneath" both the guilt, the light, and the imprints, to get all the way down to the base line of the will there, and vibrate out from there, releasing the imprints, releasing the light, and making a "doorway" for them to leave you by pushing the guilt out of your aura which is holding everything in.
Guilt is essentially a boundary, a "no man's zone," where light and vibration do no pass through. It is what is supposed to be between creation and the void. It gets entangled in the magnetic essence and keeps what is under it from getting the light.
The magnetic essence shrinks back from it, and slows down its vibration. This only opens space for more guilt to be present.
You can have guilt at any level of your aura. So it can be present in any layer of the "onion" that is you, and keep the flow of energy from coming in or out "horizontally" (actually spherically). Another way to put it, is that it warps your energy field, and therefore, your ability to project the reality that you want or receive what you need in order to manifest it.
Homeopathy and Chinese Medicine understand this model, and they try to deal with things on the surface level before they work their way "in." They also try to heal things one layer at a time, from the outside in.
This matches our model, in that if you have a shell or partial of guilt blocking you, you need to "crack it" in order for the unloving light that you are holding to get out, and the loving light you need to get in.
But you also have an "innermost in" connection to the Mother that can help you work from the inside out. In fact it will empower her if you draw on this with the intent that she help you release the unloving light. As this happens, she will be able to open space and draw the loving light instead.
Each person has a different degree of guilt "shielding" at each of the layers of the aura. These of course correspond to the imprints in each chakra that shape the projection of each layer of the aura out from the chakra. So one way to get in touch with that status of your own aura is to feel into/look into each chakra and then follow the energy from that chakra outward.
Your recent breakthrough with your posture was parallel to a "cracking" of the energy body guilt-shields and allowing that part of the chakra column to project outwards again. As you know it has involved a lot of rearrangement of the habit patterns of how you hold your body. Your physical body is the center or innermost layer of your aura, so when you get things moving here, this is a good sign.
So in the same way that you can start with your inner connection to the Mother, you can also start with your body to do release. Release is a physical process. It can clear stuff out if you are allowing the will to express through your body. Body work can trigger this release, but if it (unloving light or denial or imprint or judgment) doesn't work its way all the way out through the layers of your aura, the change does not stick because you will still be holding it at some level.
This is why you have that tendency of thinking you have learned a lesson, but having a trigger come around again. You have moved the problem out to some degree, but have not moved it all the way out.
If you have these guilt-shields, you can end up feeling very "pushed around", because other people's energy has something to push against. This is not exactly what happens, but it is a pretty close analogy. If you are not letting your true response through you, to keep yourself "flushed out," other people's energy can get lodged in your aura and especially between layers of the guild-shield. They of course have a least a worm-hole connection to it, if not an actually intention-cord, and so can "move you around" with this.
It is good to visualize the release of such things, but it is really the vibration that actually does the work of moving them out. The visualization is more like setting the intention. It does not have the "inside out" information about the energy constellation that feeling it from the inside has. Allowing the will's process to just flow is the "safest" way to work with this. It is the same as following Grace.
(me) Wow, thank you. I am just starting to be able to distinguish some of the details of my chakras and set their openness/closedness so I will start trying to feel the layers of my aura.
(MFGH) you can use you inner eye to look as well. This is valid information, but it has less dimensionality than using your "inner hand" in conjunction with it.
an opening in blue-green
2006-12-22
Dear MFGH,
Today I listened to my heart when I got the echocardiogram. It was very interesting. Kind of scary, actually.
I am also paying a lot of attention to my "blue-green" chakra? connector? since I had the breakthrough in yoga to arch the very top of my thorasic area. I could feel the space between each vertebre open up and energy shine up and out. It was such a trip. Now I am working on rolling that open, and allowing the rest of the bones to settle into place. Also strengthening the upper back to hold the shoulderblades back and down. Hmm, there is that back and down thing again.
Anyway, that part of my upper chest is now pointing "up" to a much greater degree. So I am wondering if on an energetic level my upper heart is opening up. Well actually I know it is. I guess I am wondering what it means. What is the function of that part of the spectrum? I love the turquoise colors so.
(MFGH) This part of the spectrum was rebuffed by Blue. Many times. Green wanted to give its input to Blue, to bring more heart presence their am mediate/moderate/temper the power and expansive quality of Blue.
(me) I feel like physically, I contracted here and brought my shoulders forward to hide my breasts. I was not proud of them, I was trying to minimize them so I wouldn't be harassed. I guess the posture I have now is much more "proud." "Walk like Marilyn Monroe" is what I called it when I was trying to have acceptance for my weight and still be attractive.
(MFGH) yes. Breasts are heart-expression. They are a manifestation of the Mother's generosity and desire to nurture her children. You could say that breasts got "sexualized," but this is not the right order of things. The heart center was a powerful connecting point between the sexes and this is part of the draw to them. An upright posture indicates an open heart, a strong heart, a willingness to put yourself out there.
(me) my heart feels very vulnerable right now.
(MFGH) yes it is a vulnerable place. But an upright posture indicates that you can take care of yourself in this realm.
So you do you take care of yourself here? There isn't a simple answer, nor one that is universal. Each person has to find their own way. But there are some principles.
One is that your own heart has to be in your own chest. You would be surprised at how many people literally "do not have a heart." There is a huge split between Heart and Body and the Energy Body (Rainbow) that we have talked about, but may be useful to revisit now.
(me) I am getting that these splits have been reenacted in our own bodies… I am seeing it as a branch of a tree that has gone off in a different direction than the trunk.
(MFGH) The good news is that the branch and tree are still attached, but farther back in time. You can "return" to this time and heal this split and "zip it up" so to speak.
Once your heart is in its right place, and can integrate with all of the other energy bodies, it has some built-in "shielding" so to speak, because it is in the center of your aura instead of riding out in front of it, or even more alone, far away from your body.
You also need to look at the cording from your heart, and the energy flow to and from others. It is right for heart to be a connecting place, so this can be tricky. But the first step is to get conscious of what is going on there.
You can use Indigo to look inwardly. You can use Orange to feel intuitively. You can consider the patterns in your relationships. You can notice when you feel energized by somebody and when you feel drained. You can note the sensations in your physical and etheric bodies.
(me) I think the last one is my orientation.
(MFGH) this is part of being a kinetic learner.
Dear MFGH,
Today I listened to my heart when I got the echocardiogram. It was very interesting. Kind of scary, actually.
I am also paying a lot of attention to my "blue-green" chakra? connector? since I had the breakthrough in yoga to arch the very top of my thorasic area. I could feel the space between each vertebre open up and energy shine up and out. It was such a trip. Now I am working on rolling that open, and allowing the rest of the bones to settle into place. Also strengthening the upper back to hold the shoulderblades back and down. Hmm, there is that back and down thing again.
Anyway, that part of my upper chest is now pointing "up" to a much greater degree. So I am wondering if on an energetic level my upper heart is opening up. Well actually I know it is. I guess I am wondering what it means. What is the function of that part of the spectrum? I love the turquoise colors so.
(MFGH) This part of the spectrum was rebuffed by Blue. Many times. Green wanted to give its input to Blue, to bring more heart presence their am mediate/moderate/temper the power and expansive quality of Blue.
(me) I feel like physically, I contracted here and brought my shoulders forward to hide my breasts. I was not proud of them, I was trying to minimize them so I wouldn't be harassed. I guess the posture I have now is much more "proud." "Walk like Marilyn Monroe" is what I called it when I was trying to have acceptance for my weight and still be attractive.
(MFGH) yes. Breasts are heart-expression. They are a manifestation of the Mother's generosity and desire to nurture her children. You could say that breasts got "sexualized," but this is not the right order of things. The heart center was a powerful connecting point between the sexes and this is part of the draw to them. An upright posture indicates an open heart, a strong heart, a willingness to put yourself out there.
(me) my heart feels very vulnerable right now.
(MFGH) yes it is a vulnerable place. But an upright posture indicates that you can take care of yourself in this realm.
So you do you take care of yourself here? There isn't a simple answer, nor one that is universal. Each person has to find their own way. But there are some principles.
One is that your own heart has to be in your own chest. You would be surprised at how many people literally "do not have a heart." There is a huge split between Heart and Body and the Energy Body (Rainbow) that we have talked about, but may be useful to revisit now.
(me) I am getting that these splits have been reenacted in our own bodies… I am seeing it as a branch of a tree that has gone off in a different direction than the trunk.
(MFGH) The good news is that the branch and tree are still attached, but farther back in time. You can "return" to this time and heal this split and "zip it up" so to speak.
Once your heart is in its right place, and can integrate with all of the other energy bodies, it has some built-in "shielding" so to speak, because it is in the center of your aura instead of riding out in front of it, or even more alone, far away from your body.
You also need to look at the cording from your heart, and the energy flow to and from others. It is right for heart to be a connecting place, so this can be tricky. But the first step is to get conscious of what is going on there.
You can use Indigo to look inwardly. You can use Orange to feel intuitively. You can consider the patterns in your relationships. You can notice when you feel energized by somebody and when you feel drained. You can note the sensations in your physical and etheric bodies.
(me) I think the last one is my orientation.
(MFGH) this is part of being a kinetic learner.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
the Mind, Indigo, Heart and the Chakras
2007-01-07
[note: I had a business proposal to write, and I was up against a deadline.]
…So I am mostly feeling heaviness and fear/dread/guilt. I hate deadlines. I wish I had the chair but I don't even feel like I would have time to go move on it. I barely feel like I have time to channel. I don't even have time to formulate a question.
I feel that I am "bad" in relationship to the deadline. I guess I feel that I should have finished the proposal already, even though I knew that that would not be possible. I also feel "bad" in that I should have already done my research on pricing, etc. I should have been more serious about my professional development. I should already have training under my belt, and belong to associations, etc.
Its like a confrontation with the denial that I have been in. Kind of a "what was I thinking?" And also, "why didn't I give myself permission to pursue this stuff, [training, joining associations, etc.] when I knew it was a good thing?" Something about not feeling like I could justify it? To DD (Dear Dad), to DH (Dear Husband)?
I have not been in control of my career. I have been reactive, and also in fantasy… wanting an idealized version and not confronting the survival terror of supporting myself.
I guess I am starting to feel some of that terror… and also terror of my own inadequacies, of making a mistake, etc. Of fucking up big time. I wish I could get my own version of malpractice insurance. I wish my clients would take responsibility for themselves so I wouldn't have to be the fall guy if something goes wrong.
I need to go back on the chair about this.
And what about the chair???
What about doing sessions with other people???
MFGH can you help me receive and move and heal my terror?
(MFGH) yes, of course. Remember, whether this terror is triggered in you or not, it is still in existence. it is still suffering. So every time that you feel it, you are healing it. You are doing a good thing.
(me) I don't know if I believe that. Its confusing to me, especially with the anxiety part of the bipolar. I don't feel that denied will is causal. I don't feel that being terrified does anything to heal it. I don't know how to move a panic attack.
I am angry about the whole thing.
(MFGH) well we haven't gone into the causes of bipolar yet.
(me) well I don't think that you know, or that I am really channeling you, or could trust what you say… I feel like I can't bridge the two paradigms of causality.
I certainly don't think that it can be healed… when I look at how outsiders view it. I'm having a lot of doubts right now.
(MFGH) well consider your history, your position, just in this life. Consider the world views you have been indoctrinated in, and have tried to bridge and incorporate. It’s a big task, and you don't have anybody to turn to who has done this before. There are no answers out there for you. You have to discover this, construct this for yourself. You have to have an answer that really satisfies you, that satisfies everything.
And that is not wrong. It is not wrong to want a satisfactory answer about the chair, either. It is not wrong to want to understand, to understand all the way down through the cellular to the atomic level. It is not wrong to want to understand how the knowledge to use it was generated. It is not wrong that you don't want to deny one paradigm in favor of another one, but to see the truth in both of them.
It is important that you distinguish the reasons why the paradigms clash when they do. When is it because of a gap in the ability of the paradigm to consider something, and when is it because the knowledge is just not reached yet?
You are in a unique position, and you have a unique role in manifesting or bringing forth understanding.
(me) but don't you already have this understanding? Aren't you God? Can't you just give it to me? Why are you buttering me up?
(MFGH) yes, we do have the understanding, and yes, we can give it to you, and we will. You are the fulfillment of our understanding, don't you see that? We cannot manifest our understanding virtually. We have to have a (human) receptacle, a human co-creator, a human intelligence. The understanding does not exist "out there in the ethers" waiting for us to give it to you. It is unpacked, given life, given form, in your experience.
You are like our committed listener on the topic, or maybe a therapist. You help us bring it from latency to completion.
(me) mumble mumble grr grr
(MFGH) this is why it is important for you to talk to others who are in your position. And to stay with the folks at The Icarus Project. You are building knowledge, yes indeed-y, you are breaking new ground.
(me) well this is in part why I get so irritated with other people who are telling me the truth about things, especially bipolar, who have no experience with it. Or who deny the understandings of Western Science.
(MFGH) the point we are trying to make is that you are not wrong, in fact, your skepticism about non-Wstern medicine and insistence that it has something to offer is in fact valuable to us, as well as to creation. It may be a long time before this has wider impact, but as long as it helps you, then we are making progress.
(me) okay then explain to me about GABA [a neurotransmitter that is related to manifesting the symptoms of bipolar]. What is the OC of it? What does it have to do with denial spirits, Lucifer, etc.?
(MFGH) GABA isn't "causal," but it is closer to the cause. It is a primary symptom of its OC that has many consequences. The normal paradigm is to say that GABA levels cause bipolar, therefore this is how to solve the problem But GABA is also the "means" to the symptoms you experience as bipolar. In other words, if you look at it from another paradigm that says emotions are causal (to put it simply) you get a different question. That might be "what would need to go wrong in order to get these experiences ("symptoms") to happen in someone's life?" the answer would be to change the levels of GABA and the other neurotransmitters.
It is kind of like the argument over whether the Sun or the Earth is causal in the radiation that causes problems on the Earth. You could look at it from both sides, (i.e. it comes from the Sun vs. the Earth magnetizes it) and create strong arguments for both sides, but it doesn't mean that you have to pick one or the other. Each sees the "truth" from its point of view. And each side doesn't appreciate having its point of view denied by the other.
It might be helpful to understand Body's role in manifesting the Truth about the relationship of Spirit to Will, as well as the History of Experience that the particular essence is holding. You have to trace it back to its evolutionary OC.
We are not done with the story. We need to set certain fundamental building blocks into place. There is much more that needs to be explained about the relationship of consciousness and brain and mind and emotions. There is more that needs to be understood about Indigo's role in this. Why did the brain locate itself in the heart of the upper chakras? Why not a brain located in the hips, like a dinosaur?
There is a lot of lower-chakra blaming rage at the brain. There is a backlash that says that the brain is not causal to our experience! Just like you have rage that says the brain is causal!
All of this has to be untangled in order to get at the "truth" of causality. The charges have to be gotten through. And this does not mean that the charges are wrong, it is just that until the various points of view have their say, their release, they cannot enlarge their understanding.
A more subtle level of the above charges are the question of perpetration. From the lower chakra perspectives, anything upper is causal in terms of perpetration. But they do not want to say that life comes from the brain, because to them, this feels like a denial of their role in creation. They do not want to say that the manifested form of the problem is causal, that Body is causal. This gets Spirit off the hook. They are sick and tired of the answers to life's questions coming from the Spirit/Mind perspective. They are sick of Spirit/Mind telling them that they are causal to their own problems.
Each upper chakra has its own relationship to Brain and Spirit and Mind. And remember, we are speaking in generalities to lay out the territory, not defining the truth of any one experience.
Purple that aligned with Spirit feels frustrated when the Brain won't receive its input (inspiration). But Purple has had a huge impact on the judgments held in Mind for many people, depending on their polarizations. That is often how Purple is received.
Blue wants to control the Brain, and has many Mind control techniques to offer to gain and maintain power, especially over the lower chakra's input. Inspiration is okay, as long as it furthers the Blue agenda.
Indigo… well this is more tricky to explain…
Let us start with the role of the eyes and ears in the brain and mind.
The eyes are the sensory organ of the brain (along with the pituitary gland) and they transmit Light into electro-chemical impulses. The ears do the same with Vibration (along with the skull).
As you know, perception is a multi-step process of making meaning out of these impulses. Your mind is like the projector that is necessary to make a can of film come to life. The film (recorded experience) does not change, it does not appear or disappear, but it has no relevance, no contribution until it is fed through the mind. The mind is necessary for the film to come to life.
The other elements that are necessary are time/process (moving the film through the projector one frame at a time), light to illuminate the film, and the screen to reflect the light back to the viewer.
The sound track has a parallel set of necessities for it to be heard—time/process, the amplifier, the speaker, the air that it vibrates, and the ear drum which receives the vibration.
The mind is all of these processes in total, while the brain is the mechanical parts of it within the body. The mind "makes sense" of what happens in the mechanical processes, and includes the "reality screen" which is "perceived" by the brain.
The paradox for Indigo, is that the mind, the whole process of perception and meaning-making is greater than Indigo, but also resides within it.
This is in part because of the history of Creation. If Purple and Blue hadn't gapped, the Mind would be more integrated into the whole upper chakra spectrum (not to mention the lower chakra spectrum). But as it happened, the Place that would hold and receive Mind, the "neutral territory" was Indigo.
If the connections between the other Chakras and Indigo was stronger, Mind would be a much broader experience. Indigo's true gifts would be realized, and it would also be able to incorporate the gifts from the lower chakras much more easily.
We talked recently of the Indigo-Green-Orange Heart-channel. If this had been allowed to develop, the experience of Mind would be completely different. Essentially, Mind would not be located in the upper chakras. It would be an integrative function of all of the chakras.
Body and Mind would not be the dichotomy that they are today. Mind would be much more identified with Heart, with Balance and with Integration.
So part of the Lower Chakra objections about the primacy of mind is an objection to the primacy of the upper-chakra orientation of mind.
In men, the split between their "upper head" and their "lower head" is often made fun of, but this is pointing to a real split, and a real condition that needs healing. In women, the split is between women who allow their "lower head (brain)" to even manifest and those that do not. The Virgin-Whore split. There is no conceptualization that those that do allow for the lower brain could integrate it with their upper brains.
And the ones that do allow their lower brain to have some presence are to be controlled by the males. Females allowing their lower brain to make decisions for the species are very threatening to the males.
They are threatening to the other females as well. For those that do have lower brain presence, there is competition, and for those that do not, there is condemnation.
A big part of the problem in integrating the upper and lower brains, is the loss of the Central Heart.
Here we have collapsed the distinctions of "mind" and "brain" and "head" because of the common vernacular, but we think you get the idea.
When Indigo manifest in the Second Creation, there was no understanding or reality that the Fourth Creation, Green, or the Sixth Creation, Orange, would not manifest in full ("correctly" or per plan). Well this is not exactly true, but the point is, there was no accommodation made that the future Creations would not go according to Plan, or that the Plan might need to be changed. So Indigo manifested Mind as best it could, with the expectation that this was just the first "third" of the equation, without any idea that this would end up being the essence that would have to hold the entire function of Mind.
This ended up being a pretty heavy burden for Indigo. It was required to do much more than it's original form could handle. It did not have the input or support from the rest of the Heart Channel.
And this is also why Indigo could be so unbalanced. Essentially it "forgot" that it was not meant to be the Mind/Brain center in isolation. Parts of it were happy to have this role as it gave it power in relationship to the rest of the chakras. Parts of it felt very victimized, but didn't really understand why. Parts of it held a lot of resentment at having to carry the load for the whole Body. Parts of it ended up being "overresponsible" for the situation. Parts of it thought that it must have done something wrong to end up in this predicament. And parts of it broke down under the stress of the situation.
Indigo has a long history of feeling like it's contribution could help, if only others would receive it, but also an unwillingness to share its contribution, because others didn't receive it. To the outsiders, Indigo is a very frustrating presence—they feel its judgments that things are not unfolding correctly, but without any helpful feedback or constructive criticism. This only contributes to their inability to receive Indigo, because they have backed up rage that Indigo needs to receive but hasn't.
All sides can help if they move their feelings privately, but ultimately, there needs to be an expression of their points of view to each other. Once Indigo accepts and processes its own victimization, it can receive the feelings from those that it impacted—how it's actions ended up impacting creation.
Indigo has confusion about power—it seems to have a lot of power on the one hand, but also very little power on the other. The situation is very unbalanced. It seems to "prey" on those that admit their need for Indigo's input—psychics that milk hundreds of dollars from their dependent and even addicted clients—to compensate for the loss of status that it has in the mainstream.
Indigo has been very afraid of its power—in part because of the questions of the role of envisioning in manifesting the future—but it has also felt hugely denied in that it's input has been either diminished or "interpreted" to forward the agenda of the interpreter.
Take the "Revelations" in the Bible for example… These have been reified, and then analyzed and interpreted and used as evidence for various other points of view. You very rarely have an Indigo analysis of the words.
On the one hand, Indigo is happy that it has at least some influence on current events… it has some acknowledgement that it has a right place… but it hasn't been able to present it's critique on the message because the ones that actually have the power and want the message to work in their favor do not want Indigo to rock the boat.
And Heaven Forbid that everyone activate their Own Indigo! That would blow the power-mongers out of the water. So Revelations is giving its place in the Church Teachings, but the power to receive revelations (i.e. channeling) is called the work of the Devil. It is only the Church that can interpret what is received, it is only the Church that can declare any particular Revelation as "sanctioned" and "safe" to listen to.
There is a lot of cynicism in Indigo. This has to be broken down into its constituent parts of rage, frustration, resentment, fear, despair, and grief. Cynicism is an orientation that feels less threatening than actually experiencing the other feelings, but it is not a loving experience for the one that feels it or the ones that receive it. It is a stuck place, and will not take you to where you want to go.
(me) wow, thank you. I hope I can integrate this into my own process.
(MFGH) we have not doubt that you will. Just move in response.
[note: I had a business proposal to write, and I was up against a deadline.]
…So I am mostly feeling heaviness and fear/dread/guilt. I hate deadlines. I wish I had the chair but I don't even feel like I would have time to go move on it. I barely feel like I have time to channel. I don't even have time to formulate a question.
I feel that I am "bad" in relationship to the deadline. I guess I feel that I should have finished the proposal already, even though I knew that that would not be possible. I also feel "bad" in that I should have already done my research on pricing, etc. I should have been more serious about my professional development. I should already have training under my belt, and belong to associations, etc.
Its like a confrontation with the denial that I have been in. Kind of a "what was I thinking?" And also, "why didn't I give myself permission to pursue this stuff, [training, joining associations, etc.] when I knew it was a good thing?" Something about not feeling like I could justify it? To DD (Dear Dad), to DH (Dear Husband)?
I have not been in control of my career. I have been reactive, and also in fantasy… wanting an idealized version and not confronting the survival terror of supporting myself.
I guess I am starting to feel some of that terror… and also terror of my own inadequacies, of making a mistake, etc. Of fucking up big time. I wish I could get my own version of malpractice insurance. I wish my clients would take responsibility for themselves so I wouldn't have to be the fall guy if something goes wrong.
I need to go back on the chair about this.
And what about the chair???
What about doing sessions with other people???
MFGH can you help me receive and move and heal my terror?
(MFGH) yes, of course. Remember, whether this terror is triggered in you or not, it is still in existence. it is still suffering. So every time that you feel it, you are healing it. You are doing a good thing.
(me) I don't know if I believe that. Its confusing to me, especially with the anxiety part of the bipolar. I don't feel that denied will is causal. I don't feel that being terrified does anything to heal it. I don't know how to move a panic attack.
(MFGH) well we haven't gone into the causes of bipolar yet.
(me) well I don't think that you know, or that I am really channeling you, or could trust what you say… I feel like I can't bridge the two paradigms of causality.
I certainly don't think that it can be healed… when I look at how outsiders view it. I'm having a lot of doubts right now.
(MFGH) well consider your history, your position, just in this life. Consider the world views you have been indoctrinated in, and have tried to bridge and incorporate. It’s a big task, and you don't have anybody to turn to who has done this before. There are no answers out there for you. You have to discover this, construct this for yourself. You have to have an answer that really satisfies you, that satisfies everything.
And that is not wrong. It is not wrong to want a satisfactory answer about the chair, either. It is not wrong to want to understand, to understand all the way down through the cellular to the atomic level. It is not wrong to want to understand how the knowledge to use it was generated. It is not wrong that you don't want to deny one paradigm in favor of another one, but to see the truth in both of them.
It is important that you distinguish the reasons why the paradigms clash when they do. When is it because of a gap in the ability of the paradigm to consider something, and when is it because the knowledge is just not reached yet?
You are in a unique position, and you have a unique role in manifesting or bringing forth understanding.
(me) but don't you already have this understanding? Aren't you God? Can't you just give it to me? Why are you buttering me up?
(MFGH) yes, we do have the understanding, and yes, we can give it to you, and we will. You are the fulfillment of our understanding, don't you see that? We cannot manifest our understanding virtually. We have to have a (human) receptacle, a human co-creator, a human intelligence. The understanding does not exist "out there in the ethers" waiting for us to give it to you. It is unpacked, given life, given form, in your experience.
You are like our committed listener on the topic, or maybe a therapist. You help us bring it from latency to completion.
(me) mumble mumble grr grr
(MFGH) this is why it is important for you to talk to others who are in your position. And to stay with the folks at The Icarus Project. You are building knowledge, yes indeed-y, you are breaking new ground.
(me) well this is in part why I get so irritated with other people who are telling me the truth about things, especially bipolar, who have no experience with it. Or who deny the understandings of Western Science.
(MFGH) the point we are trying to make is that you are not wrong, in fact, your skepticism about non-Wstern medicine and insistence that it has something to offer is in fact valuable to us, as well as to creation. It may be a long time before this has wider impact, but as long as it helps you, then we are making progress.
(me) okay then explain to me about GABA [a neurotransmitter that is related to manifesting the symptoms of bipolar]. What is the OC of it? What does it have to do with denial spirits, Lucifer, etc.?
(MFGH) GABA isn't "causal," but it is closer to the cause. It is a primary symptom of its OC that has many consequences. The normal paradigm is to say that GABA levels cause bipolar, therefore this is how to solve the problem But GABA is also the "means" to the symptoms you experience as bipolar. In other words, if you look at it from another paradigm that says emotions are causal (to put it simply) you get a different question. That might be "what would need to go wrong in order to get these experiences ("symptoms") to happen in someone's life?" the answer would be to change the levels of GABA and the other neurotransmitters.
It is kind of like the argument over whether the Sun or the Earth is causal in the radiation that causes problems on the Earth. You could look at it from both sides, (i.e. it comes from the Sun vs. the Earth magnetizes it) and create strong arguments for both sides, but it doesn't mean that you have to pick one or the other. Each sees the "truth" from its point of view. And each side doesn't appreciate having its point of view denied by the other.
It might be helpful to understand Body's role in manifesting the Truth about the relationship of Spirit to Will, as well as the History of Experience that the particular essence is holding. You have to trace it back to its evolutionary OC.
We are not done with the story. We need to set certain fundamental building blocks into place. There is much more that needs to be explained about the relationship of consciousness and brain and mind and emotions. There is more that needs to be understood about Indigo's role in this. Why did the brain locate itself in the heart of the upper chakras? Why not a brain located in the hips, like a dinosaur?
There is a lot of lower-chakra blaming rage at the brain. There is a backlash that says that the brain is not causal to our experience! Just like you have rage that says the brain is causal!
All of this has to be untangled in order to get at the "truth" of causality. The charges have to be gotten through. And this does not mean that the charges are wrong, it is just that until the various points of view have their say, their release, they cannot enlarge their understanding.
A more subtle level of the above charges are the question of perpetration. From the lower chakra perspectives, anything upper is causal in terms of perpetration. But they do not want to say that life comes from the brain, because to them, this feels like a denial of their role in creation. They do not want to say that the manifested form of the problem is causal, that Body is causal. This gets Spirit off the hook. They are sick and tired of the answers to life's questions coming from the Spirit/Mind perspective. They are sick of Spirit/Mind telling them that they are causal to their own problems.
Each upper chakra has its own relationship to Brain and Spirit and Mind. And remember, we are speaking in generalities to lay out the territory, not defining the truth of any one experience.
Purple that aligned with Spirit feels frustrated when the Brain won't receive its input (inspiration). But Purple has had a huge impact on the judgments held in Mind for many people, depending on their polarizations. That is often how Purple is received.
Blue wants to control the Brain, and has many Mind control techniques to offer to gain and maintain power, especially over the lower chakra's input. Inspiration is okay, as long as it furthers the Blue agenda.
Indigo… well this is more tricky to explain…
Let us start with the role of the eyes and ears in the brain and mind.
The eyes are the sensory organ of the brain (along with the pituitary gland) and they transmit Light into electro-chemical impulses. The ears do the same with Vibration (along with the skull).
As you know, perception is a multi-step process of making meaning out of these impulses. Your mind is like the projector that is necessary to make a can of film come to life. The film (recorded experience) does not change, it does not appear or disappear, but it has no relevance, no contribution until it is fed through the mind. The mind is necessary for the film to come to life.
The other elements that are necessary are time/process (moving the film through the projector one frame at a time), light to illuminate the film, and the screen to reflect the light back to the viewer.
The sound track has a parallel set of necessities for it to be heard—time/process, the amplifier, the speaker, the air that it vibrates, and the ear drum which receives the vibration.
The mind is all of these processes in total, while the brain is the mechanical parts of it within the body. The mind "makes sense" of what happens in the mechanical processes, and includes the "reality screen" which is "perceived" by the brain.
The paradox for Indigo, is that the mind, the whole process of perception and meaning-making is greater than Indigo, but also resides within it.
This is in part because of the history of Creation. If Purple and Blue hadn't gapped, the Mind would be more integrated into the whole upper chakra spectrum (not to mention the lower chakra spectrum). But as it happened, the Place that would hold and receive Mind, the "neutral territory" was Indigo.
If the connections between the other Chakras and Indigo was stronger, Mind would be a much broader experience. Indigo's true gifts would be realized, and it would also be able to incorporate the gifts from the lower chakras much more easily.
We talked recently of the Indigo-Green-Orange Heart-channel. If this had been allowed to develop, the experience of Mind would be completely different. Essentially, Mind would not be located in the upper chakras. It would be an integrative function of all of the chakras.
Body and Mind would not be the dichotomy that they are today. Mind would be much more identified with Heart, with Balance and with Integration.
So part of the Lower Chakra objections about the primacy of mind is an objection to the primacy of the upper-chakra orientation of mind.
In men, the split between their "upper head" and their "lower head" is often made fun of, but this is pointing to a real split, and a real condition that needs healing. In women, the split is between women who allow their "lower head (brain)" to even manifest and those that do not. The Virgin-Whore split. There is no conceptualization that those that do allow for the lower brain could integrate it with their upper brains.
And the ones that do allow their lower brain to have some presence are to be controlled by the males. Females allowing their lower brain to make decisions for the species are very threatening to the males.
They are threatening to the other females as well. For those that do have lower brain presence, there is competition, and for those that do not, there is condemnation.
A big part of the problem in integrating the upper and lower brains, is the loss of the Central Heart.
Here we have collapsed the distinctions of "mind" and "brain" and "head" because of the common vernacular, but we think you get the idea.
When Indigo manifest in the Second Creation, there was no understanding or reality that the Fourth Creation, Green, or the Sixth Creation, Orange, would not manifest in full ("correctly" or per plan). Well this is not exactly true, but the point is, there was no accommodation made that the future Creations would not go according to Plan, or that the Plan might need to be changed. So Indigo manifested Mind as best it could, with the expectation that this was just the first "third" of the equation, without any idea that this would end up being the essence that would have to hold the entire function of Mind.
This ended up being a pretty heavy burden for Indigo. It was required to do much more than it's original form could handle. It did not have the input or support from the rest of the Heart Channel.
And this is also why Indigo could be so unbalanced. Essentially it "forgot" that it was not meant to be the Mind/Brain center in isolation. Parts of it were happy to have this role as it gave it power in relationship to the rest of the chakras. Parts of it felt very victimized, but didn't really understand why. Parts of it held a lot of resentment at having to carry the load for the whole Body. Parts of it ended up being "overresponsible" for the situation. Parts of it thought that it must have done something wrong to end up in this predicament. And parts of it broke down under the stress of the situation.
Indigo has a long history of feeling like it's contribution could help, if only others would receive it, but also an unwillingness to share its contribution, because others didn't receive it. To the outsiders, Indigo is a very frustrating presence—they feel its judgments that things are not unfolding correctly, but without any helpful feedback or constructive criticism. This only contributes to their inability to receive Indigo, because they have backed up rage that Indigo needs to receive but hasn't.
All sides can help if they move their feelings privately, but ultimately, there needs to be an expression of their points of view to each other. Once Indigo accepts and processes its own victimization, it can receive the feelings from those that it impacted—how it's actions ended up impacting creation.
Indigo has confusion about power—it seems to have a lot of power on the one hand, but also very little power on the other. The situation is very unbalanced. It seems to "prey" on those that admit their need for Indigo's input—psychics that milk hundreds of dollars from their dependent and even addicted clients—to compensate for the loss of status that it has in the mainstream.
Indigo has been very afraid of its power—in part because of the questions of the role of envisioning in manifesting the future—but it has also felt hugely denied in that it's input has been either diminished or "interpreted" to forward the agenda of the interpreter.
Take the "Revelations" in the Bible for example… These have been reified, and then analyzed and interpreted and used as evidence for various other points of view. You very rarely have an Indigo analysis of the words.
On the one hand, Indigo is happy that it has at least some influence on current events… it has some acknowledgement that it has a right place… but it hasn't been able to present it's critique on the message because the ones that actually have the power and want the message to work in their favor do not want Indigo to rock the boat.
And Heaven Forbid that everyone activate their Own Indigo! That would blow the power-mongers out of the water. So Revelations is giving its place in the Church Teachings, but the power to receive revelations (i.e. channeling) is called the work of the Devil. It is only the Church that can interpret what is received, it is only the Church that can declare any particular Revelation as "sanctioned" and "safe" to listen to.
There is a lot of cynicism in Indigo. This has to be broken down into its constituent parts of rage, frustration, resentment, fear, despair, and grief. Cynicism is an orientation that feels less threatening than actually experiencing the other feelings, but it is not a loving experience for the one that feels it or the ones that receive it. It is a stuck place, and will not take you to where you want to go.
(me) wow, thank you. I hope I can integrate this into my own process.
(MFGH) we have not doubt that you will. Just move in response.
Monday, July 2, 2007
guilt in the metaphysical anatomy
2007-12-23
[note: I was trying to understand some movement that happened the night before, and eventually this came through.]
(MFGH) ...The question of how rage aligns with lost light is important to understand. Yes is can be as blatant as Lucifer coming to you and promising you power if you let him in… but it can also be a lot more subtle. The alignment can also be a result of a smack… the smack itself pushes or splits the rage out violently, as the energy of the smack needs to have somewhere to "go." The unloving light that is received from the smack goes to the essence that has an affinity to it—either self-hate (usually terror-polar), which thinks it has to receive it (and deserves to be punished) or other-hate (usually rage polar) that wants to give the smack right back to the sender (revenge). I am simplifying things here to give you a mental diagram of what can happen.
In the self-hate scenario, the smack energy bounces back and forth between the will essence and the presence of guilt encapsulating the will essence, and continues to reinforce the smack and reimprint its message every time it "bounces" off the will. This, of course, is very painful to the will.
So it is important that will that is self-hating understand that it needs to release the unloving light back out that is trapped in there with it under guilt. The trick is to get the impetus to release from the core of the will, from "underneath" the encapsulating guilt; from underneath the unloving light trapped there with it; and from underneath the imprints held in the will as well. You must get all the way down to the base line of the will there, and vibrate out from there, releasing the imprints, releasing the light, and making a "doorway" for them to leave you by pushing the encapsulating guilt out of your aura which is holding everything in.
Guilt is essentially a boundary, a "no man's zone," which light and vibration do no pass through. It is what is supposed to be between creation and the void (also known as the Ring-Pass-Not). It gets entangled in the magnetic essence and keeps what is "under" it from getting the light.
The magnetic essence shrinks back from it, and slows down its vibration. This only opens space for more guilt to be present.
Imagine that your energy body is like an onion, with nested oviods corresponding to each chakra; red in the inside and purple on the outside. You can have guilt at any layer of your aura. Where it is present, it blocks the flow of energy from coming in to or out of the center (through the layers). Another way to put it, is that guilt warps your energy field, and therefore, your ability to project the reality that you want, or your ability to receive what you need in order to manifest it.
Homeopathy and Chinese Medicine understand this model, and they try to deal with things on the surface level before they work their way "in." They also try to heal things one layer at a time, from the outside in.
This matches our model, in that if you have a shell of guilt blocking you, you need to "crack it" in order for the unloving light that you are holding to get out, and the loving light you need, to get in.
But you also have an "innermost in" connection to the Mother that can help you work from the inside out. In fact it will empower her if you draw on this with the intent that she help you release the unloving light. As this happens, she will be able to open space and draw the loving light instead.
Each chakra projects light through it into its corresponding layer of the energy body. The imprints in the chakra shape this layer. The guilt "shielding" at each of the layers of the aura correspond to the imprints in each chakra. So another way to get in touch with that status of your own aura is to feel into/look into each chakra and then follow the energy from that chakra outward.
Your recent breakthrough with your posture [I had a release as I was practicing an energy meditation that I learned in yoga class] "cracked" one of the energy body guilt-shields. This allowed the corresponding part of your chakra column to project outwards again. As you know, this healing has involved a lot of rearrangement of the habit patterns of how you hold your body [i.e. yoga practice]. Your physical body is the center or innermost layer of your aura, so when you get things moving here, it can have a big effect.
So in the same way that you can start with your inner connection to the Mother, you can also start with your body to do release. Release is a physical process. It can clear stuff out if you are allowing the will to express through your body. Body work can trigger this release, if you allow movement to happen. However, but if what is being held in the will (unloving light, or denial ,or imprints, or judgments) doesn't work its way all the way out through the layers of your aura, the change does not stick because you will still be holding it at some level. As you can see, guilt has to be moved back to some degree in order for this to happen.
If what is being held does not move all the way out, the trigger will come around again. This is what is happening when you think you have learned a lesson but there it is again.
If you have these guilt-shields, you can end up feeling very "pushed around", because other people's energy has something "hard" to push against. This is not exactly what happens, but it is a pretty close analogy. If you are not letting your true response flow through you, to keep yourself "flushed out," other people's energy can get lodged in your aura and especially between layers of the guild-shield. Thought you are holding their essence, they still have a least a worm-hole connection to it, if not an actually intention-cord, and so they can "move you around" through this connection.
It is good to visualize the release of such things, but it is really the vibration that actually does the work of moving them out. The visualization is more like setting the intention. Visualizing does not have the "inside out" information about the energy constellation, in the way that feeling the energy constellation from the inside has. Allowing the will's process to just flow is the "safest" way to work with this. It is the same as following Grace.
(me) Wow, thank you. I am just starting to be able to distinguish some of the details of my chakras and set their openness/closedness so I will start trying to feel the layers of my aura.
(MFGH) you can use you inner eye to look as well. This is valid information, but it has less dimensionality than using your "inner hand" in conjunction with it.
[note: I was trying to understand some movement that happened the night before, and eventually this came through.]
(MFGH) ...The question of how rage aligns with lost light is important to understand. Yes is can be as blatant as Lucifer coming to you and promising you power if you let him in… but it can also be a lot more subtle. The alignment can also be a result of a smack… the smack itself pushes or splits the rage out violently, as the energy of the smack needs to have somewhere to "go." The unloving light that is received from the smack goes to the essence that has an affinity to it—either self-hate (usually terror-polar), which thinks it has to receive it (and deserves to be punished) or other-hate (usually rage polar) that wants to give the smack right back to the sender (revenge). I am simplifying things here to give you a mental diagram of what can happen.
In the self-hate scenario, the smack energy bounces back and forth between the will essence and the presence of guilt encapsulating the will essence, and continues to reinforce the smack and reimprint its message every time it "bounces" off the will. This, of course, is very painful to the will.
So it is important that will that is self-hating understand that it needs to release the unloving light back out that is trapped in there with it under guilt. The trick is to get the impetus to release from the core of the will, from "underneath" the encapsulating guilt; from underneath the unloving light trapped there with it; and from underneath the imprints held in the will as well. You must get all the way down to the base line of the will there, and vibrate out from there, releasing the imprints, releasing the light, and making a "doorway" for them to leave you by pushing the encapsulating guilt out of your aura which is holding everything in.
Guilt is essentially a boundary, a "no man's zone," which light and vibration do no pass through. It is what is supposed to be between creation and the void (also known as the Ring-Pass-Not). It gets entangled in the magnetic essence and keeps what is "under" it from getting the light.
The magnetic essence shrinks back from it, and slows down its vibration. This only opens space for more guilt to be present.
Imagine that your energy body is like an onion, with nested oviods corresponding to each chakra; red in the inside and purple on the outside. You can have guilt at any layer of your aura. Where it is present, it blocks the flow of energy from coming in to or out of the center (through the layers). Another way to put it, is that guilt warps your energy field, and therefore, your ability to project the reality that you want, or your ability to receive what you need in order to manifest it.
Homeopathy and Chinese Medicine understand this model, and they try to deal with things on the surface level before they work their way "in." They also try to heal things one layer at a time, from the outside in.
This matches our model, in that if you have a shell of guilt blocking you, you need to "crack it" in order for the unloving light that you are holding to get out, and the loving light you need, to get in.
But you also have an "innermost in" connection to the Mother that can help you work from the inside out. In fact it will empower her if you draw on this with the intent that she help you release the unloving light. As this happens, she will be able to open space and draw the loving light instead.
Each chakra projects light through it into its corresponding layer of the energy body. The imprints in the chakra shape this layer. The guilt "shielding" at each of the layers of the aura correspond to the imprints in each chakra. So another way to get in touch with that status of your own aura is to feel into/look into each chakra and then follow the energy from that chakra outward.
Your recent breakthrough with your posture [I had a release as I was practicing an energy meditation that I learned in yoga class] "cracked" one of the energy body guilt-shields. This allowed the corresponding part of your chakra column to project outwards again. As you know, this healing has involved a lot of rearrangement of the habit patterns of how you hold your body [i.e. yoga practice]. Your physical body is the center or innermost layer of your aura, so when you get things moving here, it can have a big effect.
So in the same way that you can start with your inner connection to the Mother, you can also start with your body to do release. Release is a physical process. It can clear stuff out if you are allowing the will to express through your body. Body work can trigger this release, if you allow movement to happen. However, but if what is being held in the will (unloving light, or denial ,or imprints, or judgments) doesn't work its way all the way out through the layers of your aura, the change does not stick because you will still be holding it at some level. As you can see, guilt has to be moved back to some degree in order for this to happen.
If what is being held does not move all the way out, the trigger will come around again. This is what is happening when you think you have learned a lesson but there it is again.
If you have these guilt-shields, you can end up feeling very "pushed around", because other people's energy has something "hard" to push against. This is not exactly what happens, but it is a pretty close analogy. If you are not letting your true response flow through you, to keep yourself "flushed out," other people's energy can get lodged in your aura and especially between layers of the guild-shield. Thought you are holding their essence, they still have a least a worm-hole connection to it, if not an actually intention-cord, and so they can "move you around" through this connection.
It is good to visualize the release of such things, but it is really the vibration that actually does the work of moving them out. The visualization is more like setting the intention. Visualizing does not have the "inside out" information about the energy constellation, in the way that feeling the energy constellation from the inside has. Allowing the will's process to just flow is the "safest" way to work with this. It is the same as following Grace.
(me) Wow, thank you. I am just starting to be able to distinguish some of the details of my chakras and set their openness/closedness so I will start trying to feel the layers of my aura.
(MFGH) you can use you inner eye to look as well. This is valid information, but it has less dimensionality than using your "inner hand" in conjunction with it.
Monday, June 18, 2007
Indigo
2006-12-19
[I started with a brief discussion of my vision for the heartofindigo.com website, and how it was hard to wait.]
(me) its hard for me to have patience and allow things to unfold in "right time." Hey I just got that "right time" is like following the Tao.
(MFGH) yes. Right time is not like an appointment on the calendar that you have to wait to get to. It is matching the pace of the unfoldment… balancing speed and slowness, not rushing the will but not stopping it either…
Part of our problems in the beginning was our different speeds. In a sense, in the explosion of Original Heart, the Will had to slow down and nearly stop to clench, while the light had to rev up past the ignition point. This was not wrong in terms allowing Matter to manifest. To say more would require you to have some physics basics in your consciousness.
(me) okay maybe when I get a chance to do some reading we can come back to this.
(MFGH) it is important that this earliest of stories gets told as well, so anything that you could do to facilitate this would be welcome.
(me) wasn't the story in the Indigo book a Seventh Creation reenactment of the First Creation story?
(MFGH) if you insist on a linear time line, then yes. But at this level of reality, "time" is more like nested spheres of influence. The Macro and Microcosms were already present. So what was happening in the microcosm of the First Creation was also happening in the macrocosm of the Seventh Creation. We put it this way, because each subsequent creation was bigger, and embraced the previous creations. This is because more and more Will presence was entering into a relationship with the Light. More space was opened for Form to manifest with each iteration.
Allow your understanding to unfold with time. You cannot really "get" it when it is a concept. It has to be activated in your own experience.
It is analogous to your own energy body.
(me) I don't understand why it is flipped around, though. My understanding is in our energy bodies the Red sphere is the smallest.
(MFGH) yes, because you are in the Seventh Creation now. At this level, it is easier to start with the vessel, the seed of Body. Your Earthly parents were whole Seventh Creation beings, while at the beginning we were not that yet, nor did we have parents.
(me) I have so much curiosity about the Second Creation. I have gotten glimpses but it seems like such a big gap in the story. And why would "night" come after purple? Why did Indigo hide?
(MFGH) Indigo "saw" what happened in the First Creation. It was the first time that we had actual Manifestation to observe and learn from. You could say that Indigo was scarred by what it saw. And decided the route that the Parts took there was "not for me!" And so it reversed on itself and went into hiding. Reversed is not the quite word. We would say went "inside out" except it was more like "outside in and inside in too." It went deep, silent, underground, so to speak.
On another layer, Indigo was born from the orgasm in Purple. In this orgasm, there was enough will presence to manifest the spectrum of my light that is next to purple—indigo. Indigo was the beginning of reflecting on something—and also, of understanding reflections. Indigo had intimate knowledge of the beginnings of things, and this helps it understand.
Indigo also was the beginning of questioning the assumptions we made in Original Heart. The primary one was that things would unfold as we "envisioned" they would. Indigo carried the dream/blueprint in a "visual" form. All of the colors carry it, but each in their own way.
One of the important differences between Indigo and Blue is that Blue was the beginning of "voice." So in manifestation, the pattern is the Divine Inspiration, the Vision, and then Speaking the Vision.
Having a voice enabled Blue to "vibrate itself." It had an ability to shape manifestation with its vibratory power and draw to it what it wanted. This is part of why FOM was drawn to it. There was the possibility of intention in Blue that wasn't yet possible in Indigo. So Blue Woman could say with confidence "Come here Big Boy" to FOM and let him know that she could give him what he wanted because she could be an active participant. She could intend, and then manifest her intention.
The unfortunate consequence of Blue manifesting before Green, is that Blue did not have the heart presence to know to manifest something loving. It had desire without heart—which amounts to "power over" others, instead of "being empowered and empowering."
FOM did not have the Heart presence then either. This was in part because he did not "exist" in the same ways that the rest of us did in Original Heart. He was the longed for, yet completely unknown, part of the creation process. He did not "carry the blueprint/dream" in the same way that other parts did. You could say that he was the blueprint/dream, in that everything he did imprinted creation and manifested the dream.
To switch perspectives for a moment, you also need to consider what was happening for the rest of the Will that was not yet communing with the Light or manifesting her desires. She was lost to the rest of us. We were lost to her. She was drawing us to her through the part of her that was at the end of the wormhole begtween her and the light—what we have called "Daughter Heart." The "dot" of Yin in the Yang side. She was like a force at the other end of the worm hole, drawing us to the opening so that we could go down through DH into her. She was also trying to rise up through the wormhole to receive us.
In the Second Creation, Indigo "knew" that the Will was going to have problems now. It understood that this pattern of creating a little bit at a time with a little bit of Will at a time was not such a good idea after all. It could "foresee" how this problem was going to unfold in each subsequent creation, when only a part of the Will was going to join Manifestation at a time. It could visualize the blueprint/dream, and could also visualize the probable actual unfoldment. And it did not look good.
This gap was very distressing to Indigo, as you can well imagine. This was the first "understanding" of "gap," although Indigo had no clue what to do about it, or even how to communicate it to the rest of us. We did not have any knowledge that we should be looking to Indigo for this kind of information, or how to use it once we had it, for that matter. There was not even a coherent "us" to communicate to.
So Indigo had the makings of its first internal gap—the side that polarized to the dream (what we wanted to happen), and the side that polarized to the "truth" (what would actually happen). The "dreamers" and the "realists" have been at odds with each other ever since. In actuality, for Indigo to fulfill its function, it needs to have both sides present and cross referencing each other, but this has not always happened. But in another way this is not wrong, in that it was the beginning of binocular vision—seeing things from two slightly separated points of view gives you a depth of understanding.
Indigo also had the first awareness (perception) of the "invisible" connection between "lost will" and manifestation—the "worm holes." This is a big contributor to Indigo's "psychic powers." To Indigo, it is not mysterious. It is simply seeing the "web" and understanding how various parts are connected and influence each other. This ability to see relationships as a whole is part of what you call "right brain" understanding.
And remember, you all have an indigo chakra, and so have the potential for these gifts. But with the gifts comes the knowledge of pain in the rest of creation, and this can be very distressing.
thank you. What about the orgasm that brought forth the Third Creation? Did Indigo have sex with FOM?
no. Indigo is a tertiary color. This means that it is comprised of a primary (blue) and secondary (purple) color. It is the only tertiary color in the Chakra Rainbow—blue-violet. In fact, you could say that it has presence when blue-green, yellow-green, orange-yellow, and red-orange do not. Notice that these colors do not even have their own name.
All of these colors are in the "background" of the Chakra Rainbow, and each of them has issues about that. This is a whole other area of exploration that we will save for another time. But they have a role in connecting each Chakra, and many who have not found their "home color," or could not decide between two, may discover that they are in this category.
Thank you. I think this is all I can handle right now.
[I started with a brief discussion of my vision for the heartofindigo.com website, and how it was hard to wait.]
(me) its hard for me to have patience and allow things to unfold in "right time." Hey I just got that "right time" is like following the Tao.
(MFGH) yes. Right time is not like an appointment on the calendar that you have to wait to get to. It is matching the pace of the unfoldment… balancing speed and slowness, not rushing the will but not stopping it either…
Part of our problems in the beginning was our different speeds. In a sense, in the explosion of Original Heart, the Will had to slow down and nearly stop to clench, while the light had to rev up past the ignition point. This was not wrong in terms allowing Matter to manifest. To say more would require you to have some physics basics in your consciousness.
(me) okay maybe when I get a chance to do some reading we can come back to this.
(MFGH) it is important that this earliest of stories gets told as well, so anything that you could do to facilitate this would be welcome.
(me)
(MFGH) if you insist on a linear time line, then yes. But at this level of reality, "time" is more like nested spheres of influence. The Macro and Microcosms were already present. So what was happening in the microcosm of the First Creation was also happening in the macrocosm of the Seventh Creation. We put it this way, because each subsequent creation was bigger, and embraced the previous creations. This is because more and more Will presence was entering into a relationship with the Light. More space was opened for Form to manifest with each iteration.
Allow your understanding to unfold with time. You cannot really "get" it when it is a concept. It has to be activated in your own experience.
It is analogous to your own energy body.
(me) I don't understand why it is flipped around, though. My understanding is in our energy bodies the Red sphere is the smallest.
(MFGH) yes, because you are in the Seventh Creation now. At this level, it is easier to start with the vessel, the seed of Body. Your Earthly parents were whole Seventh Creation beings, while at the beginning we were not that yet, nor did we have parents.
(me) I have so much curiosity about the Second Creation. I have gotten glimpses but it seems like such a big gap in the story. And why would "night" come after purple? Why did Indigo hide?
(MFGH) Indigo "saw" what happened in the First Creation. It was the first time that we had actual Manifestation to observe and learn from. You could say that Indigo was scarred by what it saw. And decided the route that the Parts took there was "not for me!" And so it reversed on itself and went into hiding. Reversed is not the quite word. We would say went "inside out" except it was more like "outside in and inside in too." It went deep, silent, underground, so to speak.
On another layer, Indigo was born from the orgasm in Purple. In this orgasm, there was enough will presence to manifest the spectrum of my light that is next to purple—indigo. Indigo was the beginning of reflecting on something—and also, of understanding reflections. Indigo had intimate knowledge of the beginnings of things, and this helps it understand.
Indigo also was the beginning of questioning the assumptions we made in Original Heart. The primary one was that things would unfold as we "envisioned" they would. Indigo carried the dream/blueprint in a "visual" form. All of the colors carry it, but each in their own way.
One of the important differences between Indigo and Blue is that Blue was the beginning of "voice." So in manifestation, the pattern is the Divine Inspiration, the Vision, and then Speaking the Vision.
Having a voice enabled Blue to "vibrate itself." It had an ability to shape manifestation with its vibratory power and draw to it what it wanted. This is part of why FOM was drawn to it. There was the possibility of intention in Blue that wasn't yet possible in Indigo. So Blue Woman could say with confidence "Come here Big Boy" to FOM and let him know that she could give him what he wanted because she could be an active participant. She could intend, and then manifest her intention.
The unfortunate consequence of Blue manifesting before Green, is that Blue did not have the heart presence to know to manifest something loving. It had desire without heart—which amounts to "power over" others, instead of "being empowered and empowering."
FOM did not have the Heart presence then either. This was in part because he did not "exist" in the same ways that the rest of us did in Original Heart. He was the longed for, yet completely unknown, part of the creation process. He did not "carry the blueprint/dream" in the same way that other parts did. You could say that he was the blueprint/dream, in that everything he did imprinted creation and manifested the dream.
To switch perspectives for a moment, you also need to consider what was happening for the rest of the Will that was not yet communing with the Light or manifesting her desires. She was lost to the rest of us. We were lost to her. She was drawing us to her through the part of her that was at the end of the wormhole begtween her and the light—what we have called "Daughter Heart." The "dot" of Yin in the Yang side. She was like a force at the other end of the worm hole, drawing us to the opening so that we could go down through DH into her. She was also trying to rise up through the wormhole to receive us.
In the Second Creation, Indigo "knew" that the Will was going to have problems now. It understood that this pattern of creating a little bit at a time with a little bit of Will at a time was not such a good idea after all. It could "foresee" how this problem was going to unfold in each subsequent creation, when only a part of the Will was going to join Manifestation at a time. It could visualize the blueprint/dream, and could also visualize the probable actual unfoldment. And it did not look good.
This gap was very distressing to Indigo, as you can well imagine. This was the first "understanding" of "gap," although Indigo had no clue what to do about it, or even how to communicate it to the rest of us. We did not have any knowledge that we should be looking to Indigo for this kind of information, or how to use it once we had it, for that matter. There was not even a coherent "us" to communicate to.
So Indigo had the makings of its first internal gap—the side that polarized to the dream (what we wanted to happen), and the side that polarized to the "truth" (what would actually happen). The "dreamers" and the "realists" have been at odds with each other ever since. In actuality, for Indigo to fulfill its function, it needs to have both sides present and cross referencing each other, but this has not always happened. But in another way this is not wrong, in that it was the beginning of binocular vision—seeing things from two slightly separated points of view gives you a depth of understanding.
Indigo also had the first awareness (perception) of the "invisible" connection between "lost will" and manifestation—the "worm holes." This is a big contributor to Indigo's "psychic powers." To Indigo, it is not mysterious. It is simply seeing the "web" and understanding how various parts are connected and influence each other. This ability to see relationships as a whole is part of what you call "right brain" understanding.
And remember, you all have an indigo chakra, and so have the potential for these gifts. But with the gifts comes the knowledge of pain in the rest of creation, and this can be very distressing.
All of these colors are in the "background" of the Chakra Rainbow, and each of them has issues about that. This is a whole other area of exploration that we will save for another time. But they have a role in connecting each Chakra, and many who have not found their "home color," or could not decide between two, may discover that they are in this category.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
chakra cords
2006-12-18
Dear MFGH,
I just noticed in the yoga practice we are focusing on the heart (4th chakra), while in the martial arts practice we focused on the hara (2nd chakra). It seems like it would be good to balance out the upper body emphasis with a lower body emphasis. Although in yoga the breath originates from the abdomen, so that probably helps.
I am also feeling a bit of excitement when I feel like I am tuning into my personal stream of grace and Aurum is present. It’s a little like feeling in love. Then I was trying to tune in to the greater streams of Grace… and I felt like that would be even more powerful… and that that would be a manifestation of right time and place to do magic…
And another interesting thing about it is that Grace seems to have a front/back flow, in addition to the up and down tubular flow of the Great Circulation… I wonder if the "network" flow is forward and back…
(MFGH) yes, that is generally how the cords work. Out from particular chakras in a horizontal fashion, but it can come out in 360 degrees, not just forwards and backwards. Your human fragments and connected people are on the same physical plain as you are, so the cords are parallel to the ground. Well it is really a sphere, so not literally parallel.
Lines to essence on other planes may go out in any direction.
And you are right that being in the stream of Grace, at whatever level, is an aspect of magic. It is the source of synchronicity.
You also have to "be here now" to be in your stream of Grace. So it is good for centering yourself and also why meditation and other practices that bring you into the present moment feel good and even have a magical quality.
As we said before there are many ways to conceptualize it. The Taoists practiced being in the flow in every moment. Artists of all kinds seek this flow. It is also why sometimes you want to keep channeling during a session. It is the source of creativity, and how the Muses communicate with you.
It is also how you get to the feeling of "Oneness" with the universe, which is an Infinitely fine Web.
All chakras have their own connection with their own levels of the web, but the web is often associated with Indigo because indigo can "see" it. But you can perceive it in other ways as well. You can feel the "tug" of the web in your heart (where the phrase "pulling on your heart strings" comes from), in your gut, or even sexually. You can have a "meeting of the minds."
These cords can be functional or dysfunctional. And you can (theoretically) add them or subtract them. People in close relationships have multiple cords, chakra to chakra. They can be more or less conscious of them and of the "agreements" they made when they made the connection. These agreements can last between lives, and the cords are how you find each other in subsequent lives.
You can release the agreements, but depending on how they were made, this can be difficult, in that it can require a certain degree of emotional intensity (movement). And if you have essence left on the other side of the cord, it will still be connected to you at the more subtle "wormhole level."
Cords are not all the same, and they also exist in different forms on different levels of reality. To really disconnect, you have to go to the causal level. You may even have to go back to earlier Creations.
Cords are essentially analogous to imprints, except they are the manifestation of what goes on between essence. They act with the force of gravity, in that they are "warps" in the fabric of space-time. Another way to say it is that they are the warp and weft OF the fabric of space-time.
But it is more important that you feel this, experience this for yourself than we talk about it. Eventually you will get to the point where you can perceive more detail about your energy body. We can also talk about decording, but the technique of it is not as important as the emotional work.
(me) thank you, this "ties" some things together for me.
Dear MFGH,
I just noticed in the yoga practice we are focusing on the heart (4th chakra), while in the martial arts practice we focused on the hara (2nd chakra). It seems like it would be good to balance out the upper body emphasis with a lower body emphasis. Although in yoga the breath originates from the abdomen, so that probably helps.
I am also feeling a bit of excitement when I feel like I am tuning into my personal stream of grace and Aurum is present. It’s a little like feeling in love. Then I was trying to tune in to the greater streams of Grace… and I felt like that would be even more powerful… and that that would be a manifestation of right time and place to do magic…
And another interesting thing about it is that Grace seems to have a front/back flow, in addition to the up and down tubular flow of the Great Circulation… I wonder if the "network" flow is forward and back…
(MFGH) yes, that is generally how the cords work. Out from particular chakras in a horizontal fashion, but it can come out in 360 degrees, not just forwards and backwards. Your human fragments and connected people are on the same physical plain as you are, so the cords are parallel to the ground. Well it is really a sphere, so not literally parallel.
Lines to essence on other planes may go out in any direction.
And you are right that being in the stream of Grace, at whatever level, is an aspect of magic. It is the source of synchronicity.
You also have to "be here now" to be in your stream of Grace. So it is good for centering yourself and also why meditation and other practices that bring you into the present moment feel good and even have a magical quality.
As we said before there are many ways to conceptualize it. The Taoists practiced being in the flow in every moment. Artists of all kinds seek this flow. It is also why sometimes you want to keep channeling during a session. It is the source of creativity, and how the Muses communicate with you.
It is also how you get to the feeling of "Oneness" with the universe, which is an Infinitely fine Web.
All chakras have their own connection with their own levels of the web, but the web is often associated with Indigo because indigo can "see" it. But you can perceive it in other ways as well. You can feel the "tug" of the web in your heart (where the phrase "pulling on your heart strings" comes from), in your gut, or even sexually. You can have a "meeting of the minds."
These cords can be functional or dysfunctional. And you can (theoretically) add them or subtract them. People in close relationships have multiple cords, chakra to chakra. They can be more or less conscious of them and of the "agreements" they made when they made the connection. These agreements can last between lives, and the cords are how you find each other in subsequent lives.
You can release the agreements, but depending on how they were made, this can be difficult, in that it can require a certain degree of emotional intensity (movement). And if you have essence left on the other side of the cord, it will still be connected to you at the more subtle "wormhole level."
Cords are not all the same, and they also exist in different forms on different levels of reality. To really disconnect, you have to go to the causal level. You may even have to go back to earlier Creations.
Cords are essentially analogous to imprints, except they are the manifestation of what goes on between essence. They act with the force of gravity, in that they are "warps" in the fabric of space-time. Another way to say it is that they are the warp and weft OF the fabric of space-time.
But it is more important that you feel this, experience this for yourself than we talk about it. Eventually you will get to the point where you can perceive more detail about your energy body. We can also talk about decording, but the technique of it is not as important as the emotional work.
(me) thank you, this "ties" some things together for me.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Emergence Point
2006-11-24
[note: they were talking both about my personal emergence point and everyone's emergence point]
(MFGH) there is a "beginning point" in your consciousness… an "assemblage point" if you will…that is the most "core you"… or rather, the most central point of your point of view…it has the quality of perception, of distinguishing itself from what it is perceiving… the origin of duality… the origin of "reality" and then experience over time… [hubby adds: the origin of the experience of "self."]
for each of these points, the beginning is like a little "big bang"… and at the beginning of each point of view is the pattern that represents the truth about that place/time… the "DNA" of that being, on a metaphysical level…
you did not choose where you were in the Greater Body of God… but you chose when you were--when you emerged…and so your responsibility is not in your essence, but in your original "decision" to emerge as a separate entity… and this decision can be understood by understanding the story of the Greater Forces up to that point…
there is always an original judgment there… even if it is only "time for Me-ness"… but most commonly, it was in reaction to what had happened up to that point…
the decision that you made, that we talked about before… is key to understanding you experience, since that time… to be Heart, before Heart emerged, before the function of Heart could be in place, before it was manifested by the making love of the parental parts… is the conundrum that you have been trying to understand…
in fact "you" go back to the virtual reality of Original Heart… you/y'all/We thought we knew what would happen in the experience of separating, but we did not know… we were the ultimate in inexperience, without even knowing that there was a distinction called "experience" that had a cumulative effect on the being of an entity…
in Original Heart there was no imprinting, experience was always fluid and could always be "reset" to zero… the history of what went before was not damaging, in the ways it is in manifestation… and this is the great mistake that God made for so very long… not even realizing that this was his core assumption about reality, that there were no consequences, which made it so very hard for him to understand the Mother's experience…
So in your "metaphysical DNA" is the history of Everything that led up to your decision to emerge… and your being is the Manifestation, the Birth of that history… you were reflecting to the Universe "this is what you get if you were to Create at this moment in time from this place in the Body"… you were Information to the Cosmic Evolutionary Path. Feedback.
But you did not really know what it would be to Experience life as that manifestation. You did not foresee the consequences of emerging then, any more than we did in the very beginning. Many of you have felt that you made a terrible mistake… that your original decision was wrong, since you have had so much pain as a "consequence" of it.
But you need to forgive yourself there. We all have experienced pain; there was no emergence point that would have been better for you, that would have allowed you to escape the pain, or prevent the pain. You did not do it wrong.
Yes We have judged it as wrong, so there is a reason that you have felt guilty… but We are releasing this fundamental judgment against you, as we are releasing it against ourselves.
A huge part of Us has felt that we never should have manifested in the first place, when we split Original Heart… We have felt that the pain was not worth the outcome… We have had very angry parts of ourselves…
yet the irony is there is literally no one but ourselves to "blame." If we are parental (and ultimately, everyone can trace their path back to Original Heart), we have to own that we made the decision… out of Love…
What a horrible/beautiful understanding… it is almost beyond comprehension, if you are to embrace the totality of what happened… in fact it has been beyond comprehension, as we did not see the role of denial or understand the manifestation of the Gap… our core identities were not able to comprehend what our consciousness was denying…
Nor did we understand that the Void had a kind of "reversal-consciousness" that would be disturbed by Manifestation… that would give rise to the Smack… the asuras that want only to get out of the trap of Manifestation and return to an un-manifest state… and would kill everything to do this.
The participation of this denial energy in the history of creation has not been seen clearly, either. It has "aligned" with every impulse to deny, push away, or kill another and given it the quality that you call "evil"… this is the Shadow of Manifestation itself… the "cost" of manifesting, so to speak… disturbing the Void and mixing asuras into manifestation...
again, this is a question of right place. when the gaps are healed, then this energy can go back into the void, outside of Us… we won't be giving it a place among Us…
So. This is just part of the lesson, just the background. What you did in particular to end up with bipolar is your own personal story in relation to all of this. How do you think it fits together?
(me) well I am kind of going off of what you said before, that I made the decision to embrace the polarities as they were without much heart presence to mitigate their extremes or integrate them. That makes the most sense to me. I am not quite sure how this translates to the Indigo experience yet. I have been trying to understand that part for a long time. I have put it as "how did I get from the bottom of Yellow up to Indigo? How did I emerge at both places at once?"
(MFGH) well to put it simply, you embraced these two polarities. But first we have to understand who the "you" is that embraced this.
There are many, many branches of Heart. You could almost take any two points along the spectrum and find a Heart Presence trying to balance the two. They do not all gather "in Green" so to speak. Indigo is the Heart between Purple and Blue. Orange is the Heart between Yellow and Red. And heart positions resonate with other heart positions.
There is also the Heart presence between any two Main Parts—your hubby is the perfect example of this, trying to balance Body and Heart. There are aspects of diety that are between Spirit and Heart, Will and Heart, Will and Body, Spirit and Body... Do these have a color? no, not exactly. But they have resonances with the issues in other "heart" colors.
But your emergence point of view was actually previous to the manifestation of the Rainbow. The Lens to break up the light hadn't quite emerged yet. (Form.) So your point of view did not get a physical form until the Heart Daughters manifested. That was the closest form to you.
And this also goes back to Original Heart. The beautiful forms manifesting colors beneath the lens of FOM's gaze was a virtual experience there that was very pleasing and much anticipated as a manifestation out in Reality. So it was not wrong. But the consciousness in and from Original Heart did not anticipate the Mother's point of view or experience there. We had no way to deal with it, let alone know it in the totality of our being.
So yes, you feel Parental to the Daughter Hearts… in that you had a self-organizing consciousness that preceded many other emergence points. This is part of why you have felt so responsible for the Daughters' gaps. In your OOOC imprinting, you felt that you were causal to the gaps between the Original Parents, as you did not bridge them, you did not keep your "parents" together, and this original gap was parental to many of the other gaps. And from another point of view (Original Heart's), your "parents" are more like your children, so there is yet another layer of responsibility.
The Godchannel has not focused on this Original Guilt, as that has not been my mission there. I have wanted to give voice to not-guilt, to help people balance out the terrible voices that have been plaguing them since before the beginning.
But these feelings must be addressed, and particularly by people in your position. The gift of guilt here is helping you to get in touch with your "responsibility"—and thus your Power.
(me) thank you.
[note: they were talking both about my personal emergence point and everyone's emergence point]
(MFGH) there is a "beginning point" in your consciousness… an "assemblage point" if you will…that is the most "core you"… or rather, the most central point of your point of view…it has the quality of perception, of distinguishing itself from what it is perceiving… the origin of duality… the origin of "reality" and then experience over time… [hubby adds: the origin of the experience of "self."]
for each of these points, the beginning is like a little "big bang"… and at the beginning of each point of view is the pattern that represents the truth about that place/time… the "DNA" of that being, on a metaphysical level…
you did not choose where you were in the Greater Body of God… but you chose when you were--when you emerged…and so your responsibility is not in your essence, but in your original "decision" to emerge as a separate entity… and this decision can be understood by understanding the story of the Greater Forces up to that point…
there is always an original judgment there… even if it is only "time for Me-ness"… but most commonly, it was in reaction to what had happened up to that point…
the decision that you made, that we talked about before… is key to understanding you experience, since that time… to be Heart, before Heart emerged, before the function of Heart could be in place, before it was manifested by the making love of the parental parts… is the conundrum that you have been trying to understand…
in fact "you" go back to the virtual reality of Original Heart… you/y'all/We thought we knew what would happen in the experience of separating, but we did not know… we were the ultimate in inexperience, without even knowing that there was a distinction called "experience" that had a cumulative effect on the being of an entity…
in Original Heart there was no imprinting, experience was always fluid and could always be "reset" to zero… the history of what went before was not damaging, in the ways it is in manifestation… and this is the great mistake that God made for so very long… not even realizing that this was his core assumption about reality, that there were no consequences, which made it so very hard for him to understand the Mother's experience…
So in your "metaphysical DNA" is the history of Everything that led up to your decision to emerge… and your being is the Manifestation, the Birth of that history… you were reflecting to the Universe "this is what you get if you were to Create at this moment in time from this place in the Body"… you were Information to the Cosmic Evolutionary Path. Feedback.
But you did not really know what it would be to Experience life as that manifestation. You did not foresee the consequences of emerging then, any more than we did in the very beginning. Many of you have felt that you made a terrible mistake… that your original decision was wrong, since you have had so much pain as a "consequence" of it.
But you need to forgive yourself there. We all have experienced pain; there was no emergence point that would have been better for you, that would have allowed you to escape the pain, or prevent the pain. You did not do it wrong.
Yes We have judged it as wrong, so there is a reason that you have felt guilty… but We are releasing this fundamental judgment against you, as we are releasing it against ourselves.
A huge part of Us has felt that we never should have manifested in the first place, when we split Original Heart… We have felt that the pain was not worth the outcome… We have had very angry parts of ourselves…
yet the irony is there is literally no one but ourselves to "blame." If we are parental (and ultimately, everyone can trace their path back to Original Heart), we have to own that we made the decision… out of Love…
What a horrible/beautiful understanding… it is almost beyond comprehension, if you are to embrace the totality of what happened… in fact it has been beyond comprehension, as we did not see the role of denial or understand the manifestation of the Gap… our core identities were not able to comprehend what our consciousness was denying…
Nor did we understand that the Void had a kind of "reversal-consciousness" that would be disturbed by Manifestation… that would give rise to the Smack… the asuras that want only to get out of the trap of Manifestation and return to an un-manifest state… and would kill everything to do this.
The participation of this denial energy in the history of creation has not been seen clearly, either. It has "aligned" with every impulse to deny, push away, or kill another and given it the quality that you call "evil"… this is the Shadow of Manifestation itself… the "cost" of manifesting, so to speak… disturbing the Void and mixing asuras into manifestation...
again, this is a question of right place. when the gaps are healed, then this energy can go back into the void, outside of Us… we won't be giving it a place among Us…
So. This is just part of the lesson, just the background. What you did in particular to end up with bipolar is your own personal story in relation to all of this. How do you think it fits together?
(me) well I am kind of going off of what you said before, that I made the decision to embrace the polarities as they were without much heart presence to mitigate their extremes or integrate them. That makes the most sense to me. I am not quite sure how this translates to the Indigo experience yet. I have been trying to understand that part for a long time. I have put it as "how did I get from the bottom of Yellow up to Indigo? How did I emerge at both places at once?"
(MFGH) well to put it simply, you embraced these two polarities. But first we have to understand who the "you" is that embraced this.
There are many, many branches of Heart. You could almost take any two points along the spectrum and find a Heart Presence trying to balance the two. They do not all gather "in Green" so to speak. Indigo is the Heart between Purple and Blue. Orange is the Heart between Yellow and Red. And heart positions resonate with other heart positions.
There is also the Heart presence between any two Main Parts—your hubby is the perfect example of this, trying to balance Body and Heart. There are aspects of diety that are between Spirit and Heart, Will and Heart, Will and Body, Spirit and Body... Do these have a color? no, not exactly. But they have resonances with the issues in other "heart" colors.
But your emergence point of view was actually previous to the manifestation of the Rainbow. The Lens to break up the light hadn't quite emerged yet. (Form.) So your point of view did not get a physical form until the Heart Daughters manifested. That was the closest form to you.
And this also goes back to Original Heart. The beautiful forms manifesting colors beneath the lens of FOM's gaze was a virtual experience there that was very pleasing and much anticipated as a manifestation out in Reality. So it was not wrong. But the consciousness in and from Original Heart did not anticipate the Mother's point of view or experience there. We had no way to deal with it, let alone know it in the totality of our being.
So yes, you feel Parental to the Daughter Hearts… in that you had a self-organizing consciousness that preceded many other emergence points. This is part of why you have felt so responsible for the Daughters' gaps. In your OOOC imprinting, you felt that you were causal to the gaps between the Original Parents, as you did not bridge them, you did not keep your "parents" together, and this original gap was parental to many of the other gaps. And from another point of view (Original Heart's), your "parents" are more like your children, so there is yet another layer of responsibility.
The Godchannel has not focused on this Original Guilt, as that has not been my mission there. I have wanted to give voice to not-guilt, to help people balance out the terrible voices that have been plaguing them since before the beginning.
But these feelings must be addressed, and particularly by people in your position. The gift of guilt here is helping you to get in touch with your "responsibility"—and thus your Power.
(me) thank you.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
each chakra's priorities
Note: God asked me some useful questions, and "coincidentally" another friend was doing similar work. So I thought I would start with this exerpt.
2006-08-08
(me) Good morning MFGH… [did running energy meditation] I seem to have a block at the top of blue going "up" and the top of indigo going "down"… can you help me understand that?
(MFGH) It is a reflection of the gap between Blue and Purple. And as you can see, Indigo is gapped from both sides. So Indigo has been disconnected from the energy flowing from both sides. It has very much been lost from the rest of the colors. And this is why it is mysterious and not known.
Actually there isn't much mystery there, except what Indigo felt it needed to veil to protect itself. Mystery schools and all of that. Indigo is associated with the night because that is when hidden things come out of their hiding places. And that is when people act in ways they don't want the Light of day to see.
(MFGH) If you could guess what each of your Chakra's priorities were, what would they be?
(me)
Purple: connect with/receive God, channel, move my feelings in relationship to Spirit
Indigo: move in relationship to what I am seeing, see clearly and be able to communicate what I see, be valued as a seer, be received, connect with other Indigo people, heal the damage there, reconnect with God and the Mother
Blue: be received, express myself, sing, be a spokesperson for healing the will, speak in public, get Daughter's story told
Green: be loved, live in harmony, have a healed planet, feel love, be identified with, be authentically loving, tell the difference between love and guilt
Yellow: not live in terror, be safe, develop personal power (this feels far off), be respected, have more presence, be received for my ability to suss out danger
Orange: be intuitive, have my intuition received, manifest magic, do Mother-centered ritual, have Red healed so it doesn't cause me problems, do art, connect with others in a creative way
Red: lead, vibrate, have orgasms (inside of love), be powerful, release what I am holding, source the Kundalini energy and be honored for that, integrate with the rest of my being, manifest what I desire
(MFGH) Which priorities are you addressing? Which aren't getting your attention?
2006-08-08
(me) Good morning MFGH… [did running energy meditation] I seem to have a block at the top of blue going "up" and the top of indigo going "down"… can you help me understand that?
(MFGH) It is a reflection of the gap between Blue and Purple. And as you can see, Indigo is gapped from both sides. So Indigo has been disconnected from the energy flowing from both sides. It has very much been lost from the rest of the colors. And this is why it is mysterious and not known.
Actually there isn't much mystery there, except what Indigo felt it needed to veil to protect itself. Mystery schools and all of that. Indigo is associated with the night because that is when hidden things come out of their hiding places. And that is when people act in ways they don't want the Light of day to see.
(me)
Purple: connect with/receive God, channel, move my feelings in relationship to Spirit
Indigo: move in relationship to what I am seeing, see clearly and be able to communicate what I see, be valued as a seer, be received, connect with other Indigo people, heal the damage there, reconnect with God and the Mother
Blue: be received, express myself, sing, be a spokesperson for healing the will, speak in public, get Daughter's story told
Green: be loved, live in harmony, have a healed planet, feel love, be identified with, be authentically loving, tell the difference between love and guilt
Yellow: not live in terror, be safe, develop personal power (this feels far off), be respected, have more presence, be received for my ability to suss out danger
Orange: be intuitive, have my intuition received, manifest magic, do Mother-centered ritual, have Red healed so it doesn't cause me problems, do art, connect with others in a creative way
Red: lead, vibrate, have orgasms (inside of love), be powerful, release what I am holding, source the Kundalini energy and be honored for that, integrate with the rest of my being, manifest what I desire
(MFGH) Which priorities are you addressing? Which aren't getting your attention?
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