2006-12-14
[Note: I was struggling with my channeling, especially because something didn't match what I thought others were getting.]
(MFGH) You have a unique perspective to offer—the perspective of our Light coming through you. You are our instrument. You sound a particular note. We want to hear your note. We need each person's note in order to make the symphony of life.
Don't be ashamed of your personal influence on Our words. This is part of the process. This helps us understand you, and also, understand what you are reflecting to us. Your questions, your concerns, are of value to us. We miss them when they are gone.
In the same way that you are discovering that a regular practice of meditation and channeling helps you throughout your day, it also helps us breath throughout our Creation. You have your own individual "web-consciousness" to activate; we have the entire web to nurture and travel through. The more of the threads that are opening to receive us, the more our presence can be felt on Earth.
We understand that you are doubting the healing process because of the drama unfolding in the Middle East. It is a very disturbing reflection for sure, and we are very sorry for the pain and suffering that people are enduring right now. This is not our intent. We want this gap to heal.
The gap between Blue and Red is a very serious one. It involves the gaps within Blue and Red, as well as the Blue-Purple gap. All the gaps are involved, in fact.
Now is the time for you to move into your gap and bring the denied essence there back into acceptance. Now is the time for Heart to be born in your gap. The more that this happens, the more that the global situation will ease.
We hate to say this, but it looks to us like it is going to get worse before it gets better. However, your individual situation does not have to get worse, in the sense that you will develop more capacity to ride out the healing crisis as you get more of yourself vibrating inside of Love.
This does mean that you have to act to protect yourself. If you feel moved to "head for the hills," then that is an indication that you should seriously consider that that is your right place for now. If you do not, then that is the indication that it would not be your right place.
You can't look to what other people are doing, except to use their reflections to help you get in touch with your own intuition. If they trigger you, then it is your responsibility to move it. You can't know ahead of the movement what your own "answer" will be to the questions that this crisis will bring up.
If you feel responsibility for/to the planet in general, then you probably have some responsibility there. It is important to distinguish this from guilt, which makes you feel obligated to do something that you really do not want to do. When you feel the pressure of guilt, vibrate so that we can push it on through you and out to where it belongs.
The feeling of responsibility is not something that you can vibrate, but the feelings that this brings up are ways that you can vibrate. For example, if it terrifies you that you might be responsible, then that is what you need to move. If it enrages you that you cannot control what you are responsible for, then that is where movement needs to happen.
Please give yourself permission to have totally different reactions than other people. This does not mean that one of you is wrong, and one of you is right. It just means that you have different histories and are at different moments along your path.
If you are judging someone else's response as wrong, then you need to look and see if that is reflecting your own denied response. Release the judgment, and see what comes up once that is opened up a bit.
Essence is on the move, and it is important that you are not impeding it from either coming back into you or leaving you. There is a great Unwinding going on, and so things are going to look very unsettled and chaotic. You can't pin down anything right now, as it is in a state of flux.
The violence is a function of many things. Rage in the state of denial, unloving light, feelings being held back, feelings not being received, psychopathic killer and Nazi essence (which are not the same things), and more. It is very important that you move your feelings of wanting to harm others directly, instead of allowing them to leave you and act out your feelings on essence that feels it deserves victimization. Which is often your own essence, by the way.
The Mother does need to become present in each of you. She has many gifts to offer you, but she needs your help in order to be functioning within you. In fact, her gifts are your healing process, and your healing process will manifest her gifts.
Finding your inner victim and your inner perpetrator is the order of the day right now. You may have "started" on "one side or the other," but both "sides" have the other side within them as well.
Ultimately, we are all connected, and at another layer of the cake (consciousness) we are all One.
Essence is neither gained nor lost, but time, love, space, light, and evolution are created every moment—or not. In every moment there is either more or less love, more or less space, more or less light, which results in more or less evolution.
Be on the side of healing. Be the force of evolution. Be a "maker" in the GodChannel lingo.
We need you.
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Sunday, May 27, 2007
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Grace
2006-11-30
(MFGH) The thing we would like to talk about today is your relationship to GodHeart.
(me) ??? am I receiving that right? What is GodHeart?
(MFGH) well you invoke it everyday—MotherFatherGodHeart.
(me) oh, right, that. I guess I never really thought of that part of the equation. I just didn't want to leave anybody out or cut myself off from anything.
(MFGH) yes, so you might as well know what you are invoking.
(me) I'm embarrassed that I had never thought about this before.
(MFGH) Imagine a big silver ring with a "jungle bell" linked to it.
(me) okay, yes I have been getting that image ever since you mentioned it.
(MFGH) You are like the bell, and GH is like the ring. The bell has several qualities. It can ring—making noise, signaling, making music, celebrating—and it can travel around the ring's circumference. It can also rotate around the band of the ring itself. So it is pretty fluid.
The ring is round, rigid, with no beginning or end, and can be anywhere in space.
GodHeart is an aspect of God, and an aspect of Heart. It is a part of Original Heart that "bonded" with Spirit. It is the part of OH that holds the blueprint/dream as well as the intention to manifest it. Another way to say it, is that it is Grace. The Holy Spirit. Grandfather's Light.
It is like the ring because it has no beginning or end. It is complete unto itself. We choose the ring shape as opposed to a "beam" shape, coming from Grandfather to you. Since Original Heart is no more, there is no "place" for this beam to come from. Yet it is always there. Solid. What we have to add to the ring image is that the Grace is always traveling along the ring. It is always moving, and always arising. Yet is has no "emergence point."
(me) is it a mobius strip?
(MFGH) it could be, as that breaks up the idea of an inner and outer surface.
Now to the bell. The bell is clearly not the ring, and has a lot of movement, yet it is always following the curve of the beam of the Grace. It has a part of it that is linked to, or "holding" the ring, the beam of Grace. To stretch the analogy, the link is a vessel for the beam of grace. In fact, if you filled the ring with jingle bells, you would have a path made of vessels for Grace to thread through.
When the bells are in alignment, this path is smooth. It doesn't take a long time for the beam to travel around, as it's path is in the most efficient shape. In "reality," however, the bells are not aligned, and some of them are even missing. So this affects the path of Grace.
However, the now-oddly-shaped "ring" is never broken. The path is never broken. Even in the smallest fragments, there is always some remnant of that which can receive Grace. This is why healing is possible... why God's/Grandfather's Grace can always "find" you, and is, in fact, always there for you. When you open to channel, you are intending to be the path, the vessel, the tube. This strengthens the path, which strengthens the Flow of Grace.
GodHeart (the bell and the ring together) is both the oldest and the youngest aspects of Spirit. It transcends the Seven Creations. It is what links them together. You could almost look at it as the "stream of time." It allows for continuity. You could also look at is as the "evolutionary path." Or even the "DNA of the Universe."
(me) I am getting the image of the World card in the Crowley Tarot deck.
(MFGH) yes. Which brings up the concept of the Matrix.
The Matrix is the "MF" of MFGH, the Mother of Everything+Father of Manifestation part of the equation. It is the space, form, and ground for the ring and the bells. A matrix is often seen as a lattice. Let us use this model and consider each part of the lattice.
Each node is a point of view (entity), and each line is a "line" or "cord" or "agreement" or "connection" between them. Together, they all make up the framework for "consensual reality." Of course, our problem is that there are tears in the lattice, large holes or gaps where points of view are missing. There are nodes that do not connect to the rest, for various reasons.
Now let us consider the lattice in three dimensions, like the neuron cells in a brain. As you know, some of the neural pathways are more developed that others, so you could say that the Matrix Itself is imprinted and shaped, not just the individual nodes.
And what travels along the lines? Well, Grace, for one thing. And because of the shape and imprinting of the Matrix, it is easier for some parts to receive it than others.
But Grace itself is decentralized. We know that you have been focusing on light coming "from" the Godhead, "down" through Purple, to "you," and we want to give you an alternative, more complex picture. It is parallel to an understanding that you got many years ago, that there is no real "center" to the Will, or rather, that there are an infinite number of centers that can open space and receive Loving Light.
(me) wow this is better than an acid trip.
(MFGH) :)
(me) I get that this has something to do with my rage… specifically my rage at Purple. I am also suspecting that it has something to do with my guru issues—my (apparently mistaken) idea that light/grace is sourced somewhere Else, and I have to "do whatever it takes" to get it.
(MFGH) Yes. You do not have to get Our Light "through" anyone else. In fact, we want you to get it directly from Us. This strengthens the Matrix, in ways not easy to explain. If the Source of Grace and Light is distributed, then nodes that were originally "farther" from Original Heart or Godhead can now get it more easily. Eventually we hope that they get it directly from Us as well.
By the way, we have never said that your fragments could not get light directly from us. They can. However, it will help both them and you if you can accept them back in. You are their right place and they long for acceptance. In some instances, the first step to this process is becoming conscious of the lines between you, and allowing information, and emotions to come from them to you, and sending them your love and Our Grace from you to them.
Grace is infinite, yet at any particular node or connection, it is more or less present, depending on the openness of the "vessel." So you have the power to increase Grace in your life and other's.
(me) I am intrigued by the idea that this is the Holy Spirit. What is with the dove?
(MFGH) The dove is a symbol of peaceful light, of loving light. Jesus-Heart or Son-Heart's role is to draw and channel this aspect of light. When this image arose there was a lot of unloving light, so it was important to distinguish the "right" kind of light.
(me) I am getting that there is some truth to the Christian doctrine of getting to the Father through the Son…
(MFGH) this is referring to the role of "upper heart" in both manifestation and the healing process. You do need some acceptance of this part of yourself in your energy body for it to do its job. And this can be reflected in the outer world as "accepting Jesus."
Note: I asked about a friend who is a mother aspect who has experienced God's Loving Light coming in through her crown and "landing" in here heart (as opposed to my meditation, in which I allow the light to come all the way through me and "land" in the mother "below" me (through my root chakra to the Earth). I wondered if this difference was because as heart, the light goes through me to the mother, who is the ground for it. MFGH said it was a complex question and I needed more experiential understanding before they could answer.
(MFGH) The thing we would like to talk about today is your relationship to GodHeart.
(me) ??? am I receiving that right? What is GodHeart?
(MFGH) well you invoke it everyday—MotherFatherGodHeart.
(me) oh, right, that. I guess I never really thought of that part of the equation. I just didn't want to leave anybody out or cut myself off from anything.
(MFGH) yes, so you might as well know what you are invoking.
(me) I'm embarrassed that I had never thought about this before.
(MFGH) Imagine a big silver ring with a "jungle bell" linked to it.
(me) okay, yes I have been getting that image ever since you mentioned it.
(MFGH) You are like the bell, and GH is like the ring. The bell has several qualities. It can ring—making noise, signaling, making music, celebrating—and it can travel around the ring's circumference. It can also rotate around the band of the ring itself. So it is pretty fluid.
The ring is round, rigid, with no beginning or end, and can be anywhere in space.
GodHeart is an aspect of God, and an aspect of Heart. It is a part of Original Heart that "bonded" with Spirit. It is the part of OH that holds the blueprint/dream as well as the intention to manifest it. Another way to say it, is that it is Grace. The Holy Spirit. Grandfather's Light.
It is like the ring because it has no beginning or end. It is complete unto itself. We choose the ring shape as opposed to a "beam" shape, coming from Grandfather to you. Since Original Heart is no more, there is no "place" for this beam to come from. Yet it is always there. Solid. What we have to add to the ring image is that the Grace is always traveling along the ring. It is always moving, and always arising. Yet is has no "emergence point."
(me) is it a mobius strip?
(MFGH) it could be, as that breaks up the idea of an inner and outer surface.
Now to the bell. The bell is clearly not the ring, and has a lot of movement, yet it is always following the curve of the beam of the Grace. It has a part of it that is linked to, or "holding" the ring, the beam of Grace. To stretch the analogy, the link is a vessel for the beam of grace. In fact, if you filled the ring with jingle bells, you would have a path made of vessels for Grace to thread through.
When the bells are in alignment, this path is smooth. It doesn't take a long time for the beam to travel around, as it's path is in the most efficient shape. In "reality," however, the bells are not aligned, and some of them are even missing. So this affects the path of Grace.
However, the now-oddly-shaped "ring" is never broken. The path is never broken. Even in the smallest fragments, there is always some remnant of that which can receive Grace. This is why healing is possible... why God's/Grandfather's Grace can always "find" you, and is, in fact, always there for you. When you open to channel, you are intending to be the path, the vessel, the tube. This strengthens the path, which strengthens the Flow of Grace.
GodHeart (the bell and the ring together) is both the oldest and the youngest aspects of Spirit. It transcends the Seven Creations. It is what links them together. You could almost look at it as the "stream of time." It allows for continuity. You could also look at is as the "evolutionary path." Or even the "DNA of the Universe."
(me) I am getting the image of the World card in the Crowley Tarot deck.
(MFGH) yes. Which brings up the concept of the Matrix.
The Matrix is the "MF" of MFGH, the Mother of Everything+Father of Manifestation part of the equation. It is the space, form, and ground for the ring and the bells. A matrix is often seen as a lattice. Let us use this model and consider each part of the lattice.
Each node is a point of view (entity), and each line is a "line" or "cord" or "agreement" or "connection" between them. Together, they all make up the framework for "consensual reality." Of course, our problem is that there are tears in the lattice, large holes or gaps where points of view are missing. There are nodes that do not connect to the rest, for various reasons.
Now let us consider the lattice in three dimensions, like the neuron cells in a brain. As you know, some of the neural pathways are more developed that others, so you could say that the Matrix Itself is imprinted and shaped, not just the individual nodes.
And what travels along the lines? Well, Grace, for one thing. And because of the shape and imprinting of the Matrix, it is easier for some parts to receive it than others.
But Grace itself is decentralized. We know that you have been focusing on light coming "from" the Godhead, "down" through Purple, to "you," and we want to give you an alternative, more complex picture. It is parallel to an understanding that you got many years ago, that there is no real "center" to the Will, or rather, that there are an infinite number of centers that can open space and receive Loving Light.
(me) wow this is better than an acid trip.
(MFGH) :)
(me) I get that this has something to do with my rage… specifically my rage at Purple. I am also suspecting that it has something to do with my guru issues—my (apparently mistaken) idea that light/grace is sourced somewhere Else, and I have to "do whatever it takes" to get it.
(MFGH) Yes. You do not have to get Our Light "through" anyone else. In fact, we want you to get it directly from Us. This strengthens the Matrix, in ways not easy to explain. If the Source of Grace and Light is distributed, then nodes that were originally "farther" from Original Heart or Godhead can now get it more easily. Eventually we hope that they get it directly from Us as well.
By the way, we have never said that your fragments could not get light directly from us. They can. However, it will help both them and you if you can accept them back in. You are their right place and they long for acceptance. In some instances, the first step to this process is becoming conscious of the lines between you, and allowing information, and emotions to come from them to you, and sending them your love and Our Grace from you to them.
Grace is infinite, yet at any particular node or connection, it is more or less present, depending on the openness of the "vessel." So you have the power to increase Grace in your life and other's.
(me) I am intrigued by the idea that this is the Holy Spirit. What is with the dove?
(MFGH) The dove is a symbol of peaceful light, of loving light. Jesus-Heart or Son-Heart's role is to draw and channel this aspect of light. When this image arose there was a lot of unloving light, so it was important to distinguish the "right" kind of light.
(me) I am getting that there is some truth to the Christian doctrine of getting to the Father through the Son…
(MFGH) this is referring to the role of "upper heart" in both manifestation and the healing process. You do need some acceptance of this part of yourself in your energy body for it to do its job. And this can be reflected in the outer world as "accepting Jesus."
Note: I asked about a friend who is a mother aspect who has experienced God's Loving Light coming in through her crown and "landing" in here heart (as opposed to my meditation, in which I allow the light to come all the way through me and "land" in the mother "below" me (through my root chakra to the Earth). I wondered if this difference was because as heart, the light goes through me to the mother, who is the ground for it. MFGH said it was a complex question and I needed more experiential understanding before they could answer.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
about the posts
I have been channeling for about eight years, but I will be starting with material from recent months (late 2006). As much of it is personal and not of general interest, I will be editing it with the intent of posting the stuff that other people might be interested in. So it may be a bit choppy as I am just pulling out the "good parts."
I put who is speaking in (parenthesis).
(me) = me
(MFGH) = MotherFatherGodHeart
(God) = Spirit
(Mother) = Will
etc.
In the interest of expediency, I am not going to do a lot of explaining, but if anything is not clear, or you would like to pursue something, please don't hesitate to comment. I (and MFGH) would be happy to clarify or expand on anything that interests you. Plus this will give me new topics to channel about.
Also if you would like to share a response, channeled or otherwise, please post it in the comments or email me. If you are willing for it to be posted, please let me know. I think/feel it is very helpful for me and all of us to hear from multiple points of view.
Also: please read from the "bottom, up." That is the convention for blogs.
I put who is speaking in (parenthesis).
(me) = me
(MFGH) = MotherFatherGodHeart
(God) = Spirit
(Mother) = Will
etc.
In the interest of expediency, I am not going to do a lot of explaining, but if anything is not clear, or you would like to pursue something, please don't hesitate to comment. I (and MFGH) would be happy to clarify or expand on anything that interests you. Plus this will give me new topics to channel about.
Also if you would like to share a response, channeled or otherwise, please post it in the comments or email me. If you are willing for it to be posted, please let me know. I think/feel it is very helpful for me and all of us to hear from multiple points of view.
Also: please read from the "bottom, up." That is the convention for blogs.
a "note" on channeling
God has told me that from his perspective, all of the channelers are like different musical instruments that he plays... each one has its own tone, range, and cadence... each one is unique, and has its own contribution to the Whole...
Like instruments, one is not "better" than another, but we may have preferences, we may resonate more with one than another... and none of them can produce the whole Symphony...
All are necessary for that... So you may be a flute, or you may like the flutes the best... but flutes alone cannot express everything there is to express in Creation... we need the cello, the timpani... and we need more than the orchestra, we need the African drums, the South American Pan pipes...
Channeling is a Joyful Noise, and each of us has our Part to Play...
So I invite you to think of this as just one voice in the Chorus, and to Sing your own HeartSong... and share it here, if you feel so moved.
Like instruments, one is not "better" than another, but we may have preferences, we may resonate more with one than another... and none of them can produce the whole Symphony...
All are necessary for that... So you may be a flute, or you may like the flutes the best... but flutes alone cannot express everything there is to express in Creation... we need the cello, the timpani... and we need more than the orchestra, we need the African drums, the South American Pan pipes...
Channeling is a Joyful Noise, and each of us has our Part to Play...
So I invite you to think of this as just one voice in the Chorus, and to Sing your own HeartSong... and share it here, if you feel so moved.
my bio
I can't remember the very first time I learned about channeling, but I did know about mediumship as a child. I wanted to "be psychic" from a very young age. In first grade my friends and I would search the neighborhood for clues—kind of like "Harriet the Clairvoyant." I remember we found a mitten-shaped marking in a paving stone down the street from my house—ooh! A sign! Never mind we had no clue what it was a sign of.
At my 12th birthday party we had a séance trying to contact Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. We sat at a table and passed around a red rose chanting his name. The candle in the center cast creepy shadows on the wall. We had almost convinced ourselves that we had made contact when my Dad sprang through the door, shouting "boo!" and sending us into scared giggles.
When I was 16 I discovered the Tarot, and began a life-long love affair with it. It really suits my particular learning style—intuitive, emotional, right brain, experiential and kinetic. Early on I abandoned the "you will meet a brown-haired man" school of thought. Long before I understood what the word meant, I was searching for the symbolism of the archetypes.
When I was 18 I learned how to do self-hypnosis, which was the first time I was able to access different levels of consciousness. My friend had gone to a lecture, and described the technique to me when she came home. I was fascinated. I remember sitting in the cement stairwell outside my dorm, looking up at the stars, determined to master it. It turns out I am an easy subject, which has its good and bad points.
Coming of age was marked by a trip to the Isle of Mytilini (Lesbos) in Greece with a women's study program. Here my psychic abilities blossomed. We had no phones; we had to rely on the psychic airwaves to communicate with each other. The messages were very specific: "Meet me at the crossroad at 1:00." And there my friend would be, saying "Hey, I had a feeling that I'd find you here!"
I found myself in the role of oracle there… mostly through the Tarot cards. I felt like the "airspace" was a lot clearer than in the States—both because not everybody spoke English, but also because there was literally less electromagnetic transmissions in that part of the world. I imagine that its very different today.
At this point my spirituality was kind of Pagan, with an emphasis on the Goddess. I never joined a coven, but I did enjoy the ritual of casting a sacred circle, calling the four elements, and reading the Tarot. I got very into candle magic. One time my lover and I burned two candles, one for each of us, and for "some reason" stream of wax built up a third column, and then a piece of the wick split off, landing on top of it, essentially forming a new candle that then burned down along with the other two. We were astonished!
Another time we had the intention to release the influence of a witch on my lover, and the whole time the candle burned it moaned, I kid you not. She did not let go easy!
But I quit doing magic when a love spell backfired—coming true after I had changed my mind.
In my early 20s I read a workbook about energy work that had an exercise about connecting with your spirit guide. I found it surprisingly easy to do (my self-hypnosis skill came in handy), and my guide showed up in a white robe and headdress on a rocky beach and introduced herself as "Ruth, which rhymes with Truth."
Five years later I was at a workshop (more about this below) admiring a participant's pendant which had an unusual golden sunburst design with a diamond in the center of it. She told me her spirit guide designed it for her, and she had it made with her mother's engagement diamond. As we shared spirit guide stories we were shocked to discover that her guide was also "Ruth, which rhymes with Truth," wore the same white robes, and lived on the beach. I guess Ruth got around!
But before this happened, a friend of mine who had graduated from a psychic school led me on my first past life regression. We both got information about the same situation—living in Atlanta around the time of the Civil War. We saw that we were still in the same relationship patterns. It was disturbing. She went on to continue to work out her karma with the other two people involved by becoming roommates with them. I ended up moving to Atlanta totally unexpectedly 15 years later.
The next set of lessons in my life happened when I began to study ontology ("the nature of being") at a martial arts school. We explored energy ("chi"), perception, cognition, the functionality of the body, and consciousness. I learned several forms of meditation in the general categories of energy circulation and empty mind and practiced them a lot. Our "heritage" was Eastern, specifically Zen, but we did our meditation in pairs, which was very powerful.
We would face each other, and one would say: "Experience who you are, and communicate that to me." The other would try to do just that. Its hard to describe in words, but the communicator would try to presence the totality of her being, really loudly, and then transmit it on a non-verbal level to the receiver. It was a powerful practice.
I had some wild psychic experiences at these workshops. At one point I started seeing clear "flames" coming out of the top of people's heads who were having some kind of enlightenment experiences. It reminded me of the paintings of the Apostles in my Children's Bible—they had little flames floating above their crown chakras.
I became curious about developing my psychic abilities so I went to get a reading at the school where my friend had trained. They did an "assessment" of my various abilities, including "channeling." They said I only had a 3% talent in this area. I was crestfallen. By now I had my heart set on it.
I began to go to a weekly channeling session with a young gay male teacher who had studied with Elizabeth Claire Prophet and became a channel for St Germaine of the Purple Ray and various other entities. He would not only channel them, but also lead us in energy meditations, bringing light into our chakra system. It felt SO good. I would pay lots of money to go to private sessions with him. I felt like I was mainlining Light. We were very involved in the Harmonic Convergence.
So I joined his two-year metaphysicians program. We worked on our energy bodies, clearing out our chakras, "transmuting" negative energy, and developing our ability to do psychic readings. People came for free readings in our class and we would all sit around them in a half circle, sharing what we saw. In this way we could "calibrate" what we saw with other people, and the clients would give us feedback on our accuracy. It was an extremely valuable experience.
The first time I channeled was on a psilocybin trip. I got a message from God that I will never forget. He sent me an image of a big oak tree, and a poem:
I was thrilled! I wrote it out in calligraphy and put it on my wall. I was not sure I believed in God, but apparently he was there for me nonetheless. But I was not able to receive him in my ordinary consciousness.
Then in 1986 I encountered some channeled material in the form of a book called the Right Use of Will. This had a profound impact on me. It introduced the idea of the Will—the emotional body—and provided a way to heal and evolve it through emotional expression, or "movement." Vibration was a key attribute of a healthy will, and so the reader was encouraged to express their feelings with sound.
It opened up a whole new realm for me—and brought many of the threads that I had followed before together. Here was where God and the Great Mother intersected. Here was an explanation for the turning away from the Mother on our planet. And here was a way to restore the Feminine Aspect to her right place… both in the world, and within me.
I ended up leaving the metaphysicians program and the martial arts school, and embarking on my own path of healing, using the Right Use series of books as my guide. I discovered that I could access many understandings as I allowed myself to feel and express my grief, terror, and rage fully.
I decided to try and make a living using my psychic skills in a tourist location. My psychic teacher gave me his blessing, saying that I was ready, and would learn much more by doing that than he could ever teach me in a class. He was right. I encountered many different kinds of people from all over the world, and saw all kinds of things.
One reading that I remember the best involved a beautiful young woman who seemed drained of vitality. I saw a golden cage with six bars surrounding her chakras. When I do readings I usually tell the client what I am seeing and they help me interpret it. I told her what I saw and she sighed, nodded, and said her family was very rich, and she felt trapped by their expectations. The six bars represented the six children.
Another time I saw a Chinese dragon flying around the client's aura, and we were puzzled until his sister said they had just been looking at dragons in an Asian import store.
The most magical experience was when I explained the basic energy circulation to one of my clients, and his Spirit connected to him. He started to cry, and kept saying "thank you!" I kept telling him "its your Spirit, you can have this!" He gave me a big tip, much to his girlfriend's chagrin.
One the one hand I was very balanced during this period, because to be a clear psychic I had to do my mediation every day. On the other hand I was exhausted, both from the readings and from working outside in the elements.
As I worked through the material in the Right Use of Will (RUOW or RU) series (there are eight books total), I began to get some perspective on my own issues on a more "cosmic" level. I started to understand why I had drawn the situations I had been in. I began to try and understand my "reflections"—especially the responses I got from other people. What were they telling me about myself, and what I was denying?
One of the key concepts in the RU series is denial. When we deny our feelings they do not just cease to exist. They are either held in our bodies, or they fragment out of us and go out in the world and act out. This was a very shocking revelation—that we were, in fact, causal to and responsible for the horrible things happening out in the world, despite our best intentions. But it made sense to me. I vowed to do my part to heal the planet. I began to accept my feelings and give them expression, no matter how I had previously judged them as "unloving" in the past.
One of the promises in "the Books" was that each of us could hear from God. This gave me hope that I could someday channel myself. But I was intimidated by the prospect. Then I came across some earlier channeling by the author of the RU series. I suddenly had the feeling that "I could do this!" It seemed more on "my level." So I sat down in front of my computer and tried to listen.
The very first words that God said to me were: "You have to bring your Will all the way up to Purple so that you can know it is Me." He was saying that I needed to have my will energy fully present in all of my chakras, all the way up to the Crown, so that I could use my will to distinguish His Light as I was opening my chakra to receive light.
Eight years later, I still practice this principle when I channel. I find that my best channeling comes when I spend some time opening my Root chakra to Mother energy coming from the Earth, allowing it to rise and nurture all of my chakras, and fountain out of my crown. Then I open to Loving Light from above, and draw the Light that has acceptance for the Mother down through each of my chakras, and finally out my Root into the Earth.
I experience myself as a Conduit, or Vessel, for the Two Greater Cosmic Forces to meet, join, and heal. In my latest dialogs with Deity, I call this being a "tube."
Shortly after this first experiment, I decided I wanted to talk to other people that were channeling. I had heard about the GodChannel, and so went to their website. They have an excellent course in channeling that I recommend. But you do not need a course to do it.
I ended up contributing to the site, mostly behind the scenes, and developed a very personal relationship with God, as my Coach. He gives pretty good advice!
I have not fully developed the skill for channeling for "public consumption," but I have channeled "for" other people and shared my work with a small circle of friends over the years. Some of my pieces are better than others, but I have gotten the feedback that the material I am able to get is useful.
I don't believe that I have an "omniscient" point of view with my channeling—quite the opposite, in fact. I believe that I am one tiny "hole" which FatherMotherGodHeart come through—and the shape of this hole is limited my own denials and judgments and emergence point and history.
I am very much still on my path, and the one truth I have discovered, is that my point of view is constantly evolving. My ability to receive has evolved along with it, and it is clear to me that Deity is only able to give me what I can open to.
So I offer this blog as just another point of view to add to your own understandings. I think all of our points of view are so important, and so important to share. This blog is just one facet of the diamond. Reality is multidimensional and complex, and we can only understand it if we have all of the voices expressing.
In this Spirit I welcome your contributions, either as comments, or as emails to me, and if you would like, I will post them on the blog.
Namaste,
Sapphire
At my 12th birthday party we had a séance trying to contact Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. We sat at a table and passed around a red rose chanting his name. The candle in the center cast creepy shadows on the wall. We had almost convinced ourselves that we had made contact when my Dad sprang through the door, shouting "boo!" and sending us into scared giggles.
When I was 16 I discovered the Tarot, and began a life-long love affair with it. It really suits my particular learning style—intuitive, emotional, right brain, experiential and kinetic. Early on I abandoned the "you will meet a brown-haired man" school of thought. Long before I understood what the word meant, I was searching for the symbolism of the archetypes.
When I was 18 I learned how to do self-hypnosis, which was the first time I was able to access different levels of consciousness. My friend had gone to a lecture, and described the technique to me when she came home. I was fascinated. I remember sitting in the cement stairwell outside my dorm, looking up at the stars, determined to master it. It turns out I am an easy subject, which has its good and bad points.
Coming of age was marked by a trip to the Isle of Mytilini (Lesbos) in Greece with a women's study program. Here my psychic abilities blossomed. We had no phones; we had to rely on the psychic airwaves to communicate with each other. The messages were very specific: "Meet me at the crossroad at 1:00." And there my friend would be, saying "Hey, I had a feeling that I'd find you here!"
I found myself in the role of oracle there… mostly through the Tarot cards. I felt like the "airspace" was a lot clearer than in the States—both because not everybody spoke English, but also because there was literally less electromagnetic transmissions in that part of the world. I imagine that its very different today.
At this point my spirituality was kind of Pagan, with an emphasis on the Goddess. I never joined a coven, but I did enjoy the ritual of casting a sacred circle, calling the four elements, and reading the Tarot. I got very into candle magic. One time my lover and I burned two candles, one for each of us, and for "some reason" stream of wax built up a third column, and then a piece of the wick split off, landing on top of it, essentially forming a new candle that then burned down along with the other two. We were astonished!
Another time we had the intention to release the influence of a witch on my lover, and the whole time the candle burned it moaned, I kid you not. She did not let go easy!
But I quit doing magic when a love spell backfired—coming true after I had changed my mind.
In my early 20s I read a workbook about energy work that had an exercise about connecting with your spirit guide. I found it surprisingly easy to do (my self-hypnosis skill came in handy), and my guide showed up in a white robe and headdress on a rocky beach and introduced herself as "Ruth, which rhymes with Truth."
Five years later I was at a workshop (more about this below) admiring a participant's pendant which had an unusual golden sunburst design with a diamond in the center of it. She told me her spirit guide designed it for her, and she had it made with her mother's engagement diamond. As we shared spirit guide stories we were shocked to discover that her guide was also "Ruth, which rhymes with Truth," wore the same white robes, and lived on the beach. I guess Ruth got around!
But before this happened, a friend of mine who had graduated from a psychic school led me on my first past life regression. We both got information about the same situation—living in Atlanta around the time of the Civil War. We saw that we were still in the same relationship patterns. It was disturbing. She went on to continue to work out her karma with the other two people involved by becoming roommates with them. I ended up moving to Atlanta totally unexpectedly 15 years later.
The next set of lessons in my life happened when I began to study ontology ("the nature of being") at a martial arts school. We explored energy ("chi"), perception, cognition, the functionality of the body, and consciousness. I learned several forms of meditation in the general categories of energy circulation and empty mind and practiced them a lot. Our "heritage" was Eastern, specifically Zen, but we did our meditation in pairs, which was very powerful.
We would face each other, and one would say: "Experience who you are, and communicate that to me." The other would try to do just that. Its hard to describe in words, but the communicator would try to presence the totality of her being, really loudly, and then transmit it on a non-verbal level to the receiver. It was a powerful practice.
I had some wild psychic experiences at these workshops. At one point I started seeing clear "flames" coming out of the top of people's heads who were having some kind of enlightenment experiences. It reminded me of the paintings of the Apostles in my Children's Bible—they had little flames floating above their crown chakras.
I became curious about developing my psychic abilities so I went to get a reading at the school where my friend had trained. They did an "assessment" of my various abilities, including "channeling." They said I only had a 3% talent in this area. I was crestfallen. By now I had my heart set on it.
I began to go to a weekly channeling session with a young gay male teacher who had studied with Elizabeth Claire Prophet and became a channel for St Germaine of the Purple Ray and various other entities. He would not only channel them, but also lead us in energy meditations, bringing light into our chakra system. It felt SO good. I would pay lots of money to go to private sessions with him. I felt like I was mainlining Light. We were very involved in the Harmonic Convergence.
So I joined his two-year metaphysicians program. We worked on our energy bodies, clearing out our chakras, "transmuting" negative energy, and developing our ability to do psychic readings. People came for free readings in our class and we would all sit around them in a half circle, sharing what we saw. In this way we could "calibrate" what we saw with other people, and the clients would give us feedback on our accuracy. It was an extremely valuable experience.
The first time I channeled was on a psilocybin trip. I got a message from God that I will never forget. He sent me an image of a big oak tree, and a poem:
When this you see, remember me
I am as constant as the tree.
I was thrilled! I wrote it out in calligraphy and put it on my wall. I was not sure I believed in God, but apparently he was there for me nonetheless. But I was not able to receive him in my ordinary consciousness.
Then in 1986 I encountered some channeled material in the form of a book called the Right Use of Will. This had a profound impact on me. It introduced the idea of the Will—the emotional body—and provided a way to heal and evolve it through emotional expression, or "movement." Vibration was a key attribute of a healthy will, and so the reader was encouraged to express their feelings with sound.
It opened up a whole new realm for me—and brought many of the threads that I had followed before together. Here was where God and the Great Mother intersected. Here was an explanation for the turning away from the Mother on our planet. And here was a way to restore the Feminine Aspect to her right place… both in the world, and within me.
I ended up leaving the metaphysicians program and the martial arts school, and embarking on my own path of healing, using the Right Use series of books as my guide. I discovered that I could access many understandings as I allowed myself to feel and express my grief, terror, and rage fully.
I decided to try and make a living using my psychic skills in a tourist location. My psychic teacher gave me his blessing, saying that I was ready, and would learn much more by doing that than he could ever teach me in a class. He was right. I encountered many different kinds of people from all over the world, and saw all kinds of things.
One reading that I remember the best involved a beautiful young woman who seemed drained of vitality. I saw a golden cage with six bars surrounding her chakras. When I do readings I usually tell the client what I am seeing and they help me interpret it. I told her what I saw and she sighed, nodded, and said her family was very rich, and she felt trapped by their expectations. The six bars represented the six children.
Another time I saw a Chinese dragon flying around the client's aura, and we were puzzled until his sister said they had just been looking at dragons in an Asian import store.
The most magical experience was when I explained the basic energy circulation to one of my clients, and his Spirit connected to him. He started to cry, and kept saying "thank you!" I kept telling him "its your Spirit, you can have this!" He gave me a big tip, much to his girlfriend's chagrin.
One the one hand I was very balanced during this period, because to be a clear psychic I had to do my mediation every day. On the other hand I was exhausted, both from the readings and from working outside in the elements.
As I worked through the material in the Right Use of Will (RUOW or RU) series (there are eight books total), I began to get some perspective on my own issues on a more "cosmic" level. I started to understand why I had drawn the situations I had been in. I began to try and understand my "reflections"—especially the responses I got from other people. What were they telling me about myself, and what I was denying?
One of the key concepts in the RU series is denial. When we deny our feelings they do not just cease to exist. They are either held in our bodies, or they fragment out of us and go out in the world and act out. This was a very shocking revelation—that we were, in fact, causal to and responsible for the horrible things happening out in the world, despite our best intentions. But it made sense to me. I vowed to do my part to heal the planet. I began to accept my feelings and give them expression, no matter how I had previously judged them as "unloving" in the past.
One of the promises in "the Books" was that each of us could hear from God. This gave me hope that I could someday channel myself. But I was intimidated by the prospect. Then I came across some earlier channeling by the author of the RU series. I suddenly had the feeling that "I could do this!" It seemed more on "my level." So I sat down in front of my computer and tried to listen.
The very first words that God said to me were: "You have to bring your Will all the way up to Purple so that you can know it is Me." He was saying that I needed to have my will energy fully present in all of my chakras, all the way up to the Crown, so that I could use my will to distinguish His Light as I was opening my chakra to receive light.
Eight years later, I still practice this principle when I channel. I find that my best channeling comes when I spend some time opening my Root chakra to Mother energy coming from the Earth, allowing it to rise and nurture all of my chakras, and fountain out of my crown. Then I open to Loving Light from above, and draw the Light that has acceptance for the Mother down through each of my chakras, and finally out my Root into the Earth.
I experience myself as a Conduit, or Vessel, for the Two Greater Cosmic Forces to meet, join, and heal. In my latest dialogs with Deity, I call this being a "tube."
Shortly after this first experiment, I decided I wanted to talk to other people that were channeling. I had heard about the GodChannel, and so went to their website. They have an excellent course in channeling that I recommend. But you do not need a course to do it.
I ended up contributing to the site, mostly behind the scenes, and developed a very personal relationship with God, as my Coach. He gives pretty good advice!
I have not fully developed the skill for channeling for "public consumption," but I have channeled "for" other people and shared my work with a small circle of friends over the years. Some of my pieces are better than others, but I have gotten the feedback that the material I am able to get is useful.
I don't believe that I have an "omniscient" point of view with my channeling—quite the opposite, in fact. I believe that I am one tiny "hole" which FatherMotherGodHeart come through—and the shape of this hole is limited my own denials and judgments and emergence point and history.
I am very much still on my path, and the one truth I have discovered, is that my point of view is constantly evolving. My ability to receive has evolved along with it, and it is clear to me that Deity is only able to give me what I can open to.
So I offer this blog as just another point of view to add to your own understandings. I think all of our points of view are so important, and so important to share. This blog is just one facet of the diamond. Reality is multidimensional and complex, and we can only understand it if we have all of the voices expressing.
In this Spirit I welcome your contributions, either as comments, or as emails to me, and if you would like, I will post them on the blog.
Namaste,
Sapphire
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