[note: this refers to the previous post.]
Dear MFGH,
Thanks for yesterday's channeling. I feel more secure. I am questioning how I could be a fairy that fragmented out of the Mother? in Pan and also Indigo. And also how I could have gone up? Was I with the Mother in the beginning stories? Or did I go back into her?
The question of identity as usual.
Dear Sapphire,
Remember the new model of identity that we are building. There were splits in your core early on, and yes, some of them went with the Mother and some went with the Father. Some went with Spirit and some with Heart. So yes, you do have presence in many stories and scenarios.
You are not one "dot" traveling through space along a storyline. You are many dots traveling along many storylines. Sometimes your essence merged back together, sometimes new splits arose. You are the Parental aspect of your essence. Which means you have the power and responsibility to bring all of yourself back together.
The Books were written as if there was one identity along one linear path, but as we said many times, we were limited by language and your individual perspective of storyline. Unfortunately, in group settings, there is a strong tendency to identify each individual as one thing, one role in the group story.
As individuals, however, most people experience the multiplicity of lives and perspectives. And many times they feel safe to share this in pairs and small groups.
So the question you have asked many times: "how could I be both X and Y" is answered by the understanding of fragmentation.
Now there is more than one "I" that we are talking about here: your Parental story and the parallel paths that your fragments took. "You" (parental you) do have one storyline, and that is the one that you are so desperate to find and claim and have validated externally. But other people have felt "you" in your fragments, so they have not validated the story that you want to claim.
Each of us is faced with the same issue that God faced: exclaiming "that's not me!" while everybody else is in shock because of 1) his behavior and 2) his denial (apparently sincere) that he never did anything of the sort!
So yes, you have perp essence to bring back in.
This is where the GC version of wholeness overlaps with the RU version of wholeness. We all have fragmentation all over the place. And basically, our reflections are "trying" to show us what and where it is. So you could say that everything in your venue is reflecting what you need for wholeness
(me) this is very helpful, thanks.
(MFGH) your visual of your self as fireworks is not a bad metaphor. And some of the streams have their own explosions. This is why we say that denied Greatness is such a problem. You are all diminished, to one degree or another. Many of you have gathered much of yourselves back in, thanks to your dedication to the healing process. But for reasons of guilt, for the most part, the parts of you that hold your talents, your charisma, your magic and power are often the last to come in.
In many ways this is a good progression to follow, because you need to have as much of yourselves back together in order to handle these aspects of yourself. But whenever you see a celebrity or powerful person taking their status for granted, or taking advantage of their status, or abusing their power, consider that you made a judgment about your Greatness—that is was wrong to have it and the benefits that it bestows.
Can you find any judgments?
(me) its funny, but the first celebrity I thought of was Paris Hilton, who I judge as the quintessential shallow Daughter who has nothing to contribute yet gets all the attention, money, etc. I am embarrassed for her. Which would only really make sense if I identify with her in some way. Yet she feels very foreign to me. I don't like her.
(MFGH) what are your judgments against her? Imagine that she is reflecting these judgments back to you.
(me)
I forgive myself for judging and believing for so long that:
Daughters are nothing but shallow, spoiled, greedy and selfish brats.
Daughters have nothing to offer. They are all take and no give.
Gold is pretty but has no value.
Daughters don't understand the value of things.
Daughters don't understand that you have to work.
You can't just stand around being beautiful and get money for it. Its not right.
Daddy is the source of all money.
You need a rich Daddy (Sugar or otherwise) to get any money if you are a Daughter.
If you are a beautiful, young, rich, daughter you will always have the paparazzi in your face.
Every behavior will be scrutinized.
Partying is the only thing that matters.
I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere, but these are just the thoughts that are coming to mind.
I need to stop or at least take a break.
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