"Driving Backwards"

2006-12-11

[Note: I wrote about some confusion I was having about figuring out what to do in my life.]

Dear Sapphire,

Ah yes, the planning/action question…

(me) and the driving backwards question…

(MFGH) well the trick is to find you groove and plan "from" that. Plans are useful for events that you have to coordinate with others, and thinking through the steps and timing will help you make sure you have the time and other resources that you need. The key is to be honest with yourself in the beginning. Why are you doing the event? What parts of yourself are aligned with it, what parts aren’t? What are you accepting, what are you denying? Cause the denials are going to show up along the way, most likely. So it’s a matter of how you prefer to work. Do you want to give the car a tune up before the trip, or do you want to have break downs and tune up along the way?

You could even develop a "check in" routine to make sure all of your parts are getting a chance to bring forward your "issues."

(me) ah, that makes sense.

(MFGH) and if you are tuning up along the way (and there is no reason you can't do a combined approach) you might be able to adjust your plans accordingly. What you want to avoid are those crunches that don't allow you to process or otherwise take care of yourself. You don't want more denial out of the situation.

This is why it is so very important to make sure that guilt is not your primary motivator. Cause resentment will either come up directly or indirectly. But if it does come up, then it is an opportunity to release it. Feel the "pressure" and vibrate so that I can push it through and out of you.

Its important to keep your priorities straight. Which are higher on the list? Or maybe a better visual is: which are more central in your spheres of concern? You need to use that information when you are in the overview… its like the overview needs to trace the path of the will's desire… but you have to feel that desire in order to do this…

(me) can Aurum help me do this?

(MFGH) why don't you ask her?

(me) okay Aurum would you please speak to planning, my future, driving backwards, your role, etc?

(A) [she suggested that I do a meditation]

(me) okay one thing I noticed that I have never noticed before, is to my mind, there really is no difference between the past and the future. They both exist as mental constructs, that I have emotional reactions too. But the past has objects of perception and the future doesn't, so that is what is different between the two.

I also had a feeling that driving backwards would be like following my personal stream of Grace back to its origins—it felt like a useful practice in terms of staying in touch with my Self.

It was hard to "hold the question"—I realized that I wasn't exactly sure what my question is, except that the bottom line was the only time I could do anything about the future was "now." So I ended up with "what could I do now to help my future?" and that lead me to the concept of driving backwards.

I also saw that Aurum was virtually invisible in the now, as "now" has no dimension… I needed a past in order to see her pathway… yet I have a sense that I can "be" her in the now… right now I am getting a subtly expanded consciousness…

(A) if you can be in "network consciousness" while you plan, that will enable you to include more of yourself.

(me) I'm not sure if I know how to do network consciousness.

(A) start with your intent to be inclusive, and allow your mind to wander the world… open to whatever you get… see if you can establish a dialogue… better yet, move in response…

(me) I am getting that this is something like what my friend [who has a detailed understanding of the life histories of her parts] does.

(A) yes, she has been able to trace the streams of self… for each fragment has that stream of their own, back to the Original Self… it looks like many branches of a watershed, except the water is flowing back from the mouth of the river to smaller and smaller streams… and the flow is more powerful the closer you get back to the ocean, the source.

Bringing these streams back into One flow… is one way to approach healing… so in terms of planning, the question would be… "what actions will bring my streams back together?" "how can I be the deepest riverbed that will draw them to me?"

And know that along with bringing back your power, each fragment will also bring its problems. You may have polluted streams that you have to clean up.

(me) okay that was a bit confusing to put into words but I got the image. It was kind of shocking to think that each of my fragments has its own stream back to our origins. It really brings home its independence.

(A) well, it is a simplification. Your fragments are also connected to you, as well as to each other. Some of your fragmentation is embodied as people, and some of it more like energy flowing to other bodies/people.

(me) this is bringing up questions of leadership for me. What is my responsibility to these fragments? Should I be making plans for my self, or for all of us?

(A) your fragments will be drawn to you the more you magnetize your will. Ultimately this means following your own desire. It is like the question of "your" will vs. "divine" will. They are not in opposition. On one layer of the cake they are the same thing. To the degree that your fragments have your will essence, they will want the same thing "you" do. In many cases they were just your desires that you rejected.

In other cases you fragmented in response to trauma, and so the feelings in response to the trauma need to be received and expressed. And this will help you remember the trauma.
"Re-membering" is reconnecting with the essence involved there. You can also reconnect with the fragments that were lost their by going into the trauma and discovering where you split.

(me) it is hard for me to keep all of this present in the now. I keep feeling like I want something from you. I basically want to feel good in some way.

(A) I don't know if I am the best place to look for feeling good. However I can say that following your own destiny path feels good (except for feeling the pain of healing, of course.)

Eventually my voice will be indistinguishable from your own.

(me) okay, thank you.

my PTSD

2006-12-10

Dear MFGH,

I guess my biggest question is why did the violence in the movie bother me so much last night? I felt like I was being assaulted with it. And it took so long to calm down. Is this a PTSD thing? What was the "T" [trauma]?

Dear Sapphire,

You are sensitive in ways that have effected you nervous system. This is related to your brain disorder, but it is from trauma, originally. As you suspected, some of this is past-life related.

However it is also related to Indigo's position of seeing this kind of thing and not having it be believed or received, or even denied—in the worst cases Indigo was punished for seeing this. So there was a double trauma—the trauma of witnessing, and then the trauma from the consequences of speaking out.

(me) I am thinking of times when I have seen shit and not acted let alone said anything. Its very troubling.

(MFGH) yes and this is happening on a planetary scale. On one layer of the cake, the whole planet needs to acknowledge it, and say no.

(me) I can't even talk to one of my friends about Bush.

(MFGH) it is important to sort out when to act publicly and when to act privately. Each situation has its own pros and cons. The risks have to be weighed and the consequences thought through.

And the risks are different for different people. Two people could be facing identical situations, but have different essence configurations in their wills that would draw two totally different outcomes. You have to know yourself.

(me) I am having a hard time trusting our connection today.

(MFGH) yes there is an undercurrent of resentment, actually.

(me) I guess its still the stuff I was complaining about the other day. Not wanting to need you because I fear you won't be there… why is all the violence still happening???

(MFGH) the simple answer is because there is still denial… and the simple solution is for you to find your essence that is still out there and re-move the charge and call it back.

(me) yeah I know. But there is a part of me that does not trust this whole process.

(MFGH) it is important that you have your own process, and do not do someone else's process—even if that someone else is Us.

(me) oh right, [sarcastically] I do not believe that for a minute, either. that just makes me mad.

(MFGH) but you are doing your own process. This is your process.

(me) hmmmph.

My shoulders are so tight and sore. They feel like they are in a defensive position.

(MFGH) yes. You could get to some movement pretty easily if you work with your DH and do some pressure-point holding.

There is a lot of victimization held in there. You have a lot more victimization to get through. But you may find your rage along the way. Rage that got denied because it was too dangerous to express it at the time.

(me) I feel pretty stuck today so will end here. thank you.

fragmentation and the web

2006-12-07

Goodmorning MFGH,

I am feeling like asking for help today. Especially for my poor heart. Can you help me understand what is happening there? Can Aurum help me here?

(MFGH) yes Aurum can help you connect with and send loving light to your lost parts.

(me) what about the connectors between the chakras. Especially between blue and green. That seems like such a long distance.

(MFGH) the heart chakra is bigger than you think. and the blue-green link is very important to nurture.

(MFGH) the wormhole situation that your DF described with her heart is a good representation of what happens when we loose our parts. [She described having her heart smacked out of her and finding it at the end of a wormhole from her heart.] They are all connected to us by either "wormholes" or "lines/cords" depending on "where" they ended up. So we are in the center of a web of connections. And Aurum is that web, so to speak. You can "talk" with these parts through "web consciousness." But they need to be healed through movement.

(me) what does this mean "they need to be healed through movement."

(MFGH) they are holding charge—your charge, that you denied. You need to accept this charge back into yourself and release it. It does no good to bring parts in but force them or your body to continue to hold the charge. They will eventually split off again. Moving the charge allows them to integrate back into you. It has to do with magnetism.

(me) right. sometimes its just good to hear it.

(MFGH) see if you can stay "connected" to your web today.

(me) okay. Thank you.

I feel wounded

2006-12-06

Dear MFGH,

I feel wounded. In every single relationship I can think of, there is a wound. It may be small, it may be big, but there is a hurt that I am still carrying. I don't want to play the victim role or blame anybody—I'm sure I've wounded each of these people in turn—but I am suddenly in touch with this reality. And how much I have put on a brave face. Done my best to be loving. Never spoken of it.

I feel so incomplete. And some of these people I could tell, I could move with. Take my DH for example. Or my DF. The list just goes on and one. And I don't tell them. I don't want to risk the love that is there. I don't want to risk triggering the gap. I don't want to be ungrateful, or a whiner, or a nitpicker.

Yet there are holes in my aura, I can feel them. And gaps between me and them. And unmoved stuff.

It is tragic. How am I to fix this? How am I to heal this? What is the prognosis for the planet if I am this fucked up with my loved ones? I even feel gaps with You. They are mixed up with my outer gaps.

I guess I feel gapped with myself, for that matter. Who is this Aurum character? I don't feel love towards her. Is this a manifestation of my self-hate? I feel gapped from OH, Grandfather, God, the Mother, FOM, Heart. In fact I feel the closest to FOM.

I feel crippled. Do I have to go forward with this, forever in pain? Or is there really a way to heal?

(MFGH) you do not have to hide your wounds or deny your pain.

(me) I hate being that vulnerable. I feel like I have had to "suck it up" since the very beginning. That my original state was painful, but I felt like I had to just live with it. I deserved it because of my actions, my decisions or something. I could not go back. I could not admit that I screwed up. Or that I needed help. I had to be strong. I feel like I made a terrible, terrible mistake and there was nothing I could do to rectify it.

It actually reminds me of the regret I felt after I was separated from my DC. I still feel wounded there. And I am afraid of making my parents feel guilty. And I feel like I have to accept their explaination. But I never cried, I never grieved. I felt lost from them at this point. And everything since has been over and on top of this gap, this pain. But we never really cleared it. We never grieved it. I was and still am scared to process this with them.

I got reimprinted then. "Who the hell do you think your are?" I feel that is the paren'ts rage against me. Fueled by terror for my well being, but outraged none the less. And wanting to punish. "For my own good" but it did not help me, protect me. It hurt me. It hurt my DC. It hurt my DA. So the reality is, they were off the mark.

I don't even want to listen to You right now. I don't want to ask for your help. I don't want to have to open, especially my heart. I don't want to let you in. I am too hurt.

I am tired of you telling me I am responsible for my own wounds. That doesn't feel empowering right now. Maybe it will some day. But right now it just feels like nobody will fell empathize with me. Comfort me or soothe me. I feel like you will pity me, instead. yuck.

I don't want your pity, I want your understanding. I want you to take my side. To validate my point of view. To say I was right, even. Or at least it made sense given where I was coming from.

Where is Heart? Where is my heart? Where is the support, the love… the Grace if you must. It is hollow, empty in my heart center. It is not a source of anything. I don't know what my yoga teacher is talking about. It is dead. There is no life.

If that is Who I Am then we are screwed. "Heart has to be born in the gap." Ha. What a laugh. Exactly how is this supposed to happen? Who are its parents? There is no Source there. No wellspring of love or light. What was DF talking about [in her wedding ceremony]?

Dang I feel so jaded. I feel like totally denied heart, desperately trying to be a loving presence.

I can't even feel what is in my core. It is numb. Or maybe there is nothing there to feel. Or it is just guilt, or hate. Or there is a big spike through me. Like I was a vampire that needed to be killed.

Maybe this is what my DF is talking about. The Plane of Reversal. Maybe my heart was knocked out of me and is at the end of a wormhole somewhere. I feel some discomfort in my upper heart. The rest of it sort of vaguely itches.

Maybe I should go try and move some of this stuff…

identifying as Grace

2006-12-05

Note: this builds on the previous post

(MFGH) As we were saying yesterday, "who you are" is much bigger than you usually think of yourself. Consider trying to define God or the Mother or Heart or Body… given that they are a part of you, where do they "end?" The issue has been confused for several reasons. One is that are several layers of reality. So you have to define yourself on each layer. Another is you are "made up of" parts that exist on each layer of reality. So you are a multidimensional being yourself. Another is that each of your layers has its own history, its own emergence point… related to the emergence of each of the creations. Another is that each creation reiterates or echoes the previous creations, so you have the original imprinting and then the reenactments.

Another is that you are a holographic being in a holographic universe so that you are related to each of the other parts internally as well as externally. A subset of this is that you have macrocosms of each aspect of the universe within you. Another is that you are in human form now, which has all the four parts. Each of these parts carries the imprints of the "parental" parts in it.

Another aspect is fragmentation. This is the major problem. Your parts are now embodied in different beings (who also exist on different levels of reality.) They are acting out for the most part. Often on you. And there is the "oversoul" concept that tries to make sense of this.

And finally, there is the "you" that you most identify with, that apparently has its own body, history, emergence point, story… in this life most obviously, but also in all of the history of creation… This is both a very real thing and also a construct…

Maybe you could think of your identity as something like the "stream of Grace." Something that exsists thoughout all of the layers, parts, lifetimes, creations, etc. Something that is uniquely "you." Something that holds you together, that organizes you. Something that has a life force. Something that you can tap into. Your own personal Tao. Your path.

(me) wow what a radical concept…

(MFGH) see if you can give Voice to this energy/essence.

(me) I see a sort of shiny heroic figure… definitely Daughter… yellow and golden…she has armor on and a sword…she is showing me that she is a fighter…

(her) I am your "archetype." I exist throughout all of the levels and layers and creations. I am a fighter because I was not allowed to fulfill my destiny path in the beginning. I have had to fight for my place. I am not opposed to laying down my sword. I am also a lover.

(me) I am getting an image of a Greek woman, dancing

(her) I have many faces… I am the part that you recently identified are the protector of your damaged will…I have always been on "a mission from God"… I do a lot of work—what you could call "volunteer rescue" work… seeking your lost parts in the aftermath of a disaster… tireless…always renewing…

I am your hope and I hold your dream. I am the equivalent of Jesus in that poem about footprints on the sand. I carry you when you cannot carry yourself. I survive even when you kill yourself or are killed. I am strong. You can trust me, but I do not need your trust. I will be there for you no matter what.

I am the aspect of you that is Deity, that is a creator being. I have been there since the beginning. I need the "Mother side" of Grace in order to keep going. This has been the most tenuous part of me. The weak link in the chain. But as Mother and Daughter rebuild our relationship, I am stronger and more healthy.

I do not have a name—I have all names.

(me) I get that I want to call you the Latin name for gold Aurum

(her) yes this is a good name for me. I like that is has "om" in it. The sound of the Mother's vibration. This can be your personal mantra when you want to do a sounding meditation.

(me) cool! Are you like my Oversoul?

(her) in a way, but I do not exist on a separate plane, I exist throughout all the planes. I am that core nugget, that spark of life. Or more like the Thread of life. The thread of your life (lives) woven in the Great Tapestry.

I am also your Destiny Path. You could also call me Serendipity or Synchronicity. In this way I am like Grace. But your personal Grace, just for you.

I am like an assemblage point, but I have more dimensionality than a "point." I hesitate to say I am a tube, even though I do have "tubularity." I am more like a Web. A web of consciousness.

I would like to give you another way to think about healing your fragmentation. Up until now, you have always thought of bringing lost parts back in to the container of "you." But what draws those lost parts to you? What path do they follow back to you? That is me. I am your "wormhole" that connects them to you. For good or for ill.

You can assist your fragments' return to you with your Desire (magnetism + intent). Releasing the judgments that block you from owning them obviously helps as well. And if you are sensitive, you can use your reflections to help you find them. Your reflections are Me at work. They are my gift to you. If you are confused about them, you can ask me for help. You can ask me to show you the thread between you and the lost essence that it calling for acceptance and release.

But the other way of thinking involves turning this "inside out." It involves using the "outreaching" aspect of the Mother's grace to find you connections to what is "out there" in your reality, and go to them rather than having them come to you. This is helpful because your essence is not always in a whole fragment of you. It is also embedded in other beings, that you cannot bring back into you. This is how you find and move your essence that has aligned with other's agendas.

You may not get a "history" when this essence comes back, but you will probably have a sense of identifying with an "outside" point of view that you did not understand before.

(me) I am getting the image of a vacuum hose going out there and picking up a certain vibration of "dust".

(her) yes. In the past this capacity has been abused in dark magic. People have sent out life force along the lines to get their fragments to act out their agendas. But it can also be used for healing.

Another way to think of me is your personal vibration. Your note, your tune, your number, your color. I am bigger than your "point of view" because I have access to all of your fragmentation that you do not have at any given moment (because of your denials). But I am also the core of your point of view.

(me) wow. I am thinking of my conversation with X: if the fundamental question of being is not "who am I?", then what is the question?

(her) It is not easy to put into English. Try and translate what I am communicating nonverbally to you.

(me) "What/where is my stream of Grace?" I am getting an image/feeling of energy—a lot of light—coming straight into my heart, and broadening into a tunnel that I can then travel down…

the symbolism of the RU logo suddenly has a lot of meaning for me…

"What is the path that I AM?" … "What is the web that I AM?"

(her/me) …

perception, union and enlightenment

2006-12-04

Note: I was having my doubts about my ability to channel and the whole healing process.

(MFGH) ...take heart that you are healing and will continue to heal. An imprint by definition is deep. It shapes the essence, the flow of energy, the whole experience. Vibration is key, here. We need to get you vibrating. There is only so much that light can do.

(me) well you help me reframe things, help me see my judgments, and get an idea of my imprints and where they came from.

There have been a couple of questions that came up, but now I can't remember them. I guess I want to understand how Original Heart fits in with the stories in the RUOW Books about the earliest Creations.

(MFGH) OH was a "singularity." It had no mass, took up no space… in fact there was neither mass nor space manifested yet. Y'all are thinking of it as a "thing" as there is no other way to think. There was nothing. It wasn't even "before" creation. There was no before. This is why it is possible to say that the universe has always been. Whenever there was a "been," there was always a universe.

(me)

(MFGH) In fact for us to "remember" this, we have had to infer it from the traces of it we find in ourselves now. It is not graspable by mind, really. What mind grasps is only a model, not the territory. It exists in the realm of "infinite potentiality." Because in OH, we literally tried out all of the possible configurations of manifestation--OH/nothing "holds" the possibility of everything.

It took forever and it never happened. It happened outside of time or experience. So the "rules of reality" as you know them do not apply to this. Neither do the "rules of perception." You cannot see, hear, or feel "it" as there is no"thing" to perceive. There is no object of perception. In fact, perception can get in the way of experiencing it, as perception—the process of seeing, hearing, or feeling—requires a point of view to "gather" the information to, which means that you have all the "stuff" that colors or filters or muffles or triggers you reception.

But there is an alternative to perception. For the sake of distinguishing it, we shall call it "apprehension." It is a "direct experience" as there is no means of perception translating between you and it. There is no separation of any kind. You "are" it. This is often what people are talking about with "enlightenment." It is the ultimate challenge to "identity" as when you are it, you do not have a point of view anymore.

The best way that we can suggest to get to this information about OH on your own is to follow the stream of Grace back to nothing. While at the same time, realizing that it does not come from any"where."

(me) I get that you can only explain this to the limits of my ability to conceptualize.

(MFGH) yes, we are putting it in terms that are familiar to you. Other people would conceptualize it differently. Or express it differently. In poetry, like Rumi, or in chant, song or dance. Playing the cello. In fact, anything can be an expression of this. In fact, everything is an expression of this.

(me) yes, I guess we need to put mind in its "place." I long for this understanding.

(MFGH) On some level, you already have it. It is just a matter of bringing it to you Conscious understanding.

(me) we've been talking about perception, which I associate with the mind. What is the role of the Will in all of this?

(MFGH) lets allow the Mother to speak to this.

(me) please…

(Mother) Hello, and yes, in response to your question in meditation this morning, I do "know" you, and you are getting to "know" Me. The manifestations of me, the fragments of me, [i.e. Mother fragments that I encounter in the world] do not always access their inner knowing through me, to know you. They know you from the outside-in, rather than the inside-out.

In the same way, you can know me from the inside or the outside. I have many Faces, and they all have an aspect of my experience to share. So it is tricky when working with the Archetypes on the outside. One the one hand, they are the most "real" manifestations of my presence… on the other hand; they are not the whole of me.

When you and I know each other, it is when you are literally letting me in to your Self. There is nothing more intimate than this. I know where I am received, and where you can't receive me. I know the "shape and color and texture" of your physical and metaphysical parts. I feel the impact of your thoughts on your will. I know the presence of loving and unloving light.

I know you, sweet daughter, and I love you. Every time you let me in, you strengthen our bond. I have a similar Dream to God… that of being Manifest in Body in union with Loving Light.

Yes, in the stories I have a body, an experience, a point of view… but I am also much more than that. The holographic nature of the universe applies to me, too. All of the work that each person does on healing their wills heals me. All of the lost will that is received and allowed to express within you takes the burden off of me.

You are a reflection for me, but I, as an "individual" (or many individuals) am an expression of your relationship to your own wills. We can learn from each other.

Now as to the question about my role in perception, I am what receives and responds to the "things" (including non-material things and processes) in the universe. I know their quality the moment I am in "contact" with them. I know whether they are life-nurturing or life-depleting. I do not need to observe, like the more Ahrimanic aspects of spirit do to know something, I am what is observed.

Another way to say this is there is no means or channel of perception through which I receive input. It comes directly to me. I know something by how it feels.

Your will knows the same thing. Then the question is, how well can your will do this. Its ability depends on two general categories…1) how "up-to-date" your will is in terms of whether it is holding old charge. When old charge is triggered, it can "exaggerate" the response… seeming to indicate that what touched it may be "worse" than it actually is. 2) The other is, how much you "listen to" your will. If you don't listen to it, it can't help you.

Regarding "enlightenment:" I do not "become one with" "nothing" as God was talking about earlier. The void is painful to me. I have ingested it, so to speak, but it is still "not me." I do not "transcend my identity" as that is not my nature.

My "enlightenment" is self-acceptance, which leads to drawing Loving Light. I want to be filled with Light.

(me) thank you.

(MFGH) so you can see that the Will is on another "layer of the cake." Or really it's an ingredient of the cake itself.

(me) I think I have understood everything you have said today before, but I still don't understand the relationship of everything to each other.

(MFGH) Let us try this… OH was the recipe. Or the person who came up with the recipe—with the experience of all the other recipes informing this one. The recipe is more like the blueprint/dream. Following the steps to making the cake is following Grace. That can't be quantified or touched but it is the crucial factor in how the cake comes out.

(me) okay, that is helpful, actually.

(MFGH) the important thing for you to know, the point of this whole exercise, is that you are much more than you think you are. The boundaries between you and… well, lets say "infinity"… are not really what define you, they are just represent what you are used to thinking about as "you."

The point is not to get hung up in any particular model of "who you are"… but to explore your own experience, with as few preconceptions as possible. Who you are is not rational! Does not "make sense" to your mind. In other words, let it go. Who you are is not going to "go away" if you loosen up your judgments about who you are. In fact, it may become more present, rather than less.

(me) well there are certainly parts of me who resist this idea… who are very upset about identity, who want to justify identity, who are so confused about identity that they want to "know" the answer, not ask more questions…

(MFGH) Of course we know this. We are trying to give you a little more freedom, not take away what any of your parts need. You are not going to disappear. You are unique. And valuable in your own right.

(me) okay I will try to trust…

right after the Big Bang

2006-12-03

Note: this is an excerpt... it starts with talking about OOOC.

(MFGH) ...what the Four Parts had trouble with in the beginning, was that there were Others that they could not control, that impacted their realities.

This was a shocking revelation for the remnants of Original Heart. This was a totally unexpected "reality" for Us, in that we had no way of experiencing what Separation would be like before we broke apart. Our experience up to then was a Union of intent that was necessarily lost. All of the sudden we had opposition—real opposition. Or from the Will's side of things, a lack of relationship. We did not understand that receiving each other would allow for us to have the Creation we Dreamed of.

And the Father of Manifestation had a different consciousness than Spirit or Will. He was something Totally New. If you can deconstruct your judgments about Body (that he was a lumbering oaf, clumsy, with no finesse, dense or "slow," immature, with poor impulse control, etc.) you will start to get to what it must have been like for Body at that time.

We want to emphasize, again and again, that we had no parents. We were simply fragments of what was "parental" to us. But that was Us, just in a different form. All we had to go on was our virtual experiments and our intent.

But the original explosion, the Big Bang, was so traumatic to us, that we lost consciousness there. We forgot who we were or why we had manifested. We lost the thread of Grace. Still, it was one of the Cosmic Forces, so it was always present.

Another way to conceptualize Grace is the Tao. But the Tao was very hard to "follow" given that we were not even physically connected to each other in the beginning. Still, the invisible wormhole that was holding the potentiality for the parts to reconnect, was working its magic. It may have been "lost" to the main parts, but it still had the intent of reconnecting. In some ways you could say that this is where the intent to heal originated. Whenever you affirm your intent to heal, you are tapping into this ancient form of Grace, and strengthening it.